1 00:00:00,383 --> 00:00:03,273 I feel like Adam is putting on this really brave face for me, 2 00:00:03,275 --> 00:00:06,015 but the minute I leave tomorrow, he's just gonna fall apart. 3 00:00:06,016 --> 00:00:09,265 Modern communication, we're gonna talk, like, 10 times tomorrow. It's all good. 4 00:00:09,267 --> 00:00:10,539 Smile, my honey. 5 00:00:10,541 --> 00:00:13,383 - I graduated today. - Welcome to the world. 6 00:00:13,383 --> 00:00:15,007 I wanted to say that I'm sorry. 7 00:00:15,008 --> 00:00:18,617 For, like, trying to manipulate you into being in a relationship with me again. 8 00:00:18,618 --> 00:00:22,164 I'm her daughter. You lied to the police and she could've died. 9 00:00:22,165 --> 00:00:23,765 She's coming to live with me in Connecticut. 10 00:00:23,767 --> 00:00:25,328 We are Desi and Marnie. 11 00:00:25,329 --> 00:00:29,062 I think that I was just maybe threatened by the musical connection you guys share. 12 00:00:29,063 --> 00:00:30,257 Well, I'm sorry. 13 00:00:30,259 --> 00:00:34,156 You're pussying out right after you told me I need to come back to New York. 14 00:00:34,157 --> 00:00:36,875 - Do you want to go over the plan again? - We'll take it day by day. 15 00:00:36,876 --> 00:00:39,273 There's no need to create some drama. 16 00:00:40,079 --> 00:00:42,079 Girls - S04E02 Triggering 17 00:00:42,080 --> 00:00:45,017 sync and correction by solfieri www.addic7ed.com 18 00:01:04,586 --> 00:01:07,972 12, 13, 14, 19 00:01:07,973 --> 00:01:11,092 15, 16, 17. 20 00:01:11,143 --> 00:01:12,977 Okay, this place is huge. 21 00:01:12,978 --> 00:01:14,763 How much did you say this is? 22 00:01:14,764 --> 00:01:16,481 It's 250. 23 00:01:16,482 --> 00:01:18,433 A month. 24 00:01:18,434 --> 00:01:20,518 It's got really great light. 25 00:01:20,519 --> 00:01:24,272 Okay, what do you think I could get for, like, 800? 26 00:01:43,542 --> 00:01:47,628 I mean, two thumbs the fuck up. 27 00:01:47,629 --> 00:01:49,430 Well... 28 00:01:49,431 --> 00:01:51,132 does that mean you want it? 29 00:02:26,335 --> 00:02:29,253 - Don't bother. - What? 30 00:02:29,254 --> 00:02:31,923 You're in Iowa. No one locks their bike here. 31 00:02:31,924 --> 00:02:34,659 - Really? - 100%. 32 00:02:34,660 --> 00:02:36,060 Are you a first-year? 33 00:02:36,061 --> 00:02:38,347 Uh, no. Me? I'm in graduate school. 34 00:02:38,348 --> 00:02:41,516 Yeah, no, you don't look like an undergrad at all. 35 00:02:41,517 --> 00:02:43,568 Sorry, bro. 36 00:02:43,569 --> 00:02:45,403 Well, I mean, a lot of people think I am 19. 37 00:02:45,404 --> 00:02:47,772 I get carded all the time and no one ever thinks I'm legal, 38 00:02:47,773 --> 00:02:50,358 like, in the bedroom. 39 00:02:53,278 --> 00:02:55,830 I'm gonna break eye contact with you now. 40 00:02:55,831 --> 00:02:58,282 Let's go get your materials. 41 00:02:58,283 --> 00:03:00,535 Awesome. Are you sure I can leave my bike? 42 00:03:00,536 --> 00:03:02,753 Hell, yeah. This is Iowa. 43 00:03:04,623 --> 00:03:08,042 Okay, this is my living room, which is really more like a lounging parlor. 44 00:03:08,043 --> 00:03:09,711 This is my shelf of curiosities. 45 00:03:09,712 --> 00:03:12,046 There's my Lubriderm. 46 00:03:12,047 --> 00:03:14,716 This is my kitchen. 47 00:03:14,717 --> 00:03:17,351 I'm sort of figuring out the decorative scheme. 48 00:03:17,352 --> 00:03:21,222 Can you believe it just took me four minutes to show you my entire house? 49 00:03:21,223 --> 00:03:22,891 In New York it would've taken four seconds. 50 00:03:22,892 --> 00:03:24,775 I'm telling you, Iowa's incredible. 51 00:03:24,776 --> 00:03:27,228 We should all move here and start the revolution. 52 00:03:27,229 --> 00:03:29,030 No one is moving to Iowa ever, 53 00:03:29,031 --> 00:03:30,865 but I'm so, so glad you're happy. 54 00:03:30,866 --> 00:03:33,401 - Seriously. - Honestly, I feel like I made the right decision, 55 00:03:33,402 --> 00:03:35,620 which is a totally new sensation for me. 56 00:03:35,621 --> 00:03:38,406 I mean, I'm eating grapes as a snack. 57 00:03:38,407 --> 00:03:40,074 I knew you would do it eventually. 