1 00:02:16,441 --> 00:02:18,566 -Evening, Mr. Godby. -Wotcher. 2 00:02:19,066 --> 00:02:21,566 -Hello, Hello, Hello. -Quite a stranger, aren't you? 3 00:02:21,733 --> 00:02:24,316 -l couldn't get in yesterday. -l wondered what had happened to you. 4 00:02:24,483 --> 00:02:26,275 -l had a bit of a dust up. -What about? 5 00:02:26,441 --> 00:02:27,941 A chap got out of first class... 6 00:02:28,108 --> 00:02:30,441 with a third class ticket. 7 00:02:30,608 --> 00:02:33,733 He wouldn't pay excess; turned nasty. l had to send for Mr Saunders. 8 00:02:33,900 --> 00:02:35,775 -Fat lot of good he'd be. -He ticked him off. 9 00:02:35,941 --> 00:02:39,191 -Seeing's believing. -He ticked him off proper. 10 00:02:39,358 --> 00:02:42,191 ''Pay the balance at once'' he says ''or l'll get the police.'' 11 00:02:42,358 --> 00:02:45,400 You should've seen his face at the word ''police''. 12 00:02:45,608 --> 00:02:47,858 Changed his tune. Paid up like lightening. 13 00:02:48,108 --> 00:02:50,316 Exactly, he couldn't handle it himself. 14 00:02:50,483 --> 00:02:52,566 He had to call the police. 15 00:02:52,733 --> 00:02:54,316 He's not a bad lot, Saunders. 16 00:02:54,483 --> 00:02:58,400 After all, he's only got one lung and a wife with diabetes. 17 00:02:58,566 --> 00:03:00,650 l thought something was wrong when you didn't come. 18 00:03:00,816 --> 00:03:04,025 l'd have come to explain, but l had a date and had to run. 19 00:03:04,191 --> 00:03:05,400 lndeed! 20 00:03:05,566 --> 00:03:08,650 -A chap l know is getting married. -Very interesting, l'm sure. 21 00:03:10,233 --> 00:03:13,733 -What's up with you? -l dont know what you mean. 22 00:03:13,941 --> 00:03:16,650 -You're a bit unfriendly. -Beryl, hurry up. 23 00:03:17,025 --> 00:03:19,275 -Put some more coal in the stove. -Yes, Mrs. Bagot. 24 00:03:19,441 --> 00:03:23,150 l can't stand here wasting my time in idle gossip, Mr. Godby. 25 00:03:23,316 --> 00:03:24,525 What about another cup? 26 00:03:24,691 --> 00:03:26,858 You can have another cup when you finish that one. 27 00:03:27,025 --> 00:03:29,816 Beryl will give it to you. l've got my accounts to do. 28 00:03:31,233 --> 00:03:35,108 -l'd rather you gave it to me. -Time and tide wait for no man. 29 00:03:37,025 --> 00:03:39,900 -Laura! What a lovely surprise. -Oh. Dolly! 30 00:03:40,066 --> 00:03:44,191 l've been shopping till l'm dropping. My throat's parched. 31 00:03:44,525 --> 00:03:47,525 l'd have had tea in Spindle's but didn't want to miss the train. 32 00:03:47,691 --> 00:03:50,400 -Dear! -This is Doctor Harvey. 33 00:03:51,025 --> 00:03:51,816 How do you do. 34 00:03:51,983 --> 00:03:56,400 Get me my cup of tea would you? l can't drag my bones to the counter. 35 00:03:56,775 --> 00:03:58,191 No please... 36 00:04:00,191 --> 00:04:03,900 What a nice looking man. Who is he? You're a dark horse. 37 00:04:04,066 --> 00:04:05,983 l'll phone Fred in the morning and make mischief. 38 00:04:07,150 --> 00:04:10,358 This is a bit of luck. l haven't seen you for ages. 39 00:04:10,525 --> 00:04:13,358 l meant to pop in but Tony had measles... 40 00:04:13,525 --> 00:04:15,858 Then l'd that fuss over Phyllis. You don't know. 41 00:04:16,025 --> 00:04:17,941 -She left me. -Dreadful. 42 00:04:18,108 --> 00:04:21,733 l never really liked her, but Tony adored her. 43 00:04:22,483 --> 00:04:25,733 l'll tell you later in the train. Thank you. 44 00:04:26,525 --> 00:04:29,858 There's certainly enough milk in it, but it'll be refreshing. 45 00:04:32,441 --> 00:04:35,150 -Oh dear. No sugar. -lt's in the spoon. 46 00:04:35,316 --> 00:04:37,566 Of course. What a fool l am. 47 00:04:38,191 --> 00:04:41,358 Laura you're looking well. lf l knew you were coming... 48 00:04:41,525 --> 00:04:45,650 we could've had lunch and a gossip. l loathe shopping by myself. 49 00:04:48,900 --> 00:04:50,358 -There's your train. -Yes, l know. 50 00:04:50,525 --> 00:04:52,816 -Aren't you coming with us? -No, l go in the opposite direction. 51 00:04:52,983 --> 00:04:54,733 -My practice is in Churley. -l see. 52 00:04:54,900 --> 00:04:56,316 l'm a general practitioner. 53 00:04:56,483 --> 00:04:58,316 Dr. Harvey's going to Africa next week. 54 00:04:58,483 --> 00:04:59,858 How thrilling. 55 00:05:00,066 --> 00:05:04,733 ...the 5.40 for Churley, Leigh Green and Langdon. 56 00:05:04,900 --> 00:05:06,316 -l must go. -Yes, you must. 57 00:05:06,483 --> 00:05:08,233 -Goodbye. -Goodbye. 58 00:05:19,275 --> 00:05:22,858 He'll have to run or he'll miss it. lt's on the other platform. 59 00:05:23,566 --> 00:05:26,691 Talking of missing trains reminds me of the bridge at Broadham junction. 60 00:05:26,983 --> 00:05:30,108 You've got to traipse up one side, and down the other. 61 00:05:30,316 --> 00:05:34,066 The other day l'd been to see Bob's solicitor... 62 00:05:34,525 --> 00:05:39,733 l got to the station with only half a minute to spare. l flew. 63 00:05:39,900 --> 00:05:43,816 l was with Tony and l'd bought a new lampshade... 64 00:05:43,983 --> 00:05:45,899 l could've got it here in Milford. 65 00:05:46,233 --> 00:05:48,899 lt was enormous. 66 00:05:49,066 --> 00:05:52,899 l couldn't see over it. l nearly knocked a woman down. 67 00:05:53,858 --> 00:05:56,441 When l got home it was battered to bits. 68 00:05:58,191 --> 00:06:01,233 ls that our train? ls that the Ketchworth train? 69 00:06:01,399 --> 00:06:03,358 -No, it's the express. -The boat train. 70 00:06:03,524 --> 00:06:05,524 That doesn't stop, does it? 71 00:06:05,691 --> 00:06:08,108 -l want some chocolate, please. -Milk or plain? 72 00:06:08,274 --> 00:06:10,066 Plain, l think. 73 00:06:10,233 --> 00:06:12,816 No, milk would be nicer. Anything with nuts in it? 74 00:06:12,983 --> 00:06:14,983 Nestle's nut milk. 75 00:06:15,149 --> 00:06:17,024 One plain and one nut milk. 76 00:06:17,566 --> 00:06:19,566 -Large or small? -Large please. 77 00:06:29,858 --> 00:06:31,649 Where is she? 78 00:06:32,858 --> 00:06:34,691 l never noticed her go. 79 00:06:36,649 --> 00:06:38,941 l couldn't think where you'd disappeared to. 80 00:06:39,858 --> 00:06:42,024 l wanted to see the express go through. 81 00:06:43,024 --> 00:06:45,108 What's the matter? Are you feeling ill? 82 00:06:45,733 --> 00:06:48,108 -l feel a little sick. -Come and sit down. 83 00:06:51,941 --> 00:06:54,024 There's our train. 84 00:06:54,274 --> 00:06:56,274 -Have you any brandy? -lt's out of hours. 85 00:06:56,441 --> 00:06:58,566 -Surely if somebody's ill. -l'm all right. 86 00:06:58,858 --> 00:07:01,399 Brandy will buck you up. Please. 87 00:07:01,566 --> 00:07:02,899 Very well. 88 00:07:03,066 --> 00:07:05,066 -How much? -Tenpence please. 89 00:07:06,858 --> 00:07:10,983 The train for Ketchworth is now arriving at platform 3. 90 00:07:11,149 --> 00:07:12,983 We have to hurry. 91 00:07:23,441 --> 00:07:25,233 This is a bit of luck. 92 00:07:25,399 --> 00:07:27,524 This train is generally packed. 93 00:07:28,858 --> 00:07:31,608 l'm really worried about you. You look terribly peaky. 94 00:07:31,774 --> 00:07:34,816 l'm all right. l just felt faint. 95 00:07:34,983 --> 00:07:38,983 lt happens. l did it once at Bobbie's concert. He's never forgiven me. 96 00:07:41,066 --> 00:07:43,191 He certainly was good looking. 97 00:07:43,358 --> 00:07:45,733 -Who? -Your friend. Dr. Whats-his-name. 98 00:07:47,066 --> 00:07:50,108 -Yes, he's a nice creature. -Have you known him long? 99 00:07:50,441 --> 00:07:51,899 No, not very long. 100 00:07:52,941 --> 00:07:55,316 -l hardly know him at all. -My dear! 101 00:07:55,483 --> 00:07:57,483 l've always loved doctors. 102 00:07:57,649 --> 00:08:00,358 l can well understand how it is that women get neurotic... 