1 00:00:09,298 --> 00:00:11,196 You're bleeding through your bandage. 2 00:00:17,394 --> 00:00:18,759 Good morning. 3 00:00:18,759 --> 00:00:21,160 Don't we need to get you to a doctor? 4 00:00:21,160 --> 00:00:23,192 I am a doctor. 5 00:00:23,192 --> 00:00:25,326 That didn't come up last night? 6 00:00:25,326 --> 00:00:27,393 We didn't do a lot of talking. 7 00:00:43,193 --> 00:00:45,225 I'm good. 8 00:00:57,922 --> 00:00:59,587 You never told me what caused your accident. 9 00:00:59,587 --> 00:01:03,521 I was stabbed by a patient. 10 00:01:03,521 --> 00:01:05,188 That'll teach me to overbill. 11 00:01:39,520 --> 00:01:41,119 If she likes crippled guys, 12 00:01:41,119 --> 00:01:42,851 I'm free for the next six minutes. 13 00:01:42,851 --> 00:01:44,051 What do you want? 14 00:01:44,051 --> 00:01:46,251 45-year-old truck driver, 15 00:01:46,251 --> 00:01:47,684 recurrent seizures. 16 00:01:47,684 --> 00:01:49,052 No metabolic or structural-- 17 00:01:49,052 --> 00:01:50,384 does this look like a good time? 18 00:01:50,384 --> 00:01:52,217 Sort of. 19 00:01:52,217 --> 00:01:54,183 At least as good as the other 12 times 20 00:01:54,183 --> 00:01:56,817 that I've called and paged you in the last three weeks. 21 00:01:56,817 --> 00:01:58,383 Those times I just didn't feel like talking to you. 22 00:01:58,383 --> 00:01:59,449 Kinda like now. 23 00:01:59,449 --> 00:02:00,848 I'd apologize again, 24 00:02:00,848 --> 00:02:03,982 but I'm still waiting for you to accept the first one. 25 00:02:03,982 --> 00:02:05,948 You do work for me. 26 00:02:05,948 --> 00:02:07,948 I am entitled to ask when you're coming back. 27 00:02:07,948 --> 00:02:09,447 I don't know when I'm coming back. 28 00:02:09,447 --> 00:02:10,913 I don't know if I'm coming back. 29 00:02:10,913 --> 00:02:12,479 Got a problem with that, 30 00:02:12,479 --> 00:02:15,013 fire me. 31 00:03:01,005 --> 00:03:02,038 Nice. 32 00:03:05,606 --> 00:03:07,472 It's good to see you in the hospital, 33 00:03:07,472 --> 00:03:09,171 as a patient if not as a doctor. 34 00:03:09,171 --> 00:03:11,438 Believe me, 35 00:03:11,438 --> 00:03:15,504 I'd rather be the guy with the clipboard. 36 00:03:15,504 --> 00:03:16,939 How you doing? 37 00:03:19,072 --> 00:03:21,005 Arrhythmias are gone. 38 00:03:21,005 --> 00:03:22,538 Fine motor control is improving. 39 00:03:22,538 --> 00:03:25,371 Not what I meant. 40 00:03:25,371 --> 00:03:27,638 If you need to talk to someone, 41 00:03:27,638 --> 00:03:29,704 a professional... 42 00:03:29,704 --> 00:03:32,336 I'm fine. 43 00:03:32,336 --> 00:03:34,369 Fine enough to get back to work? 44 00:03:36,803 --> 00:03:38,869 You don't have to work for House, 45 00:03:38,869 --> 00:03:41,235 but you do owe me 20 clinic hours. 46 00:03:41,235 --> 00:03:44,101 What, getting knifed doesn't buy me an extension? 47 00:03:44,101 --> 00:03:46,599 Buys you whatever you need. 48 00:03:46,599 --> 00:03:48,000 But I know you. 49 00:03:48,000 --> 00:03:50,334 If all you do is physical therapy 50 00:03:50,334 --> 00:03:51,800 and your nighttime version of it, 51 00:03:51,800 --> 00:03:53,399 you'll lose your mind 52 00:03:53,399 --> 00:03:56,966 faster than you regain those fine motor skills. 53 00:04:06,467 --> 00:04:08,832 I, uh, have this terrible pain 54 00:04:08,832 --> 00:04:10,667 in my left shoulder. 55 00:04:10,667 --> 00:04:12,766 It came out of nowhere. 56 00:04:12,766 --> 00:04:16,300 And nothing seems to help. 57 00:04:19,166 --> 00:04:21,198 Any other symptoms? 58 00:04:21,198 --> 00:04:23,398 Chest pain? Lightheadedness? 59 00:04:23,398 --> 00:04:25,530 No. None at all. 60 00:04:25,530 --> 00:04:26,997 What were you doing when the pain came on? 61 00:04:26,997 --> 00:04:29,097 Just sitting and praying. 62 00:04:29,097 --> 00:04:31,097 She'd been helping to make the altar breads that morning, 63 00:04:31,097 --> 00:04:33,962 but no hard physical work or repetitive motion. 64 00:04:33,962 --> 00:04:36,028 A couple of possibilities. 65 00:04:36,028 --> 00:04:37,695 You have enlarged lymph nodes, 66 00:04:37,695 --> 00:04:39,861 so I'd like to start by ruling out breast cancer. 67 00:04:39,861 --> 00:04:42,327 And I do mean "rule out." 68 00:04:42,327 --> 00:04:43,626 It's probably nothing. 69 00:04:43,626 --> 00:04:46,127 I'm gonna do a quick breast exam. 70 00:04:46,127 --> 00:04:47,227 Do you mind stepping out for a moment? 71 00:04:49,262 --> 00:04:52,060 Not at all. 72 00:04:55,895 --> 00:04:58,194 That was so I could ask about the second possibility. 73 00:04:58,194 --> 00:05:00,761 Left-sided pain means it could be angina, 74 00:05:00,761 --> 00:05:03,093 which is made worse by stress. 75 00:05:03,093 --> 00:05:04,960 Might not be a coincidence that the pain started 76 00:05:04,960 --> 00:05:07,560 on the verge of a major life change. 77 00:05:07,560 --> 00:05:09,359 How did you know? 78 00:05:09,359 --> 00:05:11,059 Blue veil means you're a postulant, 79 00:05:11,059 --> 00:05:12,826 haven't taken your vows yet. 80 00:05:12,826 --> 00:05:15,059 Brown vestments means you're carmelites, 81 00:05:15,059 --> 00:05:16,358 cloistered nuns, 82 00:05:16,358 --> 00:05:18,059 which explains the chaperone. 83 00:05:21,192 --> 00:05:24,757 You're about to withdraw from the world for good. 84 00:05:24,757 --> 00:05:26,423 I was a seminarian. 85 00:05:26,423 --> 00:05:28,623 Who obviously didn't take his vows. 86 00:05:28,623 --> 00:05:30,422 Cassock made my ass look fat. 87 00:05:31,958 --> 00:05:33,689 Do you mind unbuttoning your shirt 88 00:05:33,689 --> 00:05:34,922 and lying down for me? 89 00:05:34,922 --> 00:05:36,456 Okay. 90 00:05:36,456 --> 00:05:38,921 I have had second thoughts. 91 00:05:38,921 --> 00:05:42,920 I'm kind of a wreck. 92 00:05:45,121 --> 00:05:46,521 A life of perpetual enclosure 93 00:05:46,521 --> 00:05:48,420 and almost complete silence? 94 00:05:48,420 --> 00:05:49,854 If you weren't wrestling with this, 95 00:05:49,854 --> 00:05:52,186 I'd say there's something really wrong with you. 96 00:05:58,254 --> 00:05:59,753 I'm going to admit you. 97 00:05:59,753 --> 00:06:01,053 There's a little mass here, 98 00:06:01,053 --> 00:06:03,953 and I'd like to get it checked out. 99 00:06:03,953 --> 00:06:06,020 It's just a benign fat deposit. 