58 00:03:40,075 --> 00:03:43,494 - How's New York? - It's really good. And don't start. 59 00:03:43,495 --> 00:03:45,496 Don't start with what? 60 00:03:45,497 --> 00:03:47,832 I just know that you're gonna try to talk to me about Adam right now 61 00:03:47,833 --> 00:03:48,966 and you're gonna be subtle about it. 62 00:03:48,967 --> 00:03:51,552 Don't start. I'm not gonna tell you. 63 00:03:51,553 --> 00:03:54,839 I didn't want to talk about Adam until you brought Adam up. 64 00:03:54,840 --> 00:03:58,260 - I mean, how is Adam? - Oh, my God! 65 00:03:58,261 --> 00:04:00,261 Marnie, we talked about, like, 20 things first. 66 00:04:00,262 --> 00:04:03,331 I just know that whatever I tell you is gonna make you act weird. 67 00:04:03,332 --> 00:04:05,933 Marnie, I've 100% moved on, okay? 68 00:04:05,934 --> 00:04:09,520 I'm here, I'm totally at one with my body and my surroundings. 69 00:04:09,521 --> 00:04:12,607 - Good. - I just want to make sure that if he were to, say, 70 00:04:12,608 --> 00:04:16,360 go into to the hospital, you would let me know. 71 00:04:16,361 --> 00:04:18,446 Okay, here's the deal. If he goes into the hospital, 72 00:04:18,447 --> 00:04:20,665 I will tell you. I promise. 73 00:04:20,666 --> 00:04:23,334 Great. That's all I ask for. 74 00:04:23,335 --> 00:04:25,169 By the way, what are you doing? 75 00:04:25,170 --> 00:04:27,755 You haven't knit since, like, second semester, freshman year, 76 00:04:27,756 --> 00:04:29,958 when you made the hat for the bipolar guy. 77 00:04:29,959 --> 00:04:31,626 You're gonna make fun of me. 78 00:04:31,627 --> 00:04:35,680 - I'm knitting Desi a scarf. - So you made him one? 79 00:04:35,681 --> 00:04:38,266 Why didn't you just go to Uniqlo like a regular person? 80 00:04:38,267 --> 00:04:39,767 Because I wanted to make him one 81 00:04:39,768 --> 00:04:42,520 so it's, like, homemade, and so that I'm always with him. 82 00:04:42,521 --> 00:04:45,890 - I don't know. - Even when he's with his girlfriend. 83 00:04:45,891 --> 00:04:47,909 This is why I'm not telling anyone about us. 84 00:04:47,910 --> 00:04:50,745 You mean because it's an affair and those are generally kept secret? 85 00:04:50,746 --> 00:04:52,563 No, and stop using that word. 86 00:04:52,564 --> 00:04:54,398 It's because people are really judgmental 87 00:04:54,399 --> 00:04:55,984 and they're threatened by this idea. 88 00:04:55,985 --> 00:04:58,886 - Mm-hmm. - Would they be happier if their boyfriend ha... 89 00:04:58,887 --> 00:05:00,271 Marn? 90 00:05:02,758 --> 00:05:05,793 Marn, your face is frozen in a very funny position. 91 00:05:15,170 --> 00:05:16,337 Cool, well, that's it. 92 00:05:16,338 --> 00:05:17,638 - Thank you. - Yeah. 93 00:05:17,639 --> 00:05:19,090 Your hair looks like it smells great. 94 00:05:19,091 --> 00:05:21,225 It smells so good. 95 00:05:22,928 --> 00:05:26,515 Must be nice to have your parents paying for all your shit. 96 00:05:26,516 --> 00:05:28,099 What? 97 00:05:28,100 --> 00:05:30,985 Just, you know, must be nice to still be on the teat. 98 00:05:30,986 --> 00:05:34,189 I'm a graduate student, so that's not really my situation anymore. 99 00:05:34,190 --> 00:05:35,773 Okay. 100 00:05:35,774 --> 00:05:37,992 So, yeah, this is four things of nuts. 101 00:05:37,993 --> 00:05:39,694 - Four nuts. - Brain food. 102 00:05:39,695 --> 00:05:42,029 Four nuts for a nut, right? 103 00:05:42,030 --> 00:05:43,531 Cool. 104 00:05:43,532 --> 00:05:45,032 - Here you go. - Thank you. 105 00:05:45,033 --> 00:05:46,834 Oh, my God. What did you do? 106 00:05:46,835 --> 00:05:49,503 It's a long story, but the strip still works and that's what matters. 107 00:05:49,504 --> 00:05:51,255 I mean, it looks like somebody tried to cut it 108 00:05:51,256 --> 00:05:53,090 and then you found it in the garbage. 109 00:05:53,091 --> 00:05:54,842 Nope, my card. Says my name on it. 110 00:05:54,843 --> 00:05:57,044 Okay, fine. I don't really care anyway. 