103 00:08:02,149 --> 00:08:03,858 l wish l could trust you. 104 00:08:05,149 --> 00:08:07,399 l wish you were a wise kind friend... 105 00:08:08,233 --> 00:08:13,024 instead of a gossip l've known for years and never really cared for. 106 00:08:14,274 --> 00:08:16,566 l wish... l wish... 107 00:08:16,733 --> 00:08:19,316 Fancy him going to Africa. ls he married? 108 00:08:19,566 --> 00:08:20,899 -Yes. -Any children? 109 00:08:21,066 --> 00:08:22,899 Yes, 2 boys. He's very proud of them. 110 00:08:23,149 --> 00:08:25,608 ls he taking them with him? Wife and children? 111 00:08:25,774 --> 00:08:27,191 Yes, he is. 112 00:08:27,358 --> 00:08:29,316 l suppose it's sensible... 113 00:08:29,483 --> 00:08:32,566 starting life anew in the wide open space but... 114 00:08:33,108 --> 00:08:35,233 wild horses wouldn't drag me away from England and home... 115 00:08:35,399 --> 00:08:37,399 and all the things l'm used to. 116 00:08:37,816 --> 00:08:40,149 One has one's roots hasn't one? 117 00:08:40,316 --> 00:08:41,899 Yes, one has one's roots. 118 00:08:42,066 --> 00:08:43,524 l knew a girl who went to Africa. 119 00:08:43,691 --> 00:08:46,233 Her husband worked in engineering... 120 00:08:46,399 --> 00:08:48,483 She had the most dreadful time. 121 00:08:48,649 --> 00:08:52,233 She got some awful kind of germ and was ill for months... 122 00:08:52,941 --> 00:08:54,483 l wish you'd stop talking. 123 00:08:55,358 --> 00:08:57,899 l wish you'd stop prying and trying to find things out. 124 00:08:58,691 --> 00:09:02,316 l wish you were dead. No, not that. That was silly and unkind. 125 00:09:03,649 --> 00:09:06,399 -But l wish you'd stop talking. -All her hair came out... 126 00:09:06,566 --> 00:09:09,108 and she said the social life was quite horrid... 127 00:09:09,274 --> 00:09:11,149 Provincial and very nouveau riche. 128 00:09:11,316 --> 00:09:13,524 -Oh Dolly. -Are you feeling ill again? 129 00:09:13,691 --> 00:09:15,649 A bit dizzy. 130 00:09:15,816 --> 00:09:18,232 -l'll close my eyes for a bit. -Poor darling... 131 00:09:18,399 --> 00:09:20,066 Here am l chatting away. 132 00:09:20,232 --> 00:09:22,149 l won't say another word. 133 00:09:22,316 --> 00:09:25,816 lf you drop off l'll wake you up at the level crossing. 134 00:09:25,982 --> 00:09:28,482 You can powder your nose before we get out. 135 00:09:28,732 --> 00:09:30,191 Thanks, Dolly. 136 00:09:35,316 --> 00:09:36,816 This can't last. 137 00:09:38,774 --> 00:09:40,774 This misery can't last. 138 00:09:41,982 --> 00:09:44,399 l must remember that and try to control myself. 139 00:09:45,732 --> 00:09:47,399 Nothing lasts really... 140 00:09:47,732 --> 00:09:49,732 neither happiness nor despair. 141 00:09:50,149 --> 00:09:52,316 Not even life lasts very long. 142 00:09:53,607 --> 00:09:56,607 There'll come a time when l shan't mind about this anymore... 143 00:09:57,732 --> 00:10:01,607 when l can look back and say cheertully: ''How silly l was''. 144 00:10:03,774 --> 00:10:06,274 l don't want that time to come ever. 145 00:10:07,732 --> 00:10:09,691 l want to remember every minute... 146 00:10:11,066 --> 00:10:12,524 always... 147 00:10:13,899 --> 00:10:16,024 always, to the end of my days. 148 00:10:18,232 --> 00:10:21,024 -Ketchworth! -Wake up. Laura. We're here. 149 00:10:21,441 --> 00:10:22,649 Ketchworth! 150 00:10:23,566 --> 00:10:26,316 l could take you home. lt isn't out of my way. 151 00:10:27,149 --> 00:10:30,607 l'll go down Elmore Lane and l'll be home in two minutes. 152 00:10:30,774 --> 00:10:33,607 lt's sweet of you but l'm perfectly all right now. 153 00:10:33,774 --> 00:10:36,732 -You're quite sure? -Positive. Thank you. 154 00:10:36,899 --> 00:10:41,274 Nonsense. l'll phone you to see if you've had a relapse. 155 00:10:41,607 --> 00:10:43,357 l shall disappoint you. Good night. 156 00:10:43,524 --> 00:10:46,232 Goodnight. Give my love to Fred and the children. 157 00:10:56,899 --> 00:10:58,607 ls that you Laura? 158 00:10:59,524 --> 00:11:01,566 -Yes, dear. -Thank goodness you're back. 159 00:11:01,732 --> 00:11:04,149 -The place has been in an uproar. -What's the matter? 160 00:11:04,316 --> 00:11:05,899 Bobbie and Margaret, fighting again. 161 00:11:06,066 --> 00:11:08,441 They won't go to sleep until you talk to them. 162 00:11:08,607 --> 00:11:10,691 Mummy? ls that you Mummy? 163 00:11:10,857 --> 00:11:13,399 -Yes, Margaret. -Come upstairs at once, Mummy. 164 00:11:13,566 --> 00:11:14,857 l want to talk to you. 165 00:11:21,274 --> 00:11:24,024 You're both very naughty. You should be asleep. 166 00:11:24,441 --> 00:11:26,441 -Now what is it? -Well Mummy... 167 00:11:26,607 --> 00:11:29,732 tomorrow's my birthday and l want to go to the Circus. 168 00:11:29,899 --> 00:11:33,441 Tomorrow's not Margaret's birthday and she wants to go to the Pantomime. 169 00:11:33,774 --> 00:11:36,524 My birthday's in June. There aren't any pantomimes in June. 170 00:11:36,982 --> 00:11:40,107 lt's too late to discuss it. Now go to sleep at once... 171 00:11:40,274 --> 00:11:42,441 or you won't go to either. 172 00:11:42,607 --> 00:11:43,774 Oh Mummy! 173 00:11:44,524 --> 00:11:47,191 Why not take them to both? One in the afternoon and one in the evening? 174 00:11:47,357 --> 00:11:51,899 That's impossible. We'd get to bed late, tired and fractious. 175 00:11:52,524 --> 00:11:54,857 One on one day, the other on the other. 176 00:11:55,774 --> 00:11:57,982 You accuse me of spoiling the children. 177 00:11:58,149 --> 00:12:01,482 Their characters would be ruined if it was up to you. 178 00:12:01,732 --> 00:12:03,774 All right, have it your own way. 179 00:12:04,982 --> 00:12:07,107 -Circus or Pantomime? -Neither. 180 00:12:07,274 --> 00:12:11,524 We'll thrash them, lock them in the attic and go the pictures. 181 00:12:16,941 --> 00:12:18,107 Oh Fred. 182 00:12:19,441 --> 00:12:22,816 -What on earth's the matter? -Nothing. lt's nothing. 183 00:12:23,982 --> 00:12:26,566 Darling, what's wrong? Tell me, please. 184 00:12:27,316 --> 00:12:29,149 Really, it's nothing... 185 00:12:29,316 --> 00:12:31,274 l'm run down that's all. 186 00:12:31,941 --> 00:12:35,107 l nearly fainted at the refreshment room at Milford. 187 00:12:35,274 --> 00:12:37,024 lsn't it idiotic? 188 00:12:37,191 --> 00:12:39,524 Dolly Messiter was with me and she talked... 189 00:12:39,691 --> 00:12:42,774 until l wanted to strangle her. But she meant to be kind. 190 00:12:43,815 --> 00:12:46,232 lsn't it awful about people meaning to be kind. 191 00:12:46,399 --> 00:12:49,315 -Would you like to go to bed? -No Fred, really. 192 00:12:50,274 --> 00:12:52,399 Come and sit by the fire and relax. 193 00:12:52,690 --> 00:12:54,982 You can help me with the crossword. 194 00:12:55,357 --> 00:12:58,149 You have the most peculiar ideas of relaxation. 195 00:12:59,649 --> 00:13:01,482 -There you are, darling. -Thank you. 196 00:13:03,565 --> 00:13:05,649 But why a fainting spell? l can't understand it. 197 00:13:05,815 --> 00:13:08,815 Don't be silly. l've often had fainting spells. 198 00:13:08,982 --> 00:13:10,649 You remember Bobbie's school concert... 199 00:13:10,815 --> 00:13:12,274 and Eileen's wedding... 200 00:13:12,440 --> 00:13:15,440 and when you took me to the Symphony concert at the Town Hall? 201 00:13:15,607 --> 00:13:17,565 That was a nose bleed. 202 00:13:17,732 --> 00:13:21,024 l suppose l must be that type of woman. lt's very humiliating. 203 00:13:21,482 --> 00:13:23,982 There'd be no harm in you seeing Dr. Graves. 204 00:13:24,315 --> 00:13:25,815 lt would be a waste of time. 205 00:13:25,982 --> 00:13:29,274 -Now listen... -Shut up. Don't make a fuss. 206 00:13:30,065 --> 00:13:34,274 l'd been shopping and was tired and it was hot and l felt sick. 207 00:13:34,440 --> 00:13:35,274 Nothing more than that. 208 00:13:36,024 --> 00:13:38,774 -All right. -Really nothing. 