100 00:06:06,020 --> 00:06:07,554 Her imaging's clean. 101 00:06:07,554 --> 00:06:09,986 Stress test too. It's not angina. 102 00:06:09,986 --> 00:06:11,920 So why the shoulder pain? 103 00:06:11,920 --> 00:06:14,221 Is it possible 104 00:06:14,221 --> 00:06:16,220 that she hurt her shoulder? 105 00:06:16,220 --> 00:06:19,054 Thanks a lot. I didn't tell him. 106 00:06:19,054 --> 00:06:20,919 You were cagey about where you were going. 107 00:06:20,919 --> 00:06:22,953 And Chase being cagey in general. 108 00:06:22,953 --> 00:06:25,086 Good chance I'd find the two of you in the same cage. 109 00:06:25,086 --> 00:06:27,119 So I had park follow you. 110 00:06:27,119 --> 00:06:29,784 How you feeling? 111 00:06:29,784 --> 00:06:31,650 Better. 112 00:06:31,650 --> 00:06:33,517 Heard your arm's healing nicely. 113 00:06:33,517 --> 00:06:35,849 Good to see you on your feet. 114 00:06:35,849 --> 00:06:37,249 Patient's a nun? 115 00:06:37,249 --> 00:06:38,982 You turning back to your long-abandoned faith 116 00:06:38,982 --> 00:06:40,615 in time of trouble? 117 00:06:40,615 --> 00:06:42,582 She was next up in the clinic. 118 00:06:42,582 --> 00:06:44,015 And I don't want your help. 119 00:06:44,015 --> 00:06:45,916 You got stabbed. 120 00:06:45,916 --> 00:06:48,249 You blame me. 121 00:06:48,249 --> 00:06:49,983 But what did you learn about me 122 00:06:49,983 --> 00:06:51,716 that you hadn't known for years? 123 00:06:51,716 --> 00:06:54,083 Maybe I was an idiot before and I'm not one now. 124 00:06:54,083 --> 00:06:55,817 Or maybe the reverse is true. 125 00:06:55,817 --> 00:06:57,751 Thanks for all your help. 126 00:07:03,617 --> 00:07:07,615 Your soul sister is having a fungal infection 127 00:07:07,615 --> 00:07:10,680 from the unprocessed wheat in the altar breads. 128 00:07:10,680 --> 00:07:14,381 Explains the shoulder pain and the jumbo lymph nodes. 129 00:07:21,846 --> 00:07:24,478 Thanks for all my help. 130 00:07:27,711 --> 00:07:30,545 I'm--I'm sorry I led House to you. 131 00:07:30,545 --> 00:07:32,810 It's part of the job. 132 00:07:32,810 --> 00:07:35,078 Maybe we could get a meal after work tonight, 133 00:07:35,078 --> 00:07:39,679 if you want some companionship. 134 00:07:39,679 --> 00:07:41,545 You asking me out on a date? 135 00:07:41,545 --> 00:07:42,294 No. 136 00:07:43,246 --> 00:07:47,378 I just-- I guess that sounded-- 137 00:07:47,378 --> 00:07:49,611 must be scary to be back. 138 00:07:49,611 --> 00:07:52,511 All those knives and needles. 139 00:07:52,511 --> 00:07:55,710 Infected blood and tissue everywhere you look. 140 00:07:55,710 --> 00:08:00,076 Just thought you might need someone to talk to about it. 141 00:08:00,076 --> 00:08:02,743 Just knowing you're there for me is enough. 142 00:08:02,743 --> 00:08:03,581 Thanks. 143 00:08:10,410 --> 00:08:12,042 Ever surf Kirra Point? 144 00:08:14,210 --> 00:08:16,408 Obviously you're Australian. 145 00:08:16,408 --> 00:08:20,408 I've surfed all over the Gold Coast. 146 00:08:20,408 --> 00:08:21,874 Don't tell me you have. 147 00:08:21,874 --> 00:08:24,141 The closest I got was Waimea Bay. 148 00:08:24,141 --> 00:08:27,208 I grew up on Maui. 149 00:08:28,976 --> 00:08:30,408 If you don't mind me asking, 150 00:08:30,408 --> 00:08:32,408 why are you becoming a nun? 151 00:08:32,408 --> 00:08:35,075 You asking 'cause I surf? 152 00:08:35,075 --> 00:08:37,309 Well, I know that Jesus walked on water but... 153 00:08:38,710 --> 00:08:41,475 Plus the average postulant is a lot younger than you. 154 00:08:41,475 --> 00:08:43,641 What were you doing before this? 155 00:08:43,641 --> 00:08:45,474 Not much of anything. 156 00:08:45,474 --> 00:08:47,441 Worked as a nanny. Moved around a lot. 157 00:08:47,441 --> 00:08:49,441 Bunch of failed relationships. 158 00:08:49,441 --> 00:08:51,707 And then what? 159 00:08:51,707 --> 00:08:54,540 God spoke to you? You heard the calling? 160 00:08:54,540 --> 00:08:57,673 Something like that. 161 00:09:00,008 --> 00:09:01,440 Does there have to be some dramatic moment 162 00:09:01,440 --> 00:09:02,772 where the skies part? 163 00:09:02,772 --> 00:09:05,238 Usually, yeah. 164 00:09:05,238 --> 00:09:08,205 Is that what happened to you when you entered the seminary? 165 00:09:10,371 --> 00:09:12,570 Mom drank, dad worked. 166 00:09:12,570 --> 00:09:14,968 They stuck me in catholic school. 167 00:09:14,968 --> 00:09:18,168 Priests and nuns were the closest I had to family. 168 00:09:18,168 --> 00:09:21,002 Turned out that wasn't much of a reason to join the priesthood. 169 00:09:21,002 --> 00:09:22,603 Is that why you left? 170 00:09:24,670 --> 00:09:26,069 Something like that. 171 00:09:33,303 --> 00:09:35,502 I think I may throw up. 172 00:09:46,368 --> 00:09:48,767 What's wrong with me? 173 00:09:48,767 --> 00:09:52,033 Not a fungal infection. 174 00:09:59,965 --> 00:10:02,463 You're probably wondering, why the soda balloons? 175 00:10:02,463 --> 00:10:03,597 I'm not. 176 00:10:03,597 --> 00:10:05,829 Well, I'll tell you. 177 00:10:05,829 --> 00:10:07,263 You're not the only one 178 00:10:07,263 --> 00:10:08,696 whose life spiraled out of control 179 00:10:08,696 --> 00:10:10,429 when you got knifed in the ventricle. 180 00:10:10,429 --> 00:10:11,564 Taub has decided-- 181 00:10:11,564 --> 00:10:12,863 I need help with my patient. 182 00:10:12,863 --> 00:10:14,196 She's vomiting. 183 00:10:14,196 --> 00:10:15,963 That's not from a fungal infection. 184 00:10:15,963 --> 00:10:17,062 What are you planning to do 185 00:10:17,062 --> 00:10:18,228 now that you're not working for me? 186 00:10:18,228 --> 00:10:20,295 I have no idea. 187 00:10:20,295 --> 00:10:22,129 Almost dying's been clarifying. 188 00:10:22,129 --> 00:10:23,395 I can do anything. 189 00:10:23,395 --> 00:10:25,496 You can do anything. 190 00:10:25,496 --> 00:10:27,096 So you come back to the same building 191 00:10:27,096 --> 00:10:28,996 you've worked in for years. 