111 00:05:57,045 --> 00:05:59,180 Normally, you would do this... 112 00:05:59,181 --> 00:06:02,350 - Uh-oh. It says we gotta call Amex. 113 00:06:02,351 --> 00:06:04,635 - You have another card? - Nope, let's call Amex. 114 00:06:04,636 --> 00:06:07,222 No, I don't want to. Just give me another card. 115 00:06:07,223 --> 00:06:09,106 I said let's call Amex. 116 00:06:09,107 --> 00:06:10,941 If it says let's call Amex, let's call Amex. 117 00:06:10,942 --> 00:06:12,894 Okay. Who travels with one card? 118 00:06:12,895 --> 00:06:14,862 Just have another card. 119 00:06:14,863 --> 00:06:16,898 - Can you call Amex? - Absolutely, yeah. 120 00:06:16,899 --> 00:06:18,783 - Thank you so much. - Customer's always right. 121 00:06:18,784 --> 00:06:20,034 Thank you. 122 00:06:20,035 --> 00:06:22,653 That's not true, though. 123 00:06:31,046 --> 00:06:33,247 Yeah, don't bother. You're in the dead zone. 124 00:06:33,248 --> 00:06:35,751 It's, like, this block and, like, 200 feet that way. 125 00:06:35,752 --> 00:06:38,085 Yeah, but my phone worked here earlier. 126 00:06:38,086 --> 00:06:39,720 Yeah, I don't know. It's weird and random. 127 00:06:39,721 --> 00:06:41,505 Phones work at the yacht club, though. 128 00:06:41,506 --> 00:06:43,258 You should come by. Battle of the Bands tonight. 129 00:06:43,259 --> 00:06:46,260 I'm drumming... in both bands. 130 00:07:42,701 --> 00:07:44,552 No! 131 00:07:53,044 --> 00:07:54,545 No! 132 00:07:54,546 --> 00:07:55,880 There's a bat. 133 00:08:09,679 --> 00:08:11,512 Fuck. 134 00:08:57,893 --> 00:08:59,860 Fuck, shit! 135 00:09:05,901 --> 00:09:07,201 Ow. 136 00:09:21,132 --> 00:09:22,633 "She comes home after work 137 00:09:22,634 --> 00:09:25,169 smelling of cheap beer and menthols, 138 00:09:25,170 --> 00:09:28,839 grabbing at her cheek, crying over her rotting tooth. 139 00:09:28,840 --> 00:09:31,225 'Looks like a fuckin' black hole, ' she says. 140 00:09:31,226 --> 00:09:33,961 'How do they expect me to bag groceries when I got this pain?' 141 00:09:33,962 --> 00:09:37,198 She smokes some of the pot I got her from my buddy Whiz. 142 00:09:37,199 --> 00:09:41,569 'Give Mommy a kiss. I love you, ' she says. 143 00:09:41,570 --> 00:09:45,773 I go to my room and draw pictures of her rotting tooth." 144 00:09:49,995 --> 00:09:53,163 Thank you, D. August. 145 00:09:53,164 --> 00:09:54,949 Who wants to say what the story was about? 146 00:09:54,950 --> 00:09:56,867 First of all, I just want to say 147 00:09:56,868 --> 00:09:58,954 that I thought this was one of the best pieces 148 00:09:58,955 --> 00:10:01,005 that I've read in this program so far, 149 00:10:01,006 --> 00:10:05,209 - and I'm a second-year. - Ah. 150 00:10:05,210 --> 00:10:07,027 Gut-wrenching. 151 00:10:07,028 --> 00:10:10,464 And not asking to wrench our guts. 152 00:10:10,465 --> 00:10:12,716 Just wrenching them. 153 00:10:13,935 --> 00:10:16,887 Chester, hi. Chester Chong. 154 00:10:16,888 --> 00:10:18,389 - Hi. - Hey, what's up? 155 00:10:18,390 --> 00:10:20,107 - Chester. - Um, hi. 156 00:10:20,108 --> 00:10:23,060 I liked how the language was really spare but cutting, 157 00:10:23,061 --> 00:10:24,980 and I thought you played with gender in a way 158 00:10:24,981 --> 00:10:29,950 that was really surprising and, like, almost offensive but not offensive. 159 00:10:29,951 --> 00:10:32,903 - It's a really fine line. - Yeah, he's just walking it. 160 00:10:32,904 --> 00:10:34,656 - It's really good. - Yeah. 161 00:10:34,657 --> 00:10:36,240 I agree. 162 00:10:36,241 --> 00:10:41,045 Man, I would literally cut my arm off or pay you everything I have 163 00:10:41,046 --> 00:10:42,997 just to write three more pages of that. 164 00:10:42,998 --> 00:10:46,233 I need to know more, please. 165 00:10:46,234 --> 00:10:48,419 Well, I assume the mom dies. 166 00:10:50,255 --> 00:10:54,141 Okay, let's change focus here. Hannah? 167 00:10:54,142 --> 00:10:57,177 Okay, so I just wanted to say that I know you've all read the story 168 00:10:57,178 --> 00:10:58,479 in the privacy of your own homes, 169 00:10:58,480 --> 00:11:01,349 but hearing me read it aloud here today 170 00:11:01,350 --> 00:11:04,101 may bring up some of the more triggering aspects of the piece, 171 00:11:04,102 --> 00:11:07,188 so I just want you to feel free to quietly leave the room 172 00:11:07,189 --> 00:11:10,991 or express your emotional reaction in any way that feels safe, 173 00:11:10,992 --> 00:11:14,945 even if that is kind of a darker expression. 