209 00:13:38,940 --> 00:13:41,232 Get on with your puzzle and leave me in peace. 210 00:13:41,399 --> 00:13:43,107 Have it your own way. 211 00:13:45,024 --> 00:13:47,357 You're a poetry addict. See if you can help me out. 212 00:13:47,524 --> 00:13:50,232 lt's Keats. ''l behold upon the night starred face... 213 00:13:50,399 --> 00:13:53,440 huge cloudy symbols of a high...'' 7 letters. 214 00:13:55,149 --> 00:13:57,857 ''Romance'', l think. l'm almost sure. 215 00:13:59,315 --> 00:14:01,274 ''Huge cloudy symbols of a high romance''. 216 00:14:01,440 --> 00:14:03,065 lt'll be in the Oxford. 217 00:14:03,274 --> 00:14:06,149 No, it's right. lt fits in. 218 00:14:11,399 --> 00:14:14,357 -Would music put you off? -No, dear, l'd like it. 219 00:15:17,024 --> 00:15:18,190 Fred... 220 00:15:19,149 --> 00:15:20,357 Fred... 221 00:15:21,774 --> 00:15:23,232 dear Fred. 222 00:15:24,482 --> 00:15:26,732 There's so much l want to say. 223 00:15:27,940 --> 00:15:32,274 You're the only one with the wisdom and gentleness to understand... 224 00:15:33,232 --> 00:15:35,857 if only it were somebody else's story and not mine. 225 00:15:37,565 --> 00:15:40,399 You are the only one in the world that l can never tell. 226 00:15:41,607 --> 00:15:42,982 Never, never. 227 00:15:43,815 --> 00:15:47,899 Because even if l waited until we were old and told you then... 228 00:15:48,482 --> 00:15:51,149 you'd look back over the years and be hurt. 229 00:15:52,482 --> 00:15:54,940 l don't want you to be hurt. 230 00:15:55,857 --> 00:15:57,149 You see... 231 00:15:57,982 --> 00:15:59,940 we're a happily married couple... 232 00:16:00,315 --> 00:16:02,274 and must never forget that. 233 00:16:03,232 --> 00:16:04,899 This is my home. 234 00:16:05,982 --> 00:16:07,524 You are my husband... 235 00:16:08,107 --> 00:16:10,149 and my children are upstairs in bed. 236 00:16:11,357 --> 00:16:13,232 l am a happily married woman... 237 00:16:14,398 --> 00:16:16,773 or l was until a few weeks ago. 238 00:16:18,440 --> 00:16:20,565 This is my whole world... 239 00:16:20,982 --> 00:16:22,482 and it's enough... 240 00:16:23,107 --> 00:16:25,440 or it was until a few weeks ago. 241 00:16:27,607 --> 00:16:30,190 l've been so foolish. 242 00:16:31,232 --> 00:16:32,898 l've fallen in love. 243 00:16:33,773 --> 00:16:35,273 l'm an ordinary woman. 244 00:16:36,315 --> 00:16:39,440 l didn't think such violent things happened to ordinary people. 245 00:16:41,565 --> 00:16:43,815 lt all started on an ordinary day... 246 00:16:44,815 --> 00:16:47,232 in an ordinary place... 247 00:16:47,773 --> 00:16:50,023 The Refreshment Room at Milford Junction. 248 00:16:51,315 --> 00:16:55,898 l was having a cup of tea and reading a book that l'd got from Boots. 249 00:16:56,232 --> 00:16:58,273 My train wasn't due for ten minutes. 250 00:16:59,232 --> 00:17:02,440 l looked up and saw a man come in from the platform. 251 00:17:03,398 --> 00:17:07,482 ln an ordinary mac, and hat. l didn't even see his face. 252 00:17:08,357 --> 00:17:10,273 He got his tea and turned... 253 00:17:10,440 --> 00:17:12,898 and then l did see his face. A nice face. 254 00:17:13,065 --> 00:17:15,273 -Any sugar? -ln the spoon. 255 00:17:15,565 --> 00:17:17,440 He passed by my table on the way to his. 256 00:17:18,857 --> 00:17:21,190 The woman was going on as usual. 257 00:17:21,398 --> 00:17:23,440 l told you about her the other day... 258 00:17:23,607 --> 00:17:24,898 the one with the refined voice. 259 00:17:25,065 --> 00:17:27,732 -Minnie hasn't touched her milk. -Did you put it down for her? 260 00:17:27,898 --> 00:17:29,898 Yes, but she never came for it. 261 00:17:30,940 --> 00:17:32,732 -Fond of animals? -ln their place. 262 00:17:33,190 --> 00:17:35,523 My landlady's mad for animals. 263 00:17:35,690 --> 00:17:38,023 She's got two cats, one manx, one ordinary... 264 00:17:38,190 --> 00:17:41,648 three rabbits in the kitchen. They belong to her little boy. 265 00:17:41,815 --> 00:17:44,607 And one of those daft looking dogs with hair over its eyes. 266 00:17:44,773 --> 00:17:48,982 -l don't know what breed you mean. -l don't think it knows itself. 267 00:17:50,607 --> 00:17:53,773 Go and clean Number 3, Beryl. l can see the crumbs on it from here. 268 00:17:53,940 --> 00:17:57,773 And my other cup? l have to go. The 5:40 will be here in a minute. 269 00:17:58,148 --> 00:18:00,398 -Who's on the gate? -Young William. 270 00:18:26,857 --> 00:18:30,440 A glass of water please. l've something in my eye. 271 00:18:32,315 --> 00:18:36,565 -Would you like me to have a look? -Don't trouble. The water will do. 272 00:18:36,732 --> 00:18:38,065 Bit of coal dust, l expect. 273 00:18:38,232 --> 00:18:41,357 A man l knew lost an eye by getting a bit of grit in it. 274 00:18:41,523 --> 00:18:43,357 -Nasty, very nasty. -Better? 275 00:18:43,690 --> 00:18:46,065 -l'm afraid not. Oh! -Can l help you? 276 00:18:46,607 --> 00:18:48,565 No. Just something in my eye. 277 00:18:48,732 --> 00:18:51,232 Pull your eyelid down.. 278 00:18:51,398 --> 00:18:53,273 -And then blow your nose. -Please let me look. 279 00:18:53,440 --> 00:18:55,940 -l happen to be a doctor. -lt's very kind of you. 280 00:18:56,107 --> 00:18:57,940 Turn round to the light please. 281 00:18:58,565 --> 00:19:00,398 Now look up... 282 00:19:01,648 --> 00:19:03,273 now look down... 283 00:19:05,565 --> 00:19:07,648 Keep still. l see it. 284 00:19:10,523 --> 00:19:13,023 -There! -What a relief. lt was agonising. 285 00:19:13,190 --> 00:19:14,940 -lt looks like a bit of grit. -lt was when the express went through. 286 00:19:15,107 --> 00:19:17,732 -Thank you very much indeed. -There we go. l must run. 287 00:19:17,898 --> 00:19:19,857 -Lucky for me you were here. -Anybody could have done it. 288 00:19:20,023 --> 00:19:23,232 -Never mind, you did, l'm grateful. -That's my train. l must go. Goodbye. 289 00:19:23,398 --> 00:19:24,690 Goodbye. 290 00:19:29,357 --> 00:19:30,982 That's how it all began. 291 00:19:31,648 --> 00:19:34,148 Just through me getting a bit of grit in my eye. 292 00:19:35,232 --> 00:19:38,565 l completely forgot about it. lt didn't mean anything to me at all. 293 00:19:40,815 --> 00:19:42,523 At least l didn't think it did. 294 00:19:48,273 --> 00:19:50,940 The next Thursday l went into Milford as usual. 295 00:20:01,231 --> 00:20:02,981 l changed my book at Boots. 296 00:20:03,148 --> 00:20:06,106 Miss Lewis had at last managed to get the new Kate O'brien for me. 297 00:20:06,273 --> 00:20:08,940 She kept it hidden under the counter for two days. 298 00:20:09,356 --> 00:20:12,440 On the way out l bought two new toothbrushes for the children. 299 00:20:12,731 --> 00:20:15,190 l like the smell of a chemist's. 300 00:20:15,356 --> 00:20:16,898 lt's such a nice mixture of nice things... 301 00:20:17,065 --> 00:20:19,190 herbs and scent and soap. 302 00:20:19,773 --> 00:20:24,190 Mrs. Leptwich was there, in one of the silliest hats l've ever seen. 303 00:20:24,940 --> 00:20:26,398 Fortunately she didn't look up. 304 00:20:26,565 --> 00:20:28,481 l got out without her buttonholing me. 305 00:20:29,731 --> 00:20:31,315 Just as l stepped onto the pavement... 306 00:20:31,481 --> 00:20:33,231 -Good morning. -Oh, good morning. 307 00:20:33,398 --> 00:20:34,731 -How's the eye? -Perfectly all right. 308 00:20:34,898 --> 00:20:37,773 -How kind it was of you. -lt was nothing at all. 309 00:20:37,940 --> 00:20:40,606 -lt's clearing up l think. -Yes, it's going to be nice. 310 00:20:41,106 --> 00:20:44,106 -Well l must get to the hospital. -And l must get to the grocer's. 311 00:20:44,273 --> 00:20:46,856 -What exciting lives we lead. -Goodbye. 