192 00:10:28,996 --> 00:10:31,495 Guess you can cross that off your bucket list. 193 00:10:31,495 --> 00:10:33,262 Can we get to my patient sometime soon? 194 00:10:33,262 --> 00:10:36,695 As soon as you admit that you're a confused mess, sure. 195 00:10:36,695 --> 00:10:38,162 You'll help me. 196 00:10:38,162 --> 00:10:40,228 'Cause even though you don't find my case interesting, 197 00:10:40,228 --> 00:10:42,328 you find my interest in it interesting. 198 00:10:43,929 --> 00:10:47,027 Well, when you put it that way... 199 00:10:47,027 --> 00:10:48,693 Ascending colangitis. 200 00:10:53,060 --> 00:10:54,460 Missed me. 201 00:10:54,460 --> 00:10:55,558 Can't be, bilirubin's normal. 202 00:10:55,558 --> 00:10:58,760 Clinical signs can show up days 203 00:10:58,760 --> 00:11:01,125 before lab signs. 204 00:11:02,660 --> 00:11:03,857 Ha ha ha! 205 00:11:05,726 --> 00:11:06,990 This is great. 206 00:11:06,990 --> 00:11:08,492 We should make this a regular thing. 207 00:11:12,459 --> 00:11:13,824 She can't feel her foot at all. 208 00:11:18,892 --> 00:11:20,223 What does this mean? 209 00:11:20,223 --> 00:11:22,023 It means I've got to spend more time 210 00:11:22,023 --> 00:11:24,490 consulting with a colleague. 211 00:11:33,110 --> 00:11:35,443 He tried to tongue-kiss Park when you were closer. 212 00:11:35,443 --> 00:11:37,110 You think his sexuality is normal? 213 00:11:37,110 --> 00:11:39,642 I need more help. My patient has a new symptom. 214 00:11:39,642 --> 00:11:41,043 Ischemic foot. 215 00:11:41,043 --> 00:11:43,044 Get the lecture out of your system 216 00:11:43,044 --> 00:11:44,743 so we can talk about my case. 217 00:11:47,012 --> 00:11:51,610 Let me start with an allegory. 218 00:11:51,610 --> 00:11:52,359 Ah. 219 00:11:57,810 --> 00:11:59,142 Okay, I'm curious. 220 00:11:59,142 --> 00:12:02,341 Your overreaction to your stabbing 221 00:12:02,341 --> 00:12:05,708 is to blame me even as you are drawn to me. 222 00:12:05,708 --> 00:12:08,908 Taub's is to take moronic self-defense classes 223 00:12:08,908 --> 00:12:11,442 that won't defend him against anything. 224 00:12:11,442 --> 00:12:12,975 Krav maga. 225 00:12:12,975 --> 00:12:14,474 Which helped me block your shot 226 00:12:14,474 --> 00:12:15,475 and will continue to help me 227 00:12:15,475 --> 00:12:16,742 defend myself in a building 228 00:12:16,742 --> 00:12:18,209 full of drugged-up strangers. 229 00:12:18,209 --> 00:12:21,208 Taub has to accept that by instinct and genetics 230 00:12:21,208 --> 00:12:22,808 he is a coward, 231 00:12:22,808 --> 00:12:24,042 who's better off running and hiding 232 00:12:24,042 --> 00:12:25,608 at the first sign of danger. 233 00:12:25,608 --> 00:12:28,274 I've already fended off six of your blitzkriegs in a row. 234 00:12:28,274 --> 00:12:30,274 And the seventh? And the eighth? 235 00:12:30,274 --> 00:12:32,441 And the nth? 236 00:12:32,441 --> 00:12:33,440 If you get him, what's that gonna prove? 237 00:12:33,440 --> 00:12:35,405 That unexpected things happen. 238 00:12:35,405 --> 00:12:38,605 By definition, no class can teach you to expect them. 239 00:12:38,605 --> 00:12:41,638 Which is why Taub is idiotic to study them, 240 00:12:41,638 --> 00:12:43,737 and you're idiotic to attach any significance to them. 241 00:12:43,737 --> 00:12:45,237 Blood clot. 242 00:12:45,237 --> 00:12:48,237 Her D-Dimer's normal. 243 00:12:48,237 --> 00:12:49,737 On the other hand-- 244 00:12:51,637 --> 00:12:52,636 Yah! 245 00:12:55,970 --> 00:12:57,702 What if he's right about the blockage 246 00:12:57,702 --> 00:12:59,136 but wrong about the cause? 247 00:12:59,136 --> 00:13:01,069 Vasospasm. 248 00:13:01,069 --> 00:13:03,802 That explains everything but the lymph nodes. 249 00:13:03,802 --> 00:13:05,502 And any minor infection could have caused those. 250 00:13:05,502 --> 00:13:08,201 Calcium channel blocker to treat. 251 00:13:18,901 --> 00:13:20,699 Are you okay? 252 00:13:20,699 --> 00:13:22,399 I almost got you killed by bringing a scalpel 253 00:13:22,399 --> 00:13:23,732 into that room. 254 00:13:23,732 --> 00:13:24,866 I could feel better about that. 255 00:13:24,866 --> 00:13:26,999 You saved my life too. 256 00:13:26,999 --> 00:13:30,265 I think the ledger's clear. 257 00:13:30,265 --> 00:13:32,765 But how can you not be traumatized? 258 00:13:32,765 --> 00:13:35,131 Can't change what happened. 259 00:13:35,131 --> 00:13:37,865 Can only make better choices from here. 260 00:13:37,865 --> 00:13:39,498 So you're Zen about it 261 00:13:39,498 --> 00:13:41,564 but won't let go of your anger toward House? 262 00:13:45,264 --> 00:13:46,896 I'm seeing a trauma counselor. 263 00:13:46,896 --> 00:13:48,396 I think you should too. 264 00:13:48,396 --> 00:13:50,697 I'm okay. 265 00:13:50,697 --> 00:13:52,663 Just knowing you're there for me is enough. 266 00:14:01,498 --> 00:14:03,030 Convent lets you have this? 267 00:14:03,030 --> 00:14:06,397 I borrowed it from one of the nurses. 268 00:14:06,397 --> 00:14:08,364 I'm still on temporary vows. 269 00:14:08,364 --> 00:14:11,330 It may be the last time I hear Eminem for a while. 270 00:14:11,330 --> 00:14:13,797 You're using an iPod. 271 00:14:13,797 --> 00:14:15,929 But I've never seen you use rosary beads. 272 00:14:20,862 --> 00:14:23,361 What day did Jesus die? 273 00:14:23,361 --> 00:14:25,628 I know, one gospel says passover, 274 00:14:25,628 --> 00:14:27,995 another says the day before. 275 00:14:27,995 --> 00:14:29,127 How many times did the cock crow 276 00:14:29,127 --> 00:14:31,194 before Peter's third denial? 277 00:14:31,194 --> 00:14:32,494 Once or twice? 278 00:14:32,494 --> 00:14:35,126 You can't argue away my faith. 279 00:14:35,126 --> 00:14:36,361 Why? 280 00:14:36,361 --> 00:14:37,760 Because it's so strong 281 00:14:37,760 --> 00:14:39,226 even plain contradictions-- 282 00:14:39,226 --> 00:14:42,126 because it's not that strong. 283 00:14:42,126 --> 00:14:44,426 I'm not saying I don't have faith. 