174 00:11:14,946 --> 00:11:16,698 Okay, here goes. 175 00:11:16,699 --> 00:11:18,866 This story's called "Contact." 176 00:11:20,418 --> 00:11:22,119 "There was no going back. 177 00:11:22,120 --> 00:11:25,673 There were new rules now, new reasons for him to call. 178 00:11:25,674 --> 00:11:28,208 He made choices and I obeyed. 179 00:11:28,209 --> 00:11:30,844 I let him press his thumb so hard into my neck 180 00:11:30,845 --> 00:11:32,212 that blue marks appeared. 181 00:11:32,213 --> 00:11:35,265 I let him bend my limbs ways they didn't go, 182 00:11:35,266 --> 00:11:37,301 and once his arm reared back 183 00:11:37,302 --> 00:11:40,854 and his fist landed with a thud on my collar bone, 184 00:11:40,855 --> 00:11:45,025 like sex, that didn't feel like anything I thought it would. 185 00:11:45,026 --> 00:11:47,394 He moved me where I had to go. 186 00:11:47,395 --> 00:11:49,263 The goal was not to say no, 187 00:11:49,264 --> 00:11:53,317 and so it didn't matter if I was good in my choicelessness. 188 00:11:53,318 --> 00:11:55,202 I was free for a moment." 189 00:11:58,907 --> 00:12:01,875 Okay, what is this story about? 190 00:12:01,876 --> 00:12:03,877 It's about a really privileged girl 191 00:12:03,878 --> 00:12:06,046 deciding that she's just gonna let someone abuse her. 192 00:12:06,047 --> 00:12:08,249 Yeah, that's what it's about. 193 00:12:08,250 --> 00:12:11,168 Honestly, I was very distracted by how "Fifty Shades" it was. 194 00:12:11,169 --> 00:12:12,753 I actually haven't read "Fifty Shades of"... 195 00:12:12,754 --> 00:12:15,506 Hannah, you know you have to sit tight until we're done discussing. 196 00:12:15,507 --> 00:12:17,224 Okay. 197 00:12:17,225 --> 00:12:20,428 In some ways, I was struggling not to be offended 198 00:12:20,429 --> 00:12:22,179 because it seemed to really trivialize 199 00:12:22,180 --> 00:12:24,348 the very real abuse suffered by some. 200 00:12:24,349 --> 00:12:25,767 I don't know if anybody else felt that way. 201 00:12:25,768 --> 00:12:27,768 - Yeah. - That was just one paragraph. 202 00:12:27,769 --> 00:12:29,104 Hannah. 203 00:12:29,105 --> 00:12:31,405 Anything else? 204 00:12:33,191 --> 00:12:35,159 No? 205 00:12:35,160 --> 00:12:36,611 Okay. 206 00:12:36,612 --> 00:12:38,695 What's working? 207 00:12:40,832 --> 00:12:43,367 I'm sorry, I have to say something. 208 00:12:43,368 --> 00:12:46,503 I'm actually really struggling with how to talk about this piece. 209 00:12:46,504 --> 00:12:49,289 Like, I tried writing my notes for Hannah last night, 210 00:12:49,290 --> 00:12:51,091 but I think there's a larger issue here, 211 00:12:51,092 --> 00:12:53,961 which is how are we supposed to critique a work 212 00:12:53,962 --> 00:12:57,598 which is very clearly based directly from the author's personal experience? 213 00:12:57,599 --> 00:12:59,134 - Mm. - Hmm. 214 00:12:59,135 --> 00:13:00,801 I had the chance to speak with Hannah yesterday 215 00:13:00,802 --> 00:13:03,103 and she is very much this character. 216 00:13:03,104 --> 00:13:05,022 - Hmm. - Yeah. 217 00:13:05,023 --> 00:13:08,225 Because this is a fiction workshop, 218 00:13:08,226 --> 00:13:11,361 I think we need to treat every piece we receive in here 219 00:13:11,362 --> 00:13:12,814 as a work of fiction. 220 00:13:12,815 --> 00:13:17,151 Uh, but I have the same problem, and I've never even met her. 221 00:13:17,152 --> 00:13:21,321 It's just... look at her. She's obviously her. 222 00:13:21,322 --> 00:13:26,126 I mean, the main character is a girl with a lot of tattoos named Anna. 223 00:13:26,127 --> 00:13:30,881 Who needs to eat every two hours or she passes out. 224 00:13:30,882 --> 00:13:34,501 Well, even if the character was named Hannah, 225 00:13:34,502 --> 00:13:36,003 it doesn't mean it's about her. 226 00:13:36,004 --> 00:13:37,588 I mean, writers do that all the time. 227 00:13:37,589 --> 00:13:38,839 We know that, right? 