312 00:20:49,523 --> 00:20:52,065 That evening l had to run to the station. 313 00:20:52,523 --> 00:20:56,565 l'd been to the Palladium. lt was a long film and l was late. 314 00:20:57,731 --> 00:21:01,481 As l came to the platform, the Churley train was just puffing out. 315 00:21:02,148 --> 00:21:05,065 l looked up as the carriages went by... 316 00:21:05,273 --> 00:21:06,940 wondering if he was there. 317 00:21:07,315 --> 00:21:10,065 l remember it crossed my mind, but it was quite unimportant. 318 00:21:10,315 --> 00:21:12,231 l was thinking of other things. 319 00:21:12,606 --> 00:21:15,190 The present for your birthday was worrying me rather. 320 00:21:15,606 --> 00:21:18,148 lt was terribly expensive but l knew you wanted it. 321 00:21:18,315 --> 00:21:20,148 And l'd sort of half taken the plunge... 322 00:21:20,315 --> 00:21:23,690 and left a deposit on it at Spink & Robson's until next Thursday. 323 00:21:24,940 --> 00:21:26,398 The next Thursday... 324 00:21:27,648 --> 00:21:31,606 l squared my conscience by thinking how pleased you'd be and bought it. 325 00:21:31,773 --> 00:21:33,356 -Yes, l'll have it. -Thank you, Madam. 326 00:21:33,523 --> 00:21:36,523 lt was extravagant but l'd committed the crime... 327 00:21:36,731 --> 00:21:38,606 and l felt reckless and gay. 328 00:21:39,481 --> 00:21:40,940 The sun was out. 329 00:21:41,106 --> 00:21:43,648 Everyone looked more cheertul than usual. 330 00:21:43,815 --> 00:21:48,023 There was a barrel organ at the corner and l love barrel organs. 331 00:21:48,273 --> 00:21:51,190 lt was playing ''Let the great big world keep turning''. 332 00:21:51,523 --> 00:21:53,190 l gave the man sixpence... 333 00:21:53,356 --> 00:21:55,148 and went to Kardomah for lunch. 334 00:21:56,023 --> 00:21:59,398 lt was very full but two people got up from a table just as l came in. 335 00:22:00,398 --> 00:22:03,065 A bit of luck wasn't it? Or was it? 336 00:22:03,940 --> 00:22:06,565 Just after l had given my order, l saw him come in. 337 00:22:06,731 --> 00:22:09,898 He looked tired, and there was nowhere for him to sit. 338 00:22:10,065 --> 00:22:11,981 So l smiled and said: Good morning. 339 00:22:12,981 --> 00:22:15,023 Good morning. Are you all alone? 340 00:22:15,190 --> 00:22:16,065 Yes, l am. 341 00:22:16,231 --> 00:22:18,648 Could l share your table? lt's very full and there's nowhere else. 342 00:22:18,815 --> 00:22:20,398 Of course not. 343 00:22:24,190 --> 00:22:25,815 l'm afraid we haven't been introduced properly. 344 00:22:25,981 --> 00:22:28,565 -My name's Alec Harvey. -How do you do. 345 00:22:28,898 --> 00:22:30,981 -Mine's Laura Jesson. -Mrs. Or Miss? 346 00:22:31,148 --> 00:22:34,731 Mrs. You're a doctor, aren't you? You said so in the Refreshment Room. 347 00:22:34,898 --> 00:22:39,273 Yes. Not an interesting one, a G.P. My practice is in Churley. 348 00:22:39,565 --> 00:22:42,231 -Yes, sir? -What did you plump for? 349 00:22:43,106 --> 00:22:45,273 The soup and fried sole. 350 00:22:45,440 --> 00:22:47,648 -Yes, l'll have the same. -Anything to drink? 351 00:22:47,815 --> 00:22:50,023 No, thank you. Would you like anything to drink? 352 00:22:50,815 --> 00:22:53,273 -No, just plain water, please. -Plain water, please. 353 00:23:02,440 --> 00:23:04,440 Do look at the cellist. 354 00:23:12,356 --> 00:23:16,231 lt really is dreadful, isn't it? But we oughtn't laugh. They might see. 355 00:23:16,398 --> 00:23:18,439 There should be a society for the prevention... 356 00:23:18,606 --> 00:23:21,356 of cruelty to musical instruments. You don't play the piano, l hope. 357 00:23:21,523 --> 00:23:23,356 -l was forced to as a child. -You haven't kept it up. 358 00:23:23,523 --> 00:23:26,398 -No, my husband isn't musical at all. -Good for him. 359 00:23:26,564 --> 00:23:28,898 For all you know, l might have a tremendous professional talent. 360 00:23:29,064 --> 00:23:31,981 -Oh dear, no. -Why are you so sure? 361 00:23:32,356 --> 00:23:33,939 You're too sane and uncomplicated. 362 00:23:35,564 --> 00:23:38,773 l suppose it's a good thing, but it does sound a little dull. 363 00:23:38,939 --> 00:23:40,606 You could never be dull. 364 00:23:41,981 --> 00:23:45,398 -Do you come here every Thursday? -Yes, l spend the day at the hospital. 365 00:23:45,689 --> 00:23:48,398 Stephen Lynn, the chief physician graduated with me. 366 00:23:48,564 --> 00:23:51,564 l take over for him once a week. He goes up to London... 367 00:23:51,731 --> 00:23:54,314 -and l study the hospital patients. -l see. 368 00:23:54,481 --> 00:23:55,814 Do you? 369 00:23:56,064 --> 00:23:58,231 -Do l what? -Come here every Thursday? 370 00:23:59,439 --> 00:24:01,648 Yes. l do the week's shopping. 371 00:24:01,814 --> 00:24:05,314 Change my library book, have lunch and generally go to the pictures. 372 00:24:05,481 --> 00:24:07,731 Not a very exciting routine but it makes a change. 373 00:24:09,731 --> 00:24:11,398 Are you going to the pictures this afternoon? 374 00:24:11,564 --> 00:24:12,398 Yes. 375 00:24:13,231 --> 00:24:14,564 How extraordinary. So am l. 376 00:24:16,106 --> 00:24:17,731 l thought you had to spend all day at the hospital. 377 00:24:17,898 --> 00:24:21,398 Between us, l killed 2 patients this morning... 378 00:24:21,564 --> 00:24:25,356 and Matron's displeased. l simply daren't go back. 379 00:24:25,898 --> 00:24:26,814 How can you be so silly? 380 00:24:26,981 --> 00:24:29,523 l got through most of my work this morning. 381 00:24:29,689 --> 00:24:32,856 Would you mind if l came to the pictures with you? 382 00:24:34,273 --> 00:24:37,231 -Well, l... -l'll sit downstairs and you upstairs. 383 00:24:37,523 --> 00:24:39,273 Upstairs is too expensive. 384 00:24:41,939 --> 00:24:44,231 The orchestra stopped as abruptly as it had started... 385 00:24:44,398 --> 00:24:47,689 and we laughed again. l had no premonitions... 386 00:24:47,856 --> 00:24:51,439 although l suppose l should've had. lt all seemed so natural and innocent. 387 00:24:52,439 --> 00:24:55,898 We finished lunch and the idiot of a waitress had put the bill all on one. 388 00:24:56,064 --> 00:24:58,106 -l really must insist. -l couldn't possibly. 389 00:24:58,273 --> 00:25:00,898 Having forced my company on you, it's only fair that l pay for it. 390 00:25:01,064 --> 00:25:04,939 Please don't insist. l would much rather we halved it. Please. 391 00:25:05,564 --> 00:25:08,981 -l shall give in gracefully. -We halved it meticulously. 392 00:25:10,273 --> 00:25:12,481 We even halved the tip. 393 00:25:21,856 --> 00:25:22,981 Thank you. 394 00:25:24,939 --> 00:25:26,148 We have two choices. 395 00:25:26,314 --> 00:25:28,148 ''The Loves of Cardinal Richelieu'' at the Palace, or... 396 00:25:28,314 --> 00:25:29,981 -''Love in a Mist'' at the Palladium. -You're very knowledgeable. 397 00:25:30,148 --> 00:25:33,273 There must be no argument about the tickets. We each pay for ourselves. 398 00:25:33,564 --> 00:25:36,231 You must think me a poor doctor if l can't afford a couple of tickets! 399 00:25:36,398 --> 00:25:38,356 -l insist. -l hoped you were going to treat me! 400 00:25:38,523 --> 00:25:41,064 -Which is it to be: Palace or Palladium? -Palladium. 401 00:25:41,231 --> 00:25:44,564 l was once very sick on a steamer called ''Cardinal Richelieu''. 402 00:26:29,023 --> 00:26:31,356 l feel awfully grand perched up here. lt was very extravagant of you. 403 00:26:31,523 --> 00:26:34,148 -lt was a famous victory. -Do you feel guilty at all? l do. 404 00:26:34,314 --> 00:26:34,856 Guilty? 405 00:26:35,023 --> 00:26:37,523 You ought to more than me. You neglected your work this afternoon. 