284 00:14:44,426 --> 00:14:48,692 I just haven't felt the calling yet. 285 00:14:48,692 --> 00:14:51,691 No one joins the clergy without having that epiphany. 286 00:14:51,691 --> 00:14:54,490 That God's love is speaking to you directly. 287 00:14:54,490 --> 00:14:58,423 It's the silence, the contemplation, 288 00:14:58,423 --> 00:15:00,689 the order. 289 00:15:00,689 --> 00:15:02,122 I need them. 290 00:15:04,789 --> 00:15:07,521 Hoping everything else will come later. 291 00:15:07,521 --> 00:15:09,854 That's not an answer. 292 00:15:09,854 --> 00:15:12,221 If you want silence, you can get ear plugs. 293 00:15:12,221 --> 00:15:14,488 I tried the outside world. 294 00:15:14,488 --> 00:15:16,521 It wasn't enough. 295 00:15:16,521 --> 00:15:17,688 Have you been married? 296 00:15:17,688 --> 00:15:18,437 No. 297 00:15:19,122 --> 00:15:21,122 No kids. You never found a career. 298 00:15:21,122 --> 00:15:23,556 Doesn't sound like the outside world got much of a try. 299 00:15:25,656 --> 00:15:28,787 What you're headed towards now, 300 00:15:28,787 --> 00:15:31,521 14 hours a day in silent prayer, 301 00:15:31,521 --> 00:15:33,954 never having a family, 302 00:15:33,954 --> 00:15:36,454 never touching another human being. 303 00:15:36,454 --> 00:15:38,486 Just because that's what you'd miss the most. 304 00:15:40,453 --> 00:15:42,752 The nurses talk. 305 00:15:46,421 --> 00:15:48,119 Nothing's wrong with having fun. 306 00:15:48,119 --> 00:15:51,385 They said you were almost killed three weeks ago. 307 00:15:51,385 --> 00:15:53,751 You go right back to fun? 308 00:15:53,751 --> 00:15:56,749 Is that why you wanna be a nun? 309 00:15:56,749 --> 00:15:58,316 Someone broke your heart. 310 00:15:58,316 --> 00:15:59,065 No. 311 00:16:02,915 --> 00:16:06,281 I'm just looking for something more. 312 00:16:08,682 --> 00:16:10,147 So am I. 313 00:16:20,814 --> 00:16:22,880 I'm late for work in the clinic. 314 00:16:41,346 --> 00:16:42,778 Really? 315 00:16:42,778 --> 00:16:44,445 George Washingbaum? 316 00:16:44,445 --> 00:16:46,877 He was a character in the Flintsteins. 317 00:16:46,877 --> 00:16:50,577 Just hiding out till House leaves the cafeteria. 318 00:16:54,811 --> 00:16:56,443 The self-defense classes, 319 00:16:56,443 --> 00:16:58,777 you think they're making any kind of difference? 320 00:16:58,777 --> 00:17:01,709 Not as much as House's surprise attacks. 321 00:17:01,709 --> 00:17:03,943 He thinks three steps ahead, so I do too. 322 00:17:05,810 --> 00:17:07,409 Which is why you should accept his apology 323 00:17:07,409 --> 00:17:08,842 and come back on the team. 324 00:17:08,842 --> 00:17:11,208 He's annoying, he's maddening. 325 00:17:11,208 --> 00:17:13,542 But he makes us all better. 326 00:17:16,109 --> 00:17:18,242 Note to self. 327 00:17:21,408 --> 00:17:23,007 Foot color's good. 328 00:17:23,007 --> 00:17:26,440 Arterial pulse is good. 329 00:17:26,440 --> 00:17:28,174 Capillary refill's good. 330 00:17:28,174 --> 00:17:29,773 And her shoulder pain is all gone. 331 00:17:29,773 --> 00:17:32,972 Looks like you're ready to go home. 332 00:17:32,972 --> 00:17:35,472 I'll get the car and meet you out front. 333 00:17:38,706 --> 00:17:41,439 I'd say I'm in the book, 334 00:17:41,439 --> 00:17:43,873 but not the one you'll be reading from now on. 335 00:17:51,639 --> 00:17:56,071 Six years ago, I was a nanny in Honolulu 336 00:17:56,071 --> 00:17:58,704 for this beautiful two-year-old boy. 337 00:17:58,704 --> 00:18:00,937 I loved him. 338 00:18:00,937 --> 00:18:02,871 Probably spent more time with him 339 00:18:02,871 --> 00:18:05,037 than his own parents. 340 00:18:06,870 --> 00:18:11,601 One day I was in the park talking with another nanny. 341 00:18:11,601 --> 00:18:16,001 He wandered out of the sandbox into the street, 342 00:18:16,001 --> 00:18:19,267 into the path of a moving car. 343 00:18:21,700 --> 00:18:23,333 That could have happened to anyone. 344 00:18:23,333 --> 00:18:26,098 I don't think so. 345 00:18:26,098 --> 00:18:28,633 And even if it did, they'd blame themselves 346 00:18:28,633 --> 00:18:30,898 for the rest of their lives too. 347 00:18:30,898 --> 00:18:34,799 You shouldn't. 348 00:18:34,799 --> 00:18:37,964 You shouldn't run from what can still be a good life. 349 00:18:37,964 --> 00:18:40,498 I'm running to God. 350 00:18:40,498 --> 00:18:42,297 After what happened to you, 351 00:18:42,297 --> 00:18:44,531 don't you wanna remake your life? 352 00:18:44,531 --> 00:18:47,698 Not by hiding myself away. 353 00:18:50,032 --> 00:18:52,463 I hope it works out for you. 354 00:18:56,498 --> 00:18:59,897 It is gonna be hard. 355 00:18:59,897 --> 00:19:02,130 Not touching anyone. 356 00:19:46,343 --> 00:19:50,441 Who knew mother inferior was a smoking hottie. 357 00:19:50,441 --> 00:19:52,463 No wonder you're playing handsies with her. 358 00:19:52,463 --> 00:19:54,496 You think I'm hitting on a nun? 359 00:19:54,496 --> 00:19:57,328 Angry at God or I just need a challenge? 360 00:19:57,328 --> 00:19:59,661 Or you're terrified of intimacy, 361 00:19:59,661 --> 00:20:01,661 which is why you're a serial slut. 362 00:20:01,661 --> 00:20:05,293 But right now you're grasping at an emotional life raft. 363 00:20:05,293 --> 00:20:08,926 Ideally someone for whom intimacy's not an option. 364 00:20:08,926 --> 00:20:10,859 That actually makes sense, which I can't say 365 00:20:10,859 --> 00:20:12,091 about anything else you've been doing. 366 00:20:12,091 --> 00:20:13,990 I'm not emotionally involved with her. 367 00:20:13,990 --> 00:20:16,324 And much as I'd love to hear you contradict me, 368 00:20:16,324 --> 00:20:19,058 I have a 7:30 appointment to explore my intimacy issues 369 00:20:19,058 --> 00:20:21,457 at La Scala. 370 00:20:23,592 --> 00:20:25,057 I'm talking to this agent. He's a bit of a sleaze. 371 00:20:25,057 --> 00:20:27,624 But he's really excited about representing me. 372 00:20:27,624 --> 00:20:29,623 Although he can't take on any new clients right now, 373 00:20:29,623 --> 00:20:30,957 he's trying to get me an audition 374 00:20:30,957 --> 00:20:32,624 for one of those online soaps. 