228 00:13:38,840 --> 00:13:40,842 And if it's about her, so what? 229 00:13:40,843 --> 00:13:43,060 Who fucking cares? This is her voice. 230 00:13:43,061 --> 00:13:44,394 This is who she is. 231 00:13:44,395 --> 00:13:46,480 We can't squash her voice of what she's trying to say. 232 00:13:46,481 --> 00:13:48,148 Totally, D. August. 233 00:13:48,149 --> 00:13:51,268 As usual, you hit the nail on the head. 234 00:13:51,269 --> 00:13:53,688 That's not really my problem with her piece. 235 00:13:53,689 --> 00:13:57,859 I definitely felt a lack of sympathy towards the male perspective 236 00:13:57,860 --> 00:14:00,694 and some stunted feminist idea... 237 00:14:00,695 --> 00:14:03,580 - I'm sorry, can I say one thing? - No, not yet. Not yet. 238 00:14:03,581 --> 00:14:06,200 - Five words. - No, I know it's hard, but just not yet. 239 00:14:06,201 --> 00:14:08,085 - One word. - Hannah. 240 00:14:08,086 --> 00:14:09,870 History. 241 00:14:09,871 --> 00:14:12,673 History didn't really focus on the female perspective. 242 00:14:13,758 --> 00:14:15,376 I forgot what I was saying. 243 00:14:15,377 --> 00:14:17,594 Stunted feminist idea. 244 00:14:17,595 --> 00:14:19,513 Yeah, for me it would be much more interesting 245 00:14:19,514 --> 00:14:22,884 if there was a complex examination about the real ways 246 00:14:22,885 --> 00:14:25,269 that people challenge each other sexually. 247 00:14:27,555 --> 00:14:30,891 - You coming? - Do they have onion rings at the Fox Head? 248 00:14:33,194 --> 00:14:34,444 - Hey. - Hey. 249 00:14:34,445 --> 00:14:36,313 You headed for the Fox Head? 250 00:14:36,314 --> 00:14:38,866 No, I'm just gonna go home and metabolize the notes that I was given, 251 00:14:38,867 --> 00:14:40,784 figure out a way to integrate them into my work 252 00:14:40,785 --> 00:14:42,403 in a fashion that makes sense to me. 253 00:14:42,404 --> 00:14:44,988 No, no, no, no, you gotta go or everybody thinks you're a baby. 254 00:14:44,989 --> 00:14:46,990 No one's gonna think I'm a baby. 255 00:14:46,991 --> 00:14:50,410 - I'm metabolizing my notes. - Look, you're gonna go through a lot of these, okay? 256 00:14:50,411 --> 00:14:53,830 So, suck it up. I'll see you there, all right? 257 00:14:53,831 --> 00:14:56,416 I'm not stressed! 258 00:15:02,507 --> 00:15:05,509 No fucking way. 259 00:15:09,097 --> 00:15:10,764 Hello? 260 00:15:13,067 --> 00:15:15,018 Please bring my bike back! 261 00:15:15,019 --> 00:15:17,271 I mean, look. 262 00:15:17,272 --> 00:15:19,356 That is the danger of conferences, right? 263 00:15:19,357 --> 00:15:22,443 They really attract, like, the lowest common denominator who don't want to write. 264 00:15:22,444 --> 00:15:24,279 They just want to talk about writing. 265 00:15:24,280 --> 00:15:25,913 - It's awful. - I don't mean that in a bad way. 266 00:15:25,914 --> 00:15:28,198 - I just mean... - I'm just gonna get another beer. 267 00:15:28,199 --> 00:15:29,951 Do you guys want anything? 268 00:15:29,952 --> 00:15:32,035 - We're cool. - No, thanks. 269 00:15:32,036 --> 00:15:36,039 Honestly, Logan, I felt so misunderstood in class. 270 00:15:36,040 --> 00:15:39,509 Oh, yeah. I can understand that feeling, you know? 271 00:15:39,510 --> 00:15:43,213 But you have to understand it's all just a part of one big process. 272 00:15:43,214 --> 00:15:47,718 Because in the real world, let's just say you were to actually get "published." 273 00:15:47,719 --> 00:15:50,771 I mean, you can't go to everybody's house individually and defend your work, you know? 274 00:15:50,772 --> 00:15:53,390 It's important to know how your work comes across to a reader. 275 00:15:53,391 --> 00:15:56,978 I know, but, like, okay, just here alone, woman to woman, 276 00:15:56,979 --> 00:15:58,612 you don't have to put on a show, 277 00:15:58,613 --> 00:16:01,481 you didn't actually think the piece was insensitive 278 00:16:01,482 --> 00:16:03,567 to sufferers of abuse, did you? 279 00:16:04,569 --> 00:16:07,237 That is how I perceived it. 280 00:16:07,238 --> 00:16:09,323 But it's just a story. 281 00:16:09,324 --> 00:16:12,209 Stories can be very powerful, Hannah. 