406 00:26:37,689 --> 00:26:41,189 l worked this morning. A little relaxation never harmed anyone. 407 00:26:41,356 --> 00:26:43,189 Why should we feel guilty? 408 00:26:43,564 --> 00:26:46,481 -l don't know. -How awfully nice you are. 409 00:27:00,772 --> 00:27:01,897 lt can't be. 410 00:27:04,022 --> 00:27:05,439 lt is. 411 00:27:08,981 --> 00:27:10,981 We walked to the station together. 412 00:27:11,397 --> 00:27:14,231 Just as we reached the gate, he put his hand under my arm. 413 00:27:14,981 --> 00:27:18,272 l didn't notice it then but l remember it now. 414 00:27:18,522 --> 00:27:21,064 -What's she like, your wife? -Madelaine? 415 00:27:21,314 --> 00:27:24,231 Small, dark, rather delicate. 416 00:27:24,397 --> 00:27:26,439 How funny. l thought she would've been fair. 417 00:27:26,606 --> 00:27:28,356 And your husband, what's he like? 418 00:27:28,522 --> 00:27:30,314 Medium height, brown hair... 419 00:27:30,481 --> 00:27:32,939 kindly, unemotional and not delicate at all. 420 00:27:33,106 --> 00:27:35,314 -You said that proudly. -Did l? 421 00:27:35,481 --> 00:27:36,856 -Good evening. -Evening. 422 00:27:37,439 --> 00:27:39,897 We've just got time for a cup of tea before our trains go. 423 00:27:40,272 --> 00:27:42,481 For the third time in a week he brought... 424 00:27:42,647 --> 00:27:45,897 a man and wife home without so much as a by your leave. 425 00:27:46,064 --> 00:27:48,939 -Two teas, please. -Cake or pastry? 426 00:27:49,106 --> 00:27:51,231 -Cake or pastry? -No thank you. 427 00:27:51,397 --> 00:27:54,314 -Are those Bath buns fresh? -Certainly. Made this morning. 428 00:27:54,481 --> 00:27:55,897 Two please. 429 00:27:57,772 --> 00:27:59,439 That'll be sevenpence. 430 00:28:00,814 --> 00:28:03,731 -Take the tea to the table, Beryl. -l'll carry the buns. 431 00:28:08,897 --> 00:28:11,606 -You must eat one of these. -Very fattening. 432 00:28:11,772 --> 00:28:13,231 l don't hold with such foolishness. 433 00:28:13,397 --> 00:28:17,314 -They do look good, l must say. -One of my earliest passions in life. 434 00:28:17,564 --> 00:28:20,106 -What happened then Mrs Bagot? -Well... 435 00:28:20,814 --> 00:28:22,106 lt's all very fine... 436 00:28:22,272 --> 00:28:25,731 expecting me to do this that and the other. 437 00:28:25,981 --> 00:28:29,897 But you can't expect me to be a cook and housekeeper during the day... 438 00:28:30,064 --> 00:28:32,564 and a loving wife in the evening. Just because you feel like it. 439 00:28:32,731 --> 00:28:35,981 There are as good fish in the sea... 440 00:28:36,147 --> 00:28:39,897 as ever came out of it. l packed my boxes and left him. 441 00:28:40,064 --> 00:28:41,647 Didn't you never go back? 442 00:28:41,814 --> 00:28:45,481 Never. l went to my sister's at Folkstone for a bit... 443 00:28:45,647 --> 00:28:49,064 then l opened a tea shop in Hathe. 444 00:28:49,397 --> 00:28:50,606 And what happened to him? 445 00:28:50,772 --> 00:28:53,856 -Dad as a doornail in three years. -Well, l never. 446 00:28:56,147 --> 00:28:58,356 ls tea bad for one? Worse than coffee? 447 00:28:59,189 --> 00:29:01,439 lf this is a professional interview my fee is a guinee. 448 00:29:02,106 --> 00:29:05,064 -Why did you become a doctor? -That's a long story... 449 00:29:05,814 --> 00:29:09,814 -Perhaps because l'm an idealist. -All doctors should have ideals... 450 00:29:09,981 --> 00:29:12,939 -or their work would be unbearable. -Don't encourage me to talk shop. 451 00:29:13,272 --> 00:29:15,356 Why not? lt's what interests you. 452 00:29:15,522 --> 00:29:16,939 Yes, it is. 453 00:29:17,106 --> 00:29:19,189 l'm terribly ambitious really. 454 00:29:19,356 --> 00:29:21,981 Not for myself, for my special pigeon. 455 00:29:22,397 --> 00:29:24,189 -What's your special pigeon? -Preventative medicine. 456 00:29:25,147 --> 00:29:27,981 -l see. -l'm afraid you don't. 457 00:29:28,147 --> 00:29:31,022 -l was trying to be intelligent. -Most good doctors... 458 00:29:31,189 --> 00:29:34,814 have private dreams. lt's the best part of them. 459 00:29:34,981 --> 00:29:38,106 But sometimes they get strangulated. Am l boring you? 460 00:29:38,272 --> 00:29:40,689 No. l don't quite understand but you're not boring me. 461 00:29:40,981 --> 00:29:44,314 What l mean is this... All good doctors must primarily... 462 00:29:44,481 --> 00:29:45,856 be enthusiasts. 463 00:29:46,022 --> 00:29:50,189 They must like writers and painters, have a sense of vocation. 464 00:29:51,231 --> 00:29:53,939 A deep-rooted desire to do good. 465 00:29:54,314 --> 00:29:55,272 Yes, l see that. 466 00:29:55,439 --> 00:29:58,231 Obviously one way of preventing disease is worth 50 ways of curing. 467 00:29:58,397 --> 00:30:00,106 That's where my ideal comes in. 468 00:30:00,272 --> 00:30:02,397 Preventative medicine isn't anything to do with medicine... 469 00:30:02,564 --> 00:30:06,439 but with living conditions, hygiene and common sense. 470 00:30:07,147 --> 00:30:08,897 My speciality is pneumoconiosis. 471 00:30:09,772 --> 00:30:11,189 Oh dear. 472 00:30:11,356 --> 00:30:13,855 Don't be alarmed. lt's simpler than it sounds. 473 00:30:14,314 --> 00:30:16,605 lt's a slow process of fibrosis of the lung... 474 00:30:16,772 --> 00:30:18,772 due to inhalation of dust. 475 00:30:19,064 --> 00:30:23,522 Here, there are splendid opportunities, because of the mines. 476 00:30:23,689 --> 00:30:26,647 -You suddenly look much younger. -Do l? 477 00:30:27,814 --> 00:30:31,272 -Almost like a little boy. -What made you say that? 478 00:30:32,855 --> 00:30:34,230 l don't know... 479 00:30:34,897 --> 00:30:36,397 Yes, l do. 480 00:30:36,814 --> 00:30:38,147 Tell me. 481 00:30:39,189 --> 00:30:42,897 No, l couldn't really. You were saying about the coal mines... 482 00:30:43,980 --> 00:30:46,730 Yes, the inhalation of coal dust. 483 00:30:48,522 --> 00:30:52,022 That's one form of the diseases, called anthracosis. 484 00:30:53,647 --> 00:30:55,189 What are the others? 485 00:30:56,147 --> 00:30:57,605 Chalicosis... 486 00:30:57,980 --> 00:30:59,772 from metal dust. 487 00:30:59,939 --> 00:31:01,814 Steel works. 488 00:31:02,522 --> 00:31:04,397 Yes, of course, steel works. 489 00:31:05,189 --> 00:31:06,647 And silicosis. 490 00:31:07,855 --> 00:31:11,105 That's stone dust. Gold mines. 491 00:31:12,939 --> 00:31:14,230 l see. 492 00:31:16,814 --> 00:31:18,230 -There's your train. -Yes. 493 00:31:18,397 --> 00:31:20,772 -You mustn't miss it. -No. 494 00:31:21,189 --> 00:31:23,855 -What's the matter? -Nothing. Nothing at all really. 495 00:31:25,897 --> 00:31:28,064 lt's been nice. l enjoyed the afternoon enormously. 496 00:31:28,230 --> 00:31:31,564 So have l. Sorry for boring you with medical words. 497 00:31:31,730 --> 00:31:34,439 l feel stupid not to understand more. 498 00:31:35,689 --> 00:31:37,272 Shall l see you again? 499 00:31:37,814 --> 00:31:39,314 You have to run. 500 00:31:39,480 --> 00:31:41,355 Mine's not due for a few minutes. 501 00:31:41,522 --> 00:31:44,189 -Shall l see you again? -Yes, of course. 502 00:31:44,355 --> 00:31:47,230 You could come to Ketchworth one Sunday. We should be delighted. 503 00:31:47,397 --> 00:31:49,397 -Please... please. -What is it? 504 00:31:49,564 --> 00:31:51,564 Next Thursday, the same time. 505 00:31:53,022 --> 00:31:54,980 -No, l couldn't possibly. -Please. 506 00:31:55,564 --> 00:31:57,397 l ask you most humbly. 507 00:31:58,147 --> 00:31:59,730 You'll miss your train. 508 00:32:00,647 --> 00:32:01,897 All right. 509 00:32:02,564 --> 00:32:03,772 -Run. -Goodbye. 510 00:32:03,939 --> 00:32:06,772 -l'll be there. -Thank you. 511 00:32:35,105 --> 00:32:39,147 l stood there and watched his train draw out of the station. 