375 00:20:32,624 --> 00:20:33,858 Have you ever watched one of those? 376 00:20:37,492 --> 00:20:38,691 Am I boring you? 377 00:20:43,291 --> 00:20:45,557 Unfortunately, yeah. 378 00:20:45,557 --> 00:20:47,056 Sorry. 379 00:20:59,290 --> 00:21:00,040 Hi. 380 00:21:03,023 --> 00:21:06,056 You're not supposed to be here. 381 00:21:06,056 --> 00:21:07,221 Or anywhere. 382 00:21:07,221 --> 00:21:09,288 Yeah. 383 00:21:11,589 --> 00:21:13,620 You were right. 384 00:21:13,620 --> 00:21:15,553 I was running away. 385 00:21:58,482 --> 00:22:00,681 Oh, now you're shy. 386 00:22:03,149 --> 00:22:06,080 It's brighter in the morning. 387 00:22:11,981 --> 00:22:14,580 So are we gonna spend the rest of eternity 388 00:22:14,580 --> 00:22:17,312 in a lake of fire while pointy-tailed demons 389 00:22:17,312 --> 00:22:19,646 poke at us with sticks? 390 00:22:23,813 --> 00:22:25,779 This is a little scary for me. 391 00:22:25,779 --> 00:22:28,178 I had a whole life planned. 392 00:22:28,178 --> 00:22:31,745 Not that I wasn't struggling with it. 393 00:22:31,745 --> 00:22:33,478 And then I met you. 394 00:22:33,478 --> 00:22:37,911 Don't worry, I know you're not the relationship type. 395 00:22:37,911 --> 00:22:39,945 I'm not not the relationship type. 396 00:22:39,945 --> 00:22:41,545 I was married once. 397 00:22:41,545 --> 00:22:43,378 Relax. 398 00:22:43,378 --> 00:22:44,878 You're fine. 399 00:22:47,246 --> 00:22:48,680 So what's next for you? 400 00:22:51,747 --> 00:22:54,579 I have to find a place to live. 401 00:22:54,579 --> 00:22:57,345 Get my old job back. 402 00:22:57,345 --> 00:23:00,712 Sure, I'll feel guilty, start doubting. 403 00:23:00,712 --> 00:23:02,511 As long as you keep dealing with your doubts 404 00:23:02,511 --> 00:23:04,411 in the same way then... 405 00:23:06,680 --> 00:23:07,398 Moira? 406 00:23:08,945 --> 00:23:11,178 I'm sorry, did you say something? 407 00:23:13,212 --> 00:23:15,011 Your neck. 408 00:23:15,011 --> 00:23:16,510 What? 409 00:23:16,510 --> 00:23:18,110 Are your ears ringing? 410 00:23:18,110 --> 00:23:21,842 Yeah. What does that mean? 411 00:23:23,910 --> 00:23:28,208 We've got to get you back to the hospital right away. 412 00:23:28,208 --> 00:23:29,442 The artery that's bringing blood to your brain, 413 00:23:29,442 --> 00:23:30,674 it's coming apart. 414 00:23:30,674 --> 00:23:32,173 Means you could stroke. 415 00:23:32,173 --> 00:23:33,773 I've paged a team of our best doctors. 416 00:23:33,773 --> 00:23:35,573 I don't have to cough as much. 417 00:23:35,573 --> 00:23:37,840 It's clotted up. 418 00:23:37,840 --> 00:23:39,407 Is that bad? 419 00:23:39,407 --> 00:23:42,206 We're almost there. 420 00:23:43,607 --> 00:23:46,939 Get me her o-two level. 421 00:23:46,939 --> 00:23:48,305 What are you doing? 422 00:23:48,305 --> 00:23:50,071 I want to make sure I can position her wrist properly. 423 00:23:50,071 --> 00:23:51,672 For what? A.B.G. 424 00:23:51,672 --> 00:23:54,738 I don't need an A.B.G. Just get a pulse ox. 425 00:23:54,738 --> 00:23:56,638 I'll do it. Grab a consent form. 426 00:23:56,638 --> 00:23:57,388 Go! 427 00:23:59,172 --> 00:24:00,771 We need to operate right now, okay? 428 00:24:00,771 --> 00:24:02,204 Good to operate. 429 00:24:04,372 --> 00:24:07,138 Repeat this, no ifs, ands, or buts about it. 430 00:24:07,138 --> 00:24:10,171 No about it and no ifs. 431 00:24:10,171 --> 00:24:11,671 Get her into O.R. 11. 432 00:24:17,927 --> 00:24:19,058 Carotid dissection, 433 00:24:19,058 --> 00:24:20,958 four-inch pulsatile mass in her neck, 434 00:24:20,958 --> 00:24:22,425 and some broca's aphasia. 435 00:24:22,425 --> 00:24:23,557 It's got to be a clot 436 00:24:23,557 --> 00:24:24,491 keeping her from bleeding out. 437 00:24:24,491 --> 00:24:25,924 Pulse? 438 00:24:25,924 --> 00:24:27,057 Bounding, four-plus. 439 00:24:27,057 --> 00:24:28,058 It was a three-plus 20 minutes ago. 440 00:24:28,058 --> 00:24:28,806 20? 441 00:24:30,292 --> 00:24:31,824 Thought she just got here. 442 00:24:34,559 --> 00:24:36,359 That blood looks pretty dry. 443 00:24:36,359 --> 00:24:38,892 Cut yourself shaving? 444 00:24:38,892 --> 00:24:41,158 You know, that can happen 445 00:24:41,158 --> 00:24:44,226 when the nun you woke up with coughs blood on you. 446 00:24:44,226 --> 00:24:46,792 You slept with a nun? 447 00:24:46,792 --> 00:24:48,825 Forget nun, you slept with a patient? 448 00:24:48,825 --> 00:24:50,625 Former, to both. 449 00:24:50,625 --> 00:24:52,957 Internal neck trauma, that's impressive. 450 00:24:52,957 --> 00:24:54,823 It's happened to me a few times. 451 00:24:54,823 --> 00:24:57,356 Up high. 452 00:24:57,356 --> 00:24:59,255 Dr. Chase. 453 00:25:00,923 --> 00:25:03,155 Clot's broken. 454 00:25:03,155 --> 00:25:04,388 Bring her in and pack her nose. 455 00:25:04,388 --> 00:25:05,688 I'm gonna need number three vicryls. 456 00:25:05,688 --> 00:25:08,020 I'm gonna fix this. 457 00:25:08,020 --> 00:25:09,054 You're not gonna operate on her. 458 00:25:09,054 --> 00:25:10,787 Kapur and Carlyle are unavailable. 459 00:25:10,787 --> 00:25:12,954 Reilly's done far fewer dissections than I have. 460 00:25:12,954 --> 00:25:15,021 He's also slept with her far fewer times than you have. 461 00:25:15,021 --> 00:25:16,353 Your judgment's compromised. 462 00:25:16,353 --> 00:25:17,620 I spent the night with her. 463 00:25:17,620 --> 00:25:19,086 Doesn't change how I make an incision. 464 00:25:19,086 --> 00:25:21,286 Tell him! 465 00:25:22,620 --> 00:25:25,753 Do the surgery. 466 00:25:25,753 --> 00:25:27,053 You're trying to score points with him 467 00:25:27,053 --> 00:25:29,253 at the risk of a patient's life. 468 00:25:29,253 --> 00:25:30,553 He's the better surgeon. 469 00:25:33,388 --> 00:25:34,520 Vascular clamp. 470 00:25:34,520 --> 00:25:36,386 You're not gonna put her on bypass? 471 00:25:36,386 --> 00:25:37,586 It'd take a half hour to set up. 472 00:25:37,586 --> 00:25:39,119 You clamp now, she could stroke out. 473 00:25:39,119 --> 00:25:41,152 She's already got neurological symptoms. 