282 00:16:14,495 --> 00:16:15,997 Oh, my God. 283 00:16:15,998 --> 00:16:17,414 What's wrong? 284 00:16:17,415 --> 00:16:19,750 You're a survivor of abuse. 285 00:16:19,751 --> 00:16:21,335 What? 286 00:16:21,336 --> 00:16:23,171 Of course you're gonna be sensitive to it. 287 00:16:23,172 --> 00:16:24,755 You have a right to be sensitive to it. 288 00:16:24,756 --> 00:16:26,423 You're a survivor of abuse. 289 00:16:26,424 --> 00:16:28,509 Hannah, I don't know what you're talking about. 290 00:16:28,510 --> 00:16:30,560 I knew aspects of the story would be triggering, 291 00:16:30,561 --> 00:16:34,097 but I didn't imagine just how close to home it would hit. 292 00:16:34,098 --> 00:16:36,900 Okay, great, you don't know what I'm talking about. 293 00:16:36,901 --> 00:16:38,518 You don't know what you're talking about. 294 00:16:38,519 --> 00:16:40,320 And my story isn't about the time 295 00:16:40,321 --> 00:16:41,989 that I took a couple Quaaludes 296 00:16:41,990 --> 00:16:43,824 and asked my boyfriend to punch me in the chest. 297 00:16:43,825 --> 00:16:45,442 TMI, Hannah. TMI. 298 00:16:45,443 --> 00:16:47,528 By the way, TMI is such an outdated concept. 299 00:16:47,529 --> 00:16:49,196 There's no such thing as too much information. 300 00:16:49,197 --> 00:16:50,865 This is the Information Age. 301 00:16:50,866 --> 00:16:52,867 We're all just here to express ourselves, 302 00:16:52,868 --> 00:16:55,452 so it's like to censor each other? 303 00:16:55,453 --> 00:16:59,707 We're no better than... George W. Bush. 304 00:16:59,708 --> 00:17:01,758 When you licked my face, 305 00:17:01,759 --> 00:17:03,877 when you put your tongue on my cheek, 306 00:17:03,878 --> 00:17:06,046 apparently that was just what you needed 307 00:17:06,047 --> 00:17:08,883 to get in the mood to rip out my molars, right? 308 00:17:08,884 --> 00:17:12,019 I hope someday I know the passion that Huck feels for Quinn. 309 00:17:12,020 --> 00:17:14,304 But your tongue in my mouth? 310 00:17:14,305 --> 00:17:15,922 That's different. 311 00:17:15,923 --> 00:17:18,525 - You put your tongue in my mouth... 312 00:17:18,526 --> 00:17:20,827 and now I deserve to live? 313 00:17:20,828 --> 00:17:23,430 - That's a thing? - Okay, it's, like, just a bunch of zeroes. 314 00:17:23,431 --> 00:17:25,482 Prison. 315 00:17:28,403 --> 00:17:29,670 Hello? 316 00:17:29,671 --> 00:17:31,371 You have a collect call from... 317 00:17:31,372 --> 00:17:32,656 This is Hannah. My phone broke. 318 00:17:32,657 --> 00:17:33,990 Hello? What? Hannah? 319 00:17:33,991 --> 00:17:35,826 To accept this call, press one. 320 00:17:35,827 --> 00:17:38,045 Dude, something insane is happening right now. 321 00:17:38,046 --> 00:17:41,281 - It's Hannah? - Can you hear me? This is a... 322 00:17:41,282 --> 00:17:43,667 Please enter your choice now. 323 00:17:43,668 --> 00:17:45,969 I, like, can't understand her. It's really fast. 324 00:17:45,970 --> 00:17:47,671 This is Hannah. My phone broke. 325 00:17:47,672 --> 00:17:49,339 - is calling collect. - Can you hear me? 326 00:17:49,340 --> 00:17:50,925 To accept charges, press 1 now. 327 00:17:50,926 --> 00:17:52,260 Accept the call! 328 00:17:52,261 --> 00:17:54,762 - Should I pause? - Hello? 329 00:17:54,763 --> 00:17:56,430 Have you ever heard of a collect call... 330 00:17:56,431 --> 00:17:59,066 you motherfucking cunts? 331 00:18:07,859 --> 00:18:09,993 Say your name after the tone. 332 00:18:09,994 --> 00:18:12,245 - This is your daughter Hannah. Please pick up. 333 00:18:12,246 --> 00:18:14,281 - Honey? - Is it Hannah? 334 00:18:14,282 --> 00:18:16,199 Yeah, collect. She's calling collect. 335 00:18:16,200 --> 00:18:17,701 Accept the charges. 336 00:18:17,702 --> 00:18:21,122 - Hi. - Honey, what happened to your phone? 337 00:18:21,123 --> 00:18:23,039 Ask her what happened to her phone. 338 00:18:23,040 --> 00:18:26,343 Oh, I just dropped it in a creek 'cause I was... 339 00:18:26,344 --> 00:18:29,179 creek walking with just a group of my new friends. 340 00:18:29,180 --> 00:18:31,632 Oh, that's nice. She has a bunch of new friends. 341 00:18:31,633 --> 00:18:33,801 - Yeah? Ask her what their names are. - What are their names? 