512 00:32:40,522 --> 00:32:42,230 l stared after it... 513 00:32:42,605 --> 00:32:45,397 until its tail light had vanished into the darkness. 514 00:32:48,605 --> 00:32:50,814 l imagined him getting out at Churley... 515 00:32:51,605 --> 00:32:55,647 giving up his ticket, walking back through the streets... 516 00:32:56,564 --> 00:32:59,105 letting himself in his house with his latchkey. 517 00:33:00,522 --> 00:33:03,147 His wife, Madeleine... 518 00:33:04,272 --> 00:33:06,480 would probably be in the hall to meet him. 519 00:33:08,064 --> 00:33:11,647 Or perhaps upstairs, not feeling very well. 520 00:33:12,355 --> 00:33:14,897 ''Small, dark and rather delicate. '' 521 00:33:16,314 --> 00:33:18,230 l wondered if he'd say: 522 00:33:18,980 --> 00:33:21,064 ''l met such a nice woman at the Kardomah... 523 00:33:21,772 --> 00:33:23,814 We had lunch and went to the pictures. '' 524 00:33:26,355 --> 00:33:30,980 But suddenly l knew he wouldn't. l knew he wouldn't say a word. 525 00:33:31,147 --> 00:33:34,605 Then the first awful feeling of danger swept over me. 526 00:33:43,563 --> 00:33:47,063 l got in the first compartment l saw, l wanted to get home quickly. 527 00:33:48,897 --> 00:33:51,938 l looked around to see if anyone was looking at me. 528 00:33:52,522 --> 00:33:54,772 As if they could read my thoughts. 529 00:33:55,355 --> 00:33:58,438 No one was, except a clergyman. 530 00:33:59,105 --> 00:34:03,855 l felt myself blushing and opened my book and pretended to read. 531 00:34:06,438 --> 00:34:10,022 When l got to Ketchworth, l'd decided l wouldn't see Alec anymore. 532 00:34:10,188 --> 00:34:14,480 -Good evening Mrs. Jesson. -lt was silly, flirting with a stranger. 533 00:34:16,022 --> 00:34:17,313 Good evening. 534 00:34:17,480 --> 00:34:19,897 l walked home briskly and cheertully. 535 00:34:20,230 --> 00:34:23,230 l'd been behaving like an idiot, but no harm had been done. 536 00:34:26,230 --> 00:34:27,772 You met me in the hall. 537 00:34:28,022 --> 00:34:32,313 You looked worried. My heart sank. Fred, what's the matter? 538 00:34:32,480 --> 00:34:34,897 lt's all right, keep calm and don't get upset. 539 00:34:35,063 --> 00:34:38,397 -What's wrong? -Bobbie's been knocked down. 540 00:34:38,563 --> 00:34:41,147 lt's not serious. He was knocked against the curb... 541 00:34:41,313 --> 00:34:45,063 and he's got a slight concussion. The doctor's with him now. 542 00:34:51,855 --> 00:34:54,188 lt's all right. Don't worry. 543 00:34:54,355 --> 00:34:57,105 He'll be as right as rain in a few hours. 544 00:34:58,230 --> 00:35:00,688 You're sure it's not serious? 545 00:35:00,855 --> 00:35:04,438 Quite sure. lt was a lucky escape. 546 00:35:04,605 --> 00:35:06,147 l've given him a sedative. 547 00:35:06,313 --> 00:35:08,980 Keep him at home a couple of days. 548 00:35:09,147 --> 00:35:10,938 lt must have been a shock... 549 00:35:11,230 --> 00:35:14,647 l felt dreadful, looking at him with that bandage on his head. 550 00:35:15,230 --> 00:35:17,938 l tried not to show it but l was quite hysterical. 551 00:35:18,438 --> 00:35:20,605 As if it were my fault... 552 00:35:20,772 --> 00:35:22,563 a sort of punishment... 553 00:35:22,855 --> 00:35:24,938 an awful, sinister warning. 554 00:35:26,480 --> 00:35:29,355 An hour or two later, everything was normal again. 555 00:35:29,730 --> 00:35:31,605 He began to enjoy the whole thing... 556 00:35:31,772 --> 00:35:34,272 and revelled in being the centre of attraction. 557 00:35:34,438 --> 00:35:36,105 Oh good. 558 00:35:36,605 --> 00:35:39,522 Remember how we spent the evening planning his future? 559 00:35:41,022 --> 00:35:43,105 He's much too young to decide. 560 00:35:43,272 --> 00:35:45,063 Good life. He's a feeling for it. 561 00:35:45,230 --> 00:35:47,938 How can we know? 562 00:35:48,230 --> 00:35:50,230 He'll want to be an engine driver next week. 563 00:35:50,397 --> 00:35:52,938 No, that was last week. 564 00:35:53,397 --> 00:35:56,688 lt's so final, entering a child for the Navy. 565 00:35:57,105 --> 00:36:00,772 -lt's a healthy life. -l know it's a good, healthy life... 566 00:36:01,230 --> 00:36:03,813 He'll see the world, have a wife in every port... 567 00:36:03,980 --> 00:36:06,730 and call everybody ''sir'', but what about us? 568 00:36:06,938 --> 00:36:08,438 What do you mean? 569 00:36:08,605 --> 00:36:10,855 -We'll hardly see him. -Nonsense. 570 00:36:11,022 --> 00:36:15,480 lt isn't nonsense. He'll be sent away a smooth-faced boy... 571 00:36:15,647 --> 00:36:18,772 and the next thing we know he'll walk in with a beard and a parrot. 572 00:36:19,480 --> 00:36:22,397 You've rather a Victorian view of the Navy. 573 00:36:23,105 --> 00:36:25,855 He's our only son and l'd like to be there while he's growing up. 574 00:36:26,397 --> 00:36:31,147 We'll put him in an office and you can put him on the 8:50 each morning. 575 00:36:31,897 --> 00:36:34,563 You are annoying. You know l'd hate that. 576 00:36:34,730 --> 00:36:36,730 All right, have it your own way. 577 00:36:40,647 --> 00:36:41,772 Fred... 578 00:36:44,563 --> 00:36:46,772 l had lunch with a man and we went to the movies. 579 00:36:46,938 --> 00:36:48,355 Good for you. 580 00:36:49,272 --> 00:36:51,355 He's awfully nice. He's a doctor. 581 00:36:52,105 --> 00:36:54,688 A very noble profession. 582 00:36:56,272 --> 00:36:57,522 Dear. 583 00:36:58,563 --> 00:37:01,772 lt was Richard the Third who said: ''My kingdom for a horse'', wasn't it? 584 00:37:01,938 --> 00:37:03,188 Yes. 585 00:37:03,605 --> 00:37:06,272 l wish he hadn't. lt spoils everything. 586 00:37:07,730 --> 00:37:10,147 We could ask him to dinner. 587 00:37:10,480 --> 00:37:11,813 By all means. 588 00:37:13,480 --> 00:37:14,646 Who? 589 00:37:15,646 --> 00:37:18,105 Doctor Harvey. The one l was telling you about. 590 00:37:18,646 --> 00:37:21,063 -Must it be dinner? -You're never at home for lunch. 591 00:37:21,230 --> 00:37:22,563 Exactly. 592 00:37:24,063 --> 00:37:25,438 Oh Fred. 593 00:37:27,563 --> 00:37:29,355 Now what on earth's the matter? 594 00:37:30,896 --> 00:37:34,396 Nothing. lt's only... Oh Fred... 595 00:37:34,563 --> 00:37:36,813 l really don't see what's so funny. 596 00:37:36,980 --> 00:37:40,563 l do... l'm not laughing at you, l'm laughing at me. 597 00:37:41,730 --> 00:37:43,855 l'm the funny one. l'm an absolute idiot. 598 00:37:44,021 --> 00:37:46,688 Worrying about things that don't exist... 599 00:37:46,855 --> 00:37:49,063 and making mountains out of molehills. 600 00:37:49,521 --> 00:37:51,896 l told you it was nothing serious. 601 00:37:52,063 --> 00:37:55,646 -Nothing to get in a state about. -l see that now. l really do. 602 00:38:05,563 --> 00:38:07,980 On Thursday l went to meet Alec... 603 00:38:08,146 --> 00:38:10,938 more out of politeness than anything else. 604 00:38:11,230 --> 00:38:14,396 lt didn't seem important but l had promised. 605 00:38:16,146 --> 00:38:18,021 l managed to get the same table. 606 00:38:18,480 --> 00:38:21,355 l waited a bit but he didn't come. 607 00:38:22,396 --> 00:38:25,105 The orchestra was playing as usual. 608 00:38:25,480 --> 00:38:28,938 l looked at the cellist. She seemed so funny last week. 609 00:38:29,105 --> 00:38:31,396 Today she didn't seem funny. 610 00:38:31,771 --> 00:38:33,771 She looked pathetic. 611 00:38:35,105 --> 00:38:38,563 After lunch, l passed the hospital. 612 00:38:39,688 --> 00:38:42,438 l looked up at the windows and wondered if he were there... 613 00:38:42,938 --> 00:38:45,646 or if something awful had happened. 614 00:38:46,438 --> 00:38:50,105 l got to the station early. l hadn't enjoyed the pictures. 