474 00:25:41,152 --> 00:25:43,485 We wait 30 minutes, she'll definitely have brain damage. 475 00:25:43,485 --> 00:25:45,852 You're trying to make sure she's either perfect or dead. 476 00:25:45,852 --> 00:25:47,118 She's not going to die. 477 00:25:47,118 --> 00:25:48,518 If I get this done in five minutes, 478 00:25:48,518 --> 00:25:49,818 she won't stroke out. 479 00:25:49,818 --> 00:25:50,985 You don't know that you will. 480 00:25:50,985 --> 00:25:52,285 And you can't know because you can't 481 00:25:52,285 --> 00:25:55,084 think clearly about her. 482 00:25:55,084 --> 00:25:57,251 Vascular clamp. 483 00:26:04,019 --> 00:26:07,916 Occlusion time 9:46 and 23 seconds. 484 00:26:07,916 --> 00:26:09,983 Vascular scissors. 485 00:26:44,915 --> 00:26:47,546 We're over five minutes. 486 00:26:48,713 --> 00:26:50,746 Ultrasound. 487 00:26:56,811 --> 00:26:59,477 Good flow. Lighten the anesthesia. 488 00:26:59,477 --> 00:27:01,509 You're not gonna close the wound first? 489 00:27:01,509 --> 00:27:02,258 No. 490 00:27:17,077 --> 00:27:18,776 Can you hear me? 491 00:27:21,945 --> 00:27:23,677 Repeat this, 492 00:27:23,677 --> 00:27:26,676 no ifs, ands, or buts. 493 00:27:26,676 --> 00:27:30,808 No ifs, ands, or buts. 494 00:27:37,176 --> 00:27:41,509 I'm sorry about before. 495 00:27:41,509 --> 00:27:44,242 You're scared, aren't you? 496 00:27:44,242 --> 00:27:45,909 That's why you wanted companionship. 497 00:27:45,909 --> 00:27:48,142 That's why you cried out when House shot at Taub. 498 00:27:48,142 --> 00:27:50,208 What exactly are you scared of? 499 00:27:50,208 --> 00:27:51,975 A needle stick? 500 00:27:51,975 --> 00:27:54,008 Some other nut pulling a scalpel? 501 00:27:54,008 --> 00:27:57,607 I'm scared of everything. 502 00:27:57,607 --> 00:27:59,773 It sucks that there was a stabbing. 503 00:27:59,773 --> 00:28:01,339 But you'll get over it. 504 00:28:01,339 --> 00:28:02,808 Like you have? 505 00:28:02,808 --> 00:28:05,340 You weren't even there. 506 00:28:05,340 --> 00:28:08,040 I know, I-- I left the room. 507 00:28:08,040 --> 00:28:09,440 It was pure luck. 508 00:28:09,440 --> 00:28:12,540 I was in the room. That was pure luck too. 509 00:28:15,907 --> 00:28:18,239 I get that you're scared and guilty. 510 00:28:18,239 --> 00:28:19,872 You're still a doctor. 511 00:28:19,872 --> 00:28:22,072 I don't have time to teach you to act like one. 512 00:28:27,306 --> 00:28:28,638 We removed the artery. 513 00:28:28,638 --> 00:28:29,838 I found nodules. 514 00:28:29,838 --> 00:28:31,538 Could mean lupus. 515 00:28:31,538 --> 00:28:32,637 Negative A.N.A. 516 00:28:32,637 --> 00:28:35,005 Where are you going? 517 00:28:35,005 --> 00:28:37,170 Great thing about assigning Taub 518 00:28:37,170 --> 00:28:39,204 fraudulent lab work is you know exactly 519 00:28:39,204 --> 00:28:41,170 where he's gonna end up. 520 00:28:41,170 --> 00:28:42,870 Great thing about assigning Taub 521 00:28:42,870 --> 00:28:44,903 obviously fraudulent lab work 522 00:28:44,903 --> 00:28:47,436 is you get to watch his inner paranoiac at work. 523 00:28:55,236 --> 00:28:58,169 And then... 524 00:28:58,169 --> 00:29:00,235 Two to the head. 525 00:29:00,235 --> 00:29:01,568 Can we talk about my patient? 526 00:29:01,568 --> 00:29:03,168 Quite a journey. 527 00:29:03,168 --> 00:29:05,301 Starts with a surgical tool in your heart 528 00:29:05,301 --> 00:29:06,867 and ends with a surgeon's tool in a nun. 529 00:29:06,867 --> 00:29:08,034 What's the plan? 530 00:29:08,034 --> 00:29:09,701 Plan's to cure her. 531 00:29:09,701 --> 00:29:12,668 Well, if it's not meaningless sex, 532 00:29:12,668 --> 00:29:14,434 kinda screams out for an end game. 533 00:29:14,434 --> 00:29:16,700 You're the dog that's chasing the popemobile. 534 00:29:16,700 --> 00:29:18,300 You sure you want-- 535 00:29:20,134 --> 00:29:21,265 oh, my God. 536 00:29:24,167 --> 00:29:26,432 Taub is interrogating the janitor. 537 00:29:26,432 --> 00:29:29,731 He must think that I hired him to attack-- 538 00:29:29,731 --> 00:29:33,764 actually, why didn't I do that? 539 00:29:33,764 --> 00:29:37,131 Plaques could be confused for nodules. 540 00:29:37,131 --> 00:29:39,129 Which would mean... Syphilis. 541 00:29:39,129 --> 00:29:41,563 Explains the shoulder and foot involvement. 542 00:29:41,563 --> 00:29:43,463 Hope you practiced 543 00:29:43,463 --> 00:29:45,129 the immaculate contraception. 544 00:29:50,263 --> 00:29:52,095 Lock and load. 545 00:29:54,396 --> 00:29:56,028 Boo-yah! 546 00:29:56,028 --> 00:29:58,194 Pfft! 547 00:29:58,194 --> 00:30:00,527 Boo-yah to you too. 548 00:30:04,027 --> 00:30:06,427 But I hadn't had sex in years. 549 00:30:06,427 --> 00:30:07,827 Tertiary syphilis means you've had the disease 550 00:30:07,827 --> 00:30:09,360 for at least that long. 551 00:30:09,360 --> 00:30:11,893 Does that mean you also have it? 552 00:30:11,893 --> 00:30:14,194 Probably not contagious at this point. 553 00:30:18,227 --> 00:30:20,027 Can it cause hallucinations? 554 00:30:20,027 --> 00:30:22,094 It's unlikely. Why? 555 00:30:24,929 --> 00:30:27,094 While I was on the operating table, 556 00:30:27,094 --> 00:30:29,694 it didn't feel like a dream. 557 00:30:29,694 --> 00:30:34,892 I saw the boy who I was caring for. 558 00:30:34,892 --> 00:30:38,658 The one who died. 559 00:30:38,658 --> 00:30:41,725 He walked right up to me. 560 00:30:41,725 --> 00:30:43,691 What did he say? 561 00:30:43,691 --> 00:30:46,957 He just held my hand. 562 00:30:46,957 --> 00:30:50,789 It was like he forgave me. 563 00:30:50,789 --> 00:30:52,589 Do you think that's crazy? 564 00:30:54,591 --> 00:30:57,790 I think it should give you solace, 565 00:30:57,790 --> 00:31:01,890 help you to move on. 566 00:31:07,091 --> 00:31:09,090 You slept with your patient? 567 00:31:12,424 --> 00:31:14,289 You're off the case. 568 00:31:14,289 --> 00:31:16,654 I saved her from brain damage. 569 00:31:16,654 --> 00:31:18,721 You think my judgment's the least bit compromised? 