342 00:18:33,802 --> 00:18:36,103 Oh, their names are Shannon... 343 00:18:36,104 --> 00:18:37,187 - Shannon. - Shannon. 344 00:18:37,188 --> 00:18:38,972 - Jeff... - Jeff. 345 00:18:38,973 --> 00:18:40,440 - Okay. - Jonesly... 346 00:18:40,441 --> 00:18:41,608 Jonesly. 347 00:18:41,609 --> 00:18:44,060 Rancheny, Nagasaki, and Cher. 348 00:18:44,061 --> 00:18:45,579 There are a bunch. 349 00:18:45,580 --> 00:18:48,483 Hey, tell us more. Have you had class yet? 350 00:18:48,484 --> 00:18:50,033 Uh, no, I didn't have class yet. 351 00:18:50,034 --> 00:18:53,870 Just getting ready and, you know, hangin' with the new pals. 352 00:18:53,871 --> 00:18:55,990 Hey, Mommy, can I ask you a question? 353 00:18:55,991 --> 00:18:57,325 Sure, of course. 354 00:18:57,326 --> 00:18:59,326 Is it normal when you get to a new place 355 00:18:59,327 --> 00:19:01,878 to think about suicide for the first time ever? 356 00:19:01,879 --> 00:19:05,166 - What? - Not that you want to do it or anything. 357 00:19:05,167 --> 00:19:06,416 Just that you could do it. 358 00:19:06,417 --> 00:19:07,801 You're thinking about ways to do it 359 00:19:07,802 --> 00:19:09,302 that never occurred to you before, you know? 360 00:19:09,303 --> 00:19:11,671 Just like cutting off your own wrist. 361 00:19:11,672 --> 00:19:13,256 I don't know. It's just that it's the only way 362 00:19:13,257 --> 00:19:15,843 to get out of your current situation that you're in. 363 00:19:15,844 --> 00:19:18,345 Yeah, I think that's normal. 364 00:19:18,346 --> 00:19:21,148 I mean, whenever I'm on a very high building, 365 00:19:21,149 --> 00:19:22,732 I always think I could jump. 366 00:19:22,733 --> 00:19:26,436 You think of dropping the baby. 367 00:19:26,437 --> 00:19:28,189 - Just because. - You do. 368 00:19:28,190 --> 00:19:31,241 Honey, can you ask Hannah to call us back when we're done with the game? 369 00:19:31,242 --> 00:19:32,909 Ooh, your dad wants us to call you back. 370 00:19:32,910 --> 00:19:34,411 I think he has a really good word. 371 00:19:34,412 --> 00:19:36,580 - Wait. - We'll call you right back, okay, sweetie? 372 00:19:36,581 --> 00:19:39,499 - I think I can make... 373 00:19:55,883 --> 00:19:57,467 Who opened the door?! 374 00:19:59,220 --> 00:20:01,221 I'm not kidding! 375 00:20:02,390 --> 00:20:04,975 I have a self-defense keychain 376 00:20:04,976 --> 00:20:08,945 that I bought illegally, okay? 377 00:20:08,946 --> 00:20:11,732 And I can slice you 378 00:20:11,733 --> 00:20:14,534 from top to bottom! 379 00:20:16,070 --> 00:20:18,238 Hello? 380 00:20:18,239 --> 00:20:19,740 Hello? 381 00:20:19,741 --> 00:20:21,491 I have a family! 382 00:20:21,492 --> 00:20:25,662 - What are you even doing?! - Calm down. 383 00:20:25,663 --> 00:20:27,130 On the way here from the airport, 384 00:20:27,131 --> 00:20:30,667 two people asked me if I was Blake Lively's husband. 385 00:20:30,668 --> 00:20:32,335 Iowa is amazing! 386 00:20:32,336 --> 00:20:35,222 - What are you doing here? - Well, your last text was sort of a bummer, 387 00:20:35,223 --> 00:20:37,591 so I figured maybe you could use a candy striper. 388 00:20:37,592 --> 00:20:39,259 Elijah, I can't use a candy striper. 389 00:20:39,260 --> 00:20:42,263 I'm in the midst of a very intense... 390 00:20:42,264 --> 00:20:44,180 - I love you. - I love you. 391 00:20:44,181 --> 00:20:45,649 I love you. 392 00:20:45,650 --> 00:20:48,501 But there's no way that you came here just to be nice to me. 393 00:20:48,502 --> 00:20:50,437 Okay, well, that hurts my feelings. 394 00:20:50,438 --> 00:20:52,906 Honestly, New York was just too grotesque. 395 00:20:52,907 --> 00:20:55,442 I mean, I just feel like a fucking loser. 396 00:20:55,443 --> 00:20:57,360 I just keep running into people that I've slept with, 397 00:20:57,361 --> 00:21:01,248 and then last week I saw a homeless woman fist herself on my stoop. 398 00:21:01,249 --> 00:21:02,450 No. 399 00:21:02,451 --> 00:21:04,000 It's like I've had enough. 400 00:21:04,001 --> 00:21:05,786 - I love you so much. - I love you, too. 401 00:21:05,787 --> 00:21:09,422 - I hate everyone who isn't you. - Me, too. 402 00:21:09,423 --> 00:21:11,925 I've been saying that for years. 