615 00:38:50,271 --> 00:38:53,271 lt was a noisy musical and l'm so sick of them. 616 00:38:53,438 --> 00:38:55,313 l'd come out before the end. 617 00:38:55,605 --> 00:38:57,605 As l took my tea to the table... 618 00:38:57,771 --> 00:38:59,813 l suddenly wondered if l'd made a mistake... 619 00:38:59,980 --> 00:39:02,146 if he meant me to meet him there. 620 00:39:17,855 --> 00:39:19,313 Albert Godby, how dare you! 621 00:39:19,480 --> 00:39:22,271 -l couldn't resist. -Keep your hands to yourself. 622 00:39:22,438 --> 00:39:24,980 You're blushing. You're wonderful when you're angry. 623 00:39:25,146 --> 00:39:28,063 -An avenging angel. -l'll give you avenging angel. 624 00:39:28,230 --> 00:39:29,688 Coming here, taking liberties. 625 00:39:29,855 --> 00:39:32,813 l thought after last Monday you wouldn't mind. 626 00:39:32,980 --> 00:39:36,146 Never mind last Monday. l'm on duty now. 627 00:39:36,313 --> 00:39:39,105 What if Mr Saunders was looking through the window. 628 00:39:39,271 --> 00:39:42,688 lf he's in the habit, it's about time he saw something worth looking at. 629 00:39:42,855 --> 00:39:46,855 -You ought to be ashamed! -lt's high spirits. Don't be mad. 630 00:39:47,063 --> 00:39:49,730 lndeed. Take your tea and be quiet. 631 00:39:50,105 --> 00:39:53,271 -lt's all your fault, really. -l don't know what you mean. 632 00:39:53,938 --> 00:39:55,855 l was thinking of tonight. 633 00:39:56,021 --> 00:40:00,063 lf you don't behave yourself there won't be tonight or any night. 634 00:40:00,230 --> 00:40:02,980 -Give us a kiss. -l'll do no such thing. 635 00:40:03,146 --> 00:40:04,980 -Come on, a quick one across the bar. -Albert, stop it! 636 00:40:05,146 --> 00:40:07,063 -Come on. -Let go! 637 00:40:07,230 --> 00:40:08,271 -Come on, love. -Albert. 638 00:40:08,438 --> 00:40:10,563 Now look at my Banburys, all over the floor. 639 00:40:12,438 --> 00:40:14,730 Just in time or born in the vestry. 640 00:40:14,896 --> 00:40:17,938 You shut your mouth and help Mr Godby pick up them cakes. 641 00:40:19,230 --> 00:40:21,480 Come on, what are you gaping at? 642 00:40:41,146 --> 00:40:44,021 As l left the Refreshment Room l saw a train coming in. 643 00:40:44,271 --> 00:40:47,229 His train. He wasn't on the platform. 644 00:40:47,729 --> 00:40:50,771 And l suddenly felt panic at the thought of not seeing him again. 645 00:40:58,354 --> 00:41:00,938 l'm so terribly sorry. l couldn't let you know. 646 00:41:01,104 --> 00:41:04,438 -Your train, you'll miss it. -The house surgeon had to operate. 647 00:41:11,563 --> 00:41:14,354 l was going to send a note but l thought it might embarrass you. 648 00:41:14,604 --> 00:41:16,188 Don't say any more. 649 00:41:22,604 --> 00:41:24,271 Quickly! Quickly! The whistle's gone. 650 00:41:28,021 --> 00:41:30,604 l'm so glad l'd chance to explain. l didn't think l'd see you again. 651 00:41:30,771 --> 00:41:32,646 How absurd. Quickly! Quickly! 652 00:41:35,188 --> 00:41:36,896 -Next Thursday. -Yes. Next Thursday. 653 00:41:37,063 --> 00:41:38,313 -Goodbye. -Goodbye. 654 00:41:38,479 --> 00:41:40,896 Thursday! Goodbye! 655 00:41:42,313 --> 00:41:47,229 The train for Ketchworth is about to leave from Platform 3. 656 00:41:58,271 --> 00:42:00,063 The stars can change courses... 657 00:42:00,229 --> 00:42:02,729 and the world crash around us... 658 00:42:02,896 --> 00:42:04,104 but there'll always be Donald Duck. 659 00:42:04,271 --> 00:42:08,188 l do love him, his energy, his blind frustrated rages. 660 00:42:09,438 --> 00:42:13,438 lt's the big picture now. Here we go. No more laughter, prepare for tears. 661 00:42:17,813 --> 00:42:19,604 lt was a terribly bad picture. 662 00:42:20,271 --> 00:42:23,438 We crept out before the end, rather furtively... 663 00:42:23,604 --> 00:42:25,771 as though we were committing a crime. 664 00:42:26,021 --> 00:42:28,938 The usherette looked at us with stoney contempt. 665 00:42:30,188 --> 00:42:33,604 lt was a lovely afternoon and it was a relief to be in the fresh air. 666 00:42:33,771 --> 00:42:36,063 We decided to go to the botanical gardens. 667 00:42:36,396 --> 00:42:39,354 l believe that we'd all behave differently... 668 00:42:39,521 --> 00:42:41,688 if we lived in a sunny climate. 669 00:42:42,313 --> 00:42:45,063 Not so withdrawn and shy and difficult. 670 00:42:46,396 --> 00:42:48,479 Fred, it was a lovely afternoon. 671 00:42:48,688 --> 00:42:52,354 Some boys were sailing boats. One looked like Bobbie. 672 00:42:52,521 --> 00:42:55,354 lt should've given me a pang of conscience, but it didn't. 673 00:42:55,688 --> 00:42:57,396 l was enjoying myself... 674 00:42:57,563 --> 00:42:59,604 enjoying every single minute. 675 00:42:59,771 --> 00:43:03,479 Alec said he was sick of staring at the water and he wanted to be on it. 676 00:43:05,146 --> 00:43:08,979 All the boats were covered up but we persuaded the man. 677 00:43:09,896 --> 00:43:11,813 He thought we were raving mad. 678 00:43:12,854 --> 00:43:14,521 Perhaps he was right. 679 00:43:14,854 --> 00:43:18,688 Alec rowed and l trailed my hand in the water. 680 00:43:18,938 --> 00:43:21,313 lt was cold but a lovely feeling. 681 00:43:27,229 --> 00:43:29,354 You don't row very well, do you? 682 00:43:29,729 --> 00:43:32,396 l'll be perfectly honest with you. l don't row at all. 683 00:43:32,771 --> 00:43:35,188 Unless you want to go round in circles... 684 00:43:35,354 --> 00:43:37,479 you'd better steer. 685 00:43:39,313 --> 00:43:41,104 We had such fun. 686 00:43:41,479 --> 00:43:44,063 l felt gay and happy and released. 687 00:43:45,021 --> 00:43:47,146 That's what's so shameful. 688 00:43:47,854 --> 00:43:50,229 That's what would hurt you so much if you knew... 689 00:43:50,729 --> 00:43:53,104 that l could feel so intensely... 690 00:43:53,271 --> 00:43:55,063 away from you... 691 00:43:55,396 --> 00:43:57,104 with a stranger. 692 00:43:58,688 --> 00:44:00,813 Look out. We can't get through. 693 00:44:00,979 --> 00:44:02,521 Pull on your left. 694 00:44:08,396 --> 00:44:10,521 l never could tell left from right. 695 00:44:10,687 --> 00:44:12,562 l'm most awfully sorry. 696 00:44:35,979 --> 00:44:38,312 The British are always nice to mad people. 697 00:44:38,771 --> 00:44:41,979 The boatman thinks we're dotty, but look how sweet he's been. 698 00:44:42,854 --> 00:44:45,771 Tea, milk, even sugar. 699 00:44:51,562 --> 00:44:52,937 Thank you. 700 00:45:06,521 --> 00:45:08,271 You know what's happened, don't you? 701 00:45:11,146 --> 00:45:12,354 Yes. 702 00:45:13,396 --> 00:45:14,771 Yes, l do. 703 00:45:16,062 --> 00:45:18,312 l've fallen in love with you. 704 00:45:20,604 --> 00:45:21,937 Yes, l know. 705 00:45:25,937 --> 00:45:29,312 Tell me honestly. Please, tell me honestly, if what l believe is true. 706 00:45:31,687 --> 00:45:34,146 -What do you believe? -That it's the same for you. 707 00:45:34,604 --> 00:45:36,437 That you've fallen in love, too. 708 00:45:38,771 --> 00:45:40,562 -lt sounds so silly. -Why? 709 00:45:40,729 --> 00:45:43,604 -l know you so little. -lt is true, though, isn't it? 710 00:45:46,271 --> 00:45:47,854 -lt's true. -Laura... 711 00:45:48,021 --> 00:45:51,229 No, please. We must be sensible. 712 00:45:51,479 --> 00:45:52,979 We mustn't behave like this. 713 00:45:53,396 --> 00:45:55,104 We must forget what we've said. 714 00:45:55,271 --> 00:45:57,896 -Not yet. -But we must. 715 00:46:00,062 --> 00:46:01,396 Listen. 716 00:46:01,812 --> 00:46:04,437 lt's too late to be sensible... 717 00:46:05,062 --> 00:46:06,812 Too late to forget what we said. 718 00:46:07,229 --> 00:46:09,271 Whether we said it or not doesn't matter. 