570 00:31:18,721 --> 00:31:20,287 She's still sick. 571 00:31:20,287 --> 00:31:21,786 If she dies, we'll be in the middle 572 00:31:21,786 --> 00:31:23,586 of a brand-new investigation. 573 00:31:23,586 --> 00:31:25,185 This is about you covering your own ass. 574 00:31:25,185 --> 00:31:27,619 I gave you time, leeway, 575 00:31:27,619 --> 00:31:30,219 and you decided to do whatever the hell you wanted. 576 00:31:30,219 --> 00:31:31,685 House can dance all over the rules, 577 00:31:31,685 --> 00:31:33,785 gets me knifed, and he gets a pass. 578 00:31:33,785 --> 00:31:35,618 I break a rule, no one gets hurt, 579 00:31:35,618 --> 00:31:37,451 but you kick me off my own case? 580 00:31:37,451 --> 00:31:39,951 Unfortunately, yes. 581 00:31:45,052 --> 00:31:46,417 I'm sorry. 582 00:31:46,417 --> 00:31:48,017 I took that scalpel for you. 583 00:31:48,017 --> 00:31:49,783 That's why I did this. 584 00:31:49,783 --> 00:31:51,616 Three weeks ago, 585 00:31:51,616 --> 00:31:53,683 you never would have slept with a patient. 586 00:31:53,683 --> 00:31:56,182 And you never would have operated on her after. 587 00:31:57,916 --> 00:31:59,482 You need help. 588 00:31:59,482 --> 00:32:01,182 I need to get away from House 589 00:32:01,182 --> 00:32:02,981 and everything that reminds me of him. 590 00:32:02,981 --> 00:32:04,347 By breaking the rules, 591 00:32:04,347 --> 00:32:06,614 not caring what anyone else thinks. 592 00:32:06,614 --> 00:32:10,079 You're gonna get away from him by turning into him? 593 00:32:17,182 --> 00:32:19,181 It hurts. 594 00:32:29,848 --> 00:32:32,014 Right upper quadrant, pain and distension. 595 00:32:32,014 --> 00:32:35,046 What's wrong with my stomach? 596 00:32:35,046 --> 00:32:35,881 Nothing. 597 00:32:35,881 --> 00:32:38,446 This is your liver. 598 00:32:42,202 --> 00:32:43,400 The liver failure could be 599 00:32:43,400 --> 00:32:45,882 from intraoperative hypotension. 600 00:32:45,882 --> 00:32:47,104 Checked the anesthesia sheet, 601 00:32:47,104 --> 00:32:48,270 pressure was fine throughout. 602 00:32:48,270 --> 00:32:48,973 Thrombus? 603 00:32:48,973 --> 00:32:51,153 That voice in the hall that none of us 604 00:32:51,153 --> 00:32:52,353 have any reason to be listening to 605 00:32:52,353 --> 00:32:55,919 is not surprisingly wrong. 606 00:32:55,919 --> 00:32:57,586 Abdominal ultrasound was negative. 607 00:32:57,586 --> 00:32:58,884 Then we have to assume liver failure 608 00:32:58,884 --> 00:33:02,084 is just another symptom of whatever she's got. 609 00:33:02,084 --> 00:33:03,551 Trousseau's syndrome could send clots, 610 00:33:03,551 --> 00:33:05,017 cause the ischemic foot. 611 00:33:05,017 --> 00:33:07,016 Add the enlarged lymph node, macrocytosis. 612 00:33:07,016 --> 00:33:09,883 Disseminated T-cell lymphoma. 613 00:33:09,883 --> 00:33:11,616 Wilson said it wasn't cancer. 614 00:33:11,616 --> 00:33:14,416 Wilson says it's not breast cancer. 615 00:33:14,416 --> 00:33:16,049 Sarcoidosis. 616 00:33:16,049 --> 00:33:17,182 Normal ACE level. 617 00:33:17,182 --> 00:33:18,649 Highly insensitive for sarcoid. 618 00:33:18,649 --> 00:33:20,449 Negative chest X-rays aren't. 619 00:33:20,449 --> 00:33:21,815 Then we've got to biopsy. 620 00:33:21,815 --> 00:33:23,949 Yeah, Foreman's clearly wrong. 621 00:33:23,949 --> 00:33:26,250 You're clearly not grasping at straws 622 00:33:26,250 --> 00:33:28,683 'cause you're clearly not emotionally involved. 623 00:33:28,683 --> 00:33:31,816 I know you want to believe that this is something we can cure. 624 00:33:31,816 --> 00:33:33,616 It's not. 625 00:33:33,616 --> 00:33:34,983 I'm sorry. 626 00:33:46,717 --> 00:33:49,149 How soon will they know if it's cancer? 627 00:33:49,149 --> 00:33:51,115 Within hours. 628 00:33:51,115 --> 00:33:53,515 And if it is? 629 00:33:55,610 --> 00:33:57,133 There's always chemo. 630 00:33:58,126 --> 00:34:01,225 You say that like it's not gonna work. 631 00:34:01,225 --> 00:34:03,720 Could extend your life. 632 00:34:03,720 --> 00:34:04,787 Years? 633 00:34:10,987 --> 00:34:12,719 I'll be here as much as you need. 634 00:34:16,343 --> 00:34:19,575 You still never told me why you left the seminary. 635 00:34:22,842 --> 00:34:24,641 Mary Knoller. 636 00:34:24,641 --> 00:34:28,108 Wife of the groundskeeper. 637 00:34:28,108 --> 00:34:31,341 He caught me with her, got me with a rake. 638 00:34:31,341 --> 00:34:33,940 Those scars on my ass you may have noticed. 639 00:34:35,441 --> 00:34:38,274 Why didn't you tell me that before? 640 00:34:38,274 --> 00:34:40,107 Because it was so shallow. 641 00:34:40,107 --> 00:34:41,640 I wasn't exactly wrestling 642 00:34:41,640 --> 00:34:43,740 with great theological questions. 643 00:34:43,740 --> 00:34:46,173 I don't believe that. 644 00:34:46,173 --> 00:34:48,574 You don't sleep with the groundskeeper's wife, 645 00:34:48,574 --> 00:34:51,808 not unless you're struggling with whether you belong there. 646 00:34:55,609 --> 00:34:58,374 I always wanted to believe. 647 00:34:58,374 --> 00:35:01,740 Would have made my life a lot easier. 648 00:35:01,740 --> 00:35:03,974 It never took. 649 00:35:03,974 --> 00:35:06,640 Doesn't... 650 00:35:06,640 --> 00:35:07,478 Mean... 651 00:35:09,274 --> 00:35:10,940 It's too late. 652 00:35:10,940 --> 00:35:13,107 Are you having trouble talking, like before? 653 00:35:15,439 --> 00:35:17,839 I can get the words out. 654 00:35:17,839 --> 00:35:20,006 Just feels heavy when I do. 655 00:35:20,006 --> 00:35:21,473 Where? 656 00:35:21,473 --> 00:35:25,272 Wherever my chewing muscles are. 657 00:35:25,272 --> 00:35:27,171 I'll be right back. 658 00:35:32,973 --> 00:35:34,604 House finally got you. 659 00:35:34,604 --> 00:35:36,337 He tried but-- I gotta go. 660 00:35:36,337 --> 00:35:38,503 You shoulda seen it. It was perfect. 661 00:35:43,771 --> 00:35:46,203 She has jaw claudication. 662 00:35:46,203 --> 00:35:48,070 If you only heard claudication and carotid dissection... 663 00:35:48,070 --> 00:35:52,070 I'd say giant cell arteritis. 664 00:35:52,070 --> 00:35:53,503 And I'd tell your former teammates 665 00:35:53,503 --> 00:35:54,968 to put her on steroids. 