403 00:21:11,926 --> 00:21:13,877 Why don't you change out of whatever this is, 404 00:21:13,878 --> 00:21:16,880 'cause we're gonna go to a rager on North Linn Street! 405 00:21:16,881 --> 00:21:19,182 Elijah, I would love to go to a rager, but I'm sorry. 406 00:21:19,183 --> 00:21:21,184 I have to, you know, revise my story 407 00:21:21,185 --> 00:21:24,304 and meditate on Priya's story and... 408 00:21:24,305 --> 00:21:25,806 let's forget who we are. 409 00:21:25,807 --> 00:21:27,190 That's why I'm here. 410 00:21:27,191 --> 00:21:29,810 - Your body looks amazing. - Oh, thanks. 411 00:21:29,811 --> 00:21:32,279 I haven't seen your pubic hair in a long time. 412 00:21:32,280 --> 00:21:33,530 I just grew it back. 413 00:22:41,298 --> 00:22:43,551 I'm not gay. 414 00:22:43,552 --> 00:22:45,552 Yeah, me neither, bro. 415 00:22:47,054 --> 00:22:49,973 Oh? Okay. 416 00:22:49,974 --> 00:22:52,025 All right. 417 00:22:52,026 --> 00:22:55,612 - Yeah. - Yeah. Parties are fun, right? 418 00:22:55,613 --> 00:22:57,230 Is this what happens at every party? 419 00:22:57,231 --> 00:22:59,199 Every party I'm at. 420 00:23:03,487 --> 00:23:07,657 Excuse me, ding-a-ling, coming through. 421 00:23:10,461 --> 00:23:12,746 What's wrong? 422 00:23:12,747 --> 00:23:15,465 My boyfriend, he's cheating on me. 423 00:23:15,466 --> 00:23:17,417 Your boyfriend is cheating on you? 424 00:23:17,418 --> 00:23:19,586 Where the fuck is that dingbat? 425 00:23:19,587 --> 00:23:23,591 Des Moines. He goes to Iowa State. 426 00:23:23,592 --> 00:23:25,425 Oh, so you're saying it's a long-distance thing? 427 00:23:25,426 --> 00:23:26,926 Uh-huh. 428 00:23:26,927 --> 00:23:29,764 Oh, then you're gonna need to snap out of it. 429 00:23:29,765 --> 00:23:32,433 Them's the rules, honey. Don't ask, don't tell. 430 00:23:32,434 --> 00:23:34,017 If you're not gonna know what he's doing there, 431 00:23:34,018 --> 00:23:35,819 he's not gonna know what you're doing here. 432 00:23:35,820 --> 00:23:38,488 And that's okay. And that's why you're gonna move into that living room, 433 00:23:38,489 --> 00:23:40,490 and you are gonna bust a nut. 434 00:23:40,491 --> 00:23:43,743 You are gonna get your dick wet. You are gonna get yours. 435 00:23:43,744 --> 00:23:45,328 That's what you need to do. 436 00:23:45,329 --> 00:23:48,031 You can't sit around think... being Little Miss Faithful. 437 00:23:48,032 --> 00:23:49,332 That's fucking crazy. 438 00:23:49,333 --> 00:23:51,334 - Are you crazy? - No. 439 00:23:51,335 --> 00:23:53,503 I'm sorry. Here, drink this. Drink this. 440 00:23:53,504 --> 00:23:55,672 It's okay. It's just I've seen a lot of things. 441 00:23:55,673 --> 00:23:58,591 I'm 25 years old and I'm here to help you, all right? 442 00:23:58,592 --> 00:24:00,210 All right? You're gonna be all right. 443 00:24:00,211 --> 00:24:01,461 You're gonna be all right, okay? 444 00:24:01,462 --> 00:24:02,929 I'm gonna use the bathroom before you. 445 00:24:02,930 --> 00:24:05,465 Thank you. 446 00:24:10,305 --> 00:24:11,888 Get her! 447 00:24:14,525 --> 00:24:16,025 Come on, Hannah! 448 00:24:16,026 --> 00:24:17,560 Get her! 449 00:24:17,561 --> 00:24:19,145 Fight! Fight! Fight! 450 00:24:20,731 --> 00:24:23,149 Scissor her! Really lez out! 451 00:24:23,150 --> 00:24:24,784 That's what they all wanna see! 452 00:24:31,075 --> 00:24:33,827 - Yeah! - Go, take her down! Whoo! 453 00:24:39,334 --> 00:24:43,169 Yeah! - Whoo! Whoo! Whoo! 454 00:24:55,900 --> 00:24:57,567 Elijah? 455 00:24:57,568 --> 00:25:00,854 Elijah, let's go. 456 00:25:00,855 --> 00:25:02,906 Hannah, we did it. 457 00:25:02,907 --> 00:25:06,025 We did it. Come on. 458 00:25:06,026 --> 00:25:07,744 We did it. 459 00:25:09,330 --> 00:25:11,197 Everyone's sleeping. 460 00:25:11,198 --> 00:25:13,500 Why is everybody asleep? 461 00:25:13,501 --> 00:25:15,335 Fuckin' pussy. 462 00:25:16,704 --> 00:25:19,122 I want to go back to undergrad school. 463 00:25:19,123 --> 00:25:21,658 I don't want to stay in grad school. 464 00:25:21,659 --> 00:25:22,992 Iowa.