666 00:35:54,968 --> 00:35:56,868 She's gonna live. 667 00:35:56,868 --> 00:35:58,117 Yeah. 668 00:35:59,469 --> 00:36:00,801 And then what? 669 00:36:07,201 --> 00:36:09,099 They say my liver function's better. 670 00:36:09,099 --> 00:36:10,766 That I can get out of here soon. 671 00:36:10,766 --> 00:36:12,999 And when you do, 672 00:36:12,999 --> 00:36:14,933 I'm gonna take you to puerto escondido. 673 00:36:14,933 --> 00:36:17,033 Mexico? 674 00:36:17,033 --> 00:36:18,433 The Mexican pipeline. 675 00:36:18,433 --> 00:36:23,366 Early May is when the surf really picks up but-- 676 00:36:23,366 --> 00:36:25,432 what's wrong? 677 00:36:25,432 --> 00:36:29,264 I spoke to the prioress. 678 00:36:29,264 --> 00:36:31,231 You're going back? 679 00:36:31,231 --> 00:36:33,630 I felt the calling. 680 00:36:33,630 --> 00:36:35,729 When you saw the boy. 681 00:36:35,729 --> 00:36:38,896 I felt God's love, his Grace. 682 00:36:38,896 --> 00:36:41,296 I've been waiting my entire life for that. 683 00:36:41,296 --> 00:36:42,696 It's not real. 684 00:36:42,696 --> 00:36:44,696 I know you didn't feel anything when you almost died. 685 00:36:44,696 --> 00:36:45,996 I did. 686 00:36:45,996 --> 00:36:47,929 You felt oxygen depravation. 687 00:36:47,929 --> 00:36:50,495 You felt your brain releasing noradrenaline. 688 00:36:50,495 --> 00:36:52,462 You didn't say that before. 689 00:36:52,462 --> 00:36:55,429 I wanted you to move on with your life. 690 00:36:55,429 --> 00:36:57,130 I wanted to reassure you. 691 00:36:57,130 --> 00:36:58,897 I wanted you to feel better. 692 00:36:58,897 --> 00:37:01,929 And now you don't? 693 00:37:01,929 --> 00:37:02,649 Now... 694 00:37:05,030 --> 00:37:06,395 I think I love you. 695 00:37:16,753 --> 00:37:19,719 "Noradrenaline and near-death experiences." 696 00:37:19,719 --> 00:37:21,780 Oh, dear. 697 00:37:22,281 --> 00:37:23,706 You saw God? 698 00:37:23,706 --> 00:37:24,772 She did. 699 00:37:24,772 --> 00:37:26,563 She wants to go back to the monastery. 700 00:37:27,513 --> 00:37:30,159 So now you're preparing a Powerpoint presentation 701 00:37:30,159 --> 00:37:32,550 to keep her in your garden of earthly delights. 702 00:37:33,259 --> 00:37:34,457 You're an idiot. 703 00:37:35,645 --> 00:37:37,658 Because I found someone I love? 704 00:37:37,658 --> 00:37:38,727 Because you're an idiot. 705 00:37:38,727 --> 00:37:41,682 At least you two have that in common. 706 00:37:41,682 --> 00:37:43,696 Her feelings are based on a chemical process. 707 00:37:43,696 --> 00:37:44,683 They're gonna wear off. 708 00:37:44,683 --> 00:37:46,683 You just slept with her. 709 00:37:46,683 --> 00:37:48,698 Your brain is exploding with oxytocin. 710 00:37:48,698 --> 00:37:50,678 You think that's gonna last through the ages? 711 00:37:50,678 --> 00:37:51,686 She's throwing away her life 712 00:37:51,686 --> 00:37:52,712 because of blind faith. 713 00:37:52,712 --> 00:37:54,646 So are you! 714 00:37:54,646 --> 00:37:55,725 She's found something 715 00:37:55,725 --> 00:37:57,723 she wants to build her life around. 716 00:37:57,723 --> 00:38:00,644 It's a total illusion, but apparently she'll take 717 00:38:00,644 --> 00:38:01,685 a little ignorance with her bliss. 718 00:38:01,685 --> 00:38:03,661 And you want to take that away? 719 00:38:03,661 --> 00:38:04,676 How many times have you thrown the truth 720 00:38:04,676 --> 00:38:05,710 in people's faces? 721 00:38:05,710 --> 00:38:07,632 Because it's the truth, 722 00:38:07,632 --> 00:38:10,663 not because we're gonna live happily ever after. 723 00:38:10,663 --> 00:38:13,659 Either your relationship just blows up 724 00:38:13,659 --> 00:38:16,618 like every other non-magical romance, 725 00:38:16,618 --> 00:38:17,663 or she stays with you but blames you 726 00:38:17,663 --> 00:38:20,647 for stripping all the meaning out of her life. 727 00:38:20,647 --> 00:38:23,610 This has nothing to do with the truth. 728 00:38:23,610 --> 00:38:25,649 You don't like that I'm reassessing my life, 729 00:38:25,649 --> 00:38:27,655 that I want to change it, 730 00:38:27,655 --> 00:38:28,680 that I can. 731 00:38:28,680 --> 00:38:30,619 Anyone can screw up a life. 732 00:38:30,619 --> 00:38:31,667 I never said that wasn't possible. 733 00:38:31,667 --> 00:38:33,662 You're incapable of human connection, 734 00:38:33,662 --> 00:38:36,688 so you want everyone to be like you. 735 00:38:36,688 --> 00:38:39,631 If I wanted you to be like me... 736 00:38:43,626 --> 00:38:45,639 I would be urging you 737 00:38:45,639 --> 00:38:47,630 to make a stupid, stubborn decision 738 00:38:47,630 --> 00:38:50,664 that blows up your life and leaves you lonely and miserable. 739 00:38:57,595 --> 00:39:00,615 You reassess your life when you've made mistakes. 740 00:39:00,615 --> 00:39:03,592 You didn't. You just got stabbed. 741 00:40:02,590 --> 00:40:05,518 Don't look at the book. 742 00:40:05,518 --> 00:40:07,567 I haven't done a jugular line since my residency. 743 00:40:07,567 --> 00:40:09,590 I don't want to needle the carotid. 744 00:40:13,531 --> 00:40:14,555 What's the first step? 745 00:40:14,555 --> 00:40:17,551 Palpate the S.C.M. 746 00:40:17,551 --> 00:40:18,562 Where? 747 00:40:18,562 --> 00:40:21,551 Middle third of the neck. 748 00:40:52,500 --> 00:40:54,481 I'm happy I knew you. 749 00:40:54,481 --> 00:40:55,440 So am I. 750 00:41:14,423 --> 00:41:15,479 Robert. 751 00:42:12,408 --> 00:42:14,393 24-year-oldwater treatment worker 752 00:42:14,393 --> 00:42:16,396 with pyrexia and double vision. 753 00:42:37,360 --> 00:42:38,318 Abscess? 754 00:42:40,331 --> 00:42:42,362 Would have seen it on the MRI. 755 00:42:42,362 --> 00:42:45,354 Diphtheria paralyzing the ocular muscles? 756 00:42:45,354 --> 00:42:46,362 No, paralysis was first. 757 00:42:46,362 --> 00:42:48,339 - Aneurysm? - Not with this fever. 758 00:42:48,339 --> 00:42:50,358 Maybe we're thinking about this the wrong way. 759 00:42:50,358 --> 00:42:51,394 Retro-ocular infection? 760 00:42:51,394 --> 00:42:53,336 With no local symptoms?