719 00:46:10,146 --> 00:46:12,854 We know. We've known for a long time. 720 00:46:13,937 --> 00:46:17,812 How can you say that? l've only known you 4 weeks. 721 00:46:18,521 --> 00:46:21,146 We only talked for the first time last Thursday week. 722 00:46:21,479 --> 00:46:25,979 Last Thursday week. Has it been a long time since then? 723 00:46:26,146 --> 00:46:28,021 Answer me truly. 724 00:46:28,521 --> 00:46:29,687 Yes. 725 00:46:29,979 --> 00:46:32,521 How often did you decide you were never going to see me again? 726 00:46:33,729 --> 00:46:35,896 -Several times a day. -So did l. 727 00:46:36,062 --> 00:46:37,604 -Oh Alec. -l love you. 728 00:46:38,021 --> 00:46:39,729 l love your wide eyes... 729 00:46:40,312 --> 00:46:42,104 and the way you smile... 730 00:46:42,604 --> 00:46:44,146 and your shyness... 731 00:46:45,062 --> 00:46:47,021 -the way you laugh at my jokes. -Please don't. 732 00:46:47,187 --> 00:46:49,271 l love you. l love you. 733 00:46:50,062 --> 00:46:52,937 You love me too. We can't pretend it hasn't happened. lt has. 734 00:46:53,854 --> 00:46:55,604 Yes, it has. 735 00:46:55,771 --> 00:46:58,354 l don't want to pretend to you or anyone. 736 00:46:59,062 --> 00:47:00,854 But from now l have to. 737 00:47:01,021 --> 00:47:04,187 That's what's wrong, you see. lt spoils everything. 738 00:47:04,562 --> 00:47:07,062 That's why we must stop here and now talking like this. 739 00:47:08,104 --> 00:47:10,854 Neither of us are free to love, there's too much in the way. 740 00:47:12,437 --> 00:47:14,521 There's still time. 741 00:47:14,896 --> 00:47:18,437 lf we control ourselves and behave like sensible human beings... 742 00:47:19,937 --> 00:47:21,812 there's still time. 743 00:47:24,396 --> 00:47:26,312 There's no time at all. 744 00:47:29,687 --> 00:47:31,812 -There's your train. -Yes. 745 00:47:33,146 --> 00:47:35,479 l'll come to the platform with you. 746 00:47:56,312 --> 00:47:58,687 No, Alec, not here. Someone will see. 747 00:47:59,187 --> 00:48:00,854 l love you so. 748 00:48:13,479 --> 00:48:15,645 Could we turn that down a bit, darling? 749 00:48:16,937 --> 00:48:18,437 Laura! 750 00:48:20,354 --> 00:48:23,937 -Yes, dear? -You were miles away. 751 00:48:24,979 --> 00:48:26,645 Was l? 752 00:48:26,812 --> 00:48:29,729 Why not turn it down? lt really is deafening. 753 00:48:29,895 --> 00:48:31,104 Of course. 754 00:48:40,187 --> 00:48:43,062 l shan't be long. Then we'll go to bed. 755 00:48:43,562 --> 00:48:45,229 You look a bit tired. 756 00:48:45,604 --> 00:48:47,395 Don't hurry. l'm perfectly happy. 757 00:48:56,437 --> 00:49:01,229 How can l say that, ''Don't hurry. l'm pertectly happy''? 758 00:49:02,937 --> 00:49:04,437 lf only it were true! 759 00:49:05,312 --> 00:49:08,145 Not that anyone is ever pertectly happy really... 760 00:49:08,895 --> 00:49:12,312 but to be contented, to be at peace. 761 00:49:14,145 --> 00:49:18,729 lt's a little while ago but it seems like ages since that train left. 762 00:49:20,020 --> 00:49:22,312 Taking him away into the darkness. 763 00:49:23,187 --> 00:49:24,687 l was happy then. 764 00:49:25,312 --> 00:49:28,895 As l went back through the subway, l was walking on air. 765 00:49:29,895 --> 00:49:33,562 When l got into the train. l didn't even pretend to read. 766 00:49:33,854 --> 00:49:36,812 l didn't care if people were looking. l had to think. 767 00:49:37,645 --> 00:49:41,020 l should've been wretched and ashamed. But l wasn't. 768 00:49:41,520 --> 00:49:43,937 l felt suddenly wildly happy... 769 00:49:44,479 --> 00:49:47,770 like a romantic schoolgirl, like a romantic fool. 770 00:49:48,770 --> 00:49:51,979 He said he loved me... 771 00:49:52,520 --> 00:49:56,979 and l said l loved him. And it was true. lt was true. 772 00:49:58,395 --> 00:50:01,062 l imagined being in his arms... 773 00:50:01,354 --> 00:50:04,604 being with him in glamourous circumstances. 774 00:50:04,770 --> 00:50:10,729 lt was an absurd schoolgirl fantasy, being wooed by one's dream man. 775 00:50:16,270 --> 00:50:19,104 l stared out of the window into the dark... 776 00:50:19,854 --> 00:50:23,104 and watched the dim trees and telegraph posts slip by... 777 00:50:24,020 --> 00:50:26,062 and through them l saw Alec and me. 778 00:50:28,562 --> 00:50:30,354 Alec and me. 779 00:50:30,687 --> 00:50:33,812 Perhaps a little younger, but just as much in love. 780 00:50:34,270 --> 00:50:36,187 And with nothing in the way. 781 00:50:41,187 --> 00:50:44,187 l saw us in Paris, in a box at the opera. 782 00:50:44,895 --> 00:50:46,854 The orchestra was tuning up. 783 00:50:51,479 --> 00:50:58,062 Then we were in Venice, in a gondola, with sound of mandolins. 784 00:50:58,979 --> 00:51:04,062 l saw us travelling far away. All the places l've always longed to go. 785 00:51:06,520 --> 00:51:10,228 l saw us on a ship looking at the sea and the stars... 786 00:51:12,478 --> 00:51:16,687 standing on a tropical beach in the moonlight, with palm tress sighing. 787 00:51:18,270 --> 00:51:23,103 Then the palm trees changed into those willows by the canal. 788 00:51:24,395 --> 00:51:26,770 All the silly dreams disappeared. 789 00:51:27,562 --> 00:51:30,728 l got out at Ketchworth and gave up my ticket... 790 00:51:31,478 --> 00:51:37,478 and walked home as usual, soberly, and without any wings at all. 791 00:51:38,437 --> 00:51:41,437 When l was getting ready for dinner, do you remember? 792 00:51:41,603 --> 00:51:43,478 You won't but l do. 793 00:51:44,312 --> 00:51:48,145 That was the first time l'd ever lied to you. 794 00:51:49,103 --> 00:51:55,853 lt started then, the shame of the whole thing, the guilt, the fear. 795 00:51:57,270 --> 00:52:00,062 -Good evening Mrs. Jesson. -Hello, dear. 796 00:52:01,395 --> 00:52:03,353 -Had a good day? -Yes, lovely. 797 00:52:04,937 --> 00:52:06,187 What did you do? 798 00:52:06,353 --> 00:52:09,020 l shopped and had lunch and went to the pictures. 799 00:52:09,187 --> 00:52:11,103 -All by yourself? -Yes... 800 00:52:11,687 --> 00:52:15,187 -No, not exactly. -What do you mean, not exactly. 801 00:52:16,228 --> 00:52:20,145 l went to the pictures by myself but l had lunch with Mary Norton. 802 00:52:20,437 --> 00:52:24,853 She couldn't come to the film. She had to see her in-laws just near Milford. 803 00:52:25,520 --> 00:52:28,103 l walked her to the bus and came home on my own. 804 00:52:28,270 --> 00:52:30,770 l haven't seen Mary Norton for ages. How's she looking? 805 00:52:31,020 --> 00:52:33,103 Very well. A little fatter. 806 00:52:33,395 --> 00:52:35,978 Hurry up with all this beautifying. l want my dinner. 807 00:52:36,395 --> 00:52:38,520 You go down. l won't be five minutes. 808 00:53:01,978 --> 00:53:04,270 Ketchworth 37, please. 809 00:53:13,187 --> 00:53:17,270 Hello. ls Mrs. Norton there, please? Yes. l'll hold on. 810 00:53:19,853 --> 00:53:22,103 -Hello. -Hello is that you. Mary? 811 00:53:22,270 --> 00:53:25,728 Laura! Fancy hearing from you. l thought you were dead. 812 00:53:26,812 --> 00:53:28,853 No, l haven't seen you for ages. 813 00:53:29,020 --> 00:53:33,728 Will you be a saint and back me up in the most appalling domestic lie? 814 00:53:33,895 --> 00:53:37,145 -As bad as all that? -My life depends on it. 815 00:53:37,562 --> 00:53:40,645 Today l went to Milford to do my shopping... 816 00:53:41,270 --> 00:53:44,687 with the intention of buying an expensive present for Fred. 817 00:53:45,478 --> 00:53:47,562 Robson's hadn't got what l wanted... 818 00:53:47,728 --> 00:53:51,145 one of those clocks with barometers and everything in one. 819 00:53:51,312 --> 00:53:56,228 But they had one at the Broadham branch so l went to get it. 820 00:53:56,645 --> 00:54:00,687 -Go on. -This is were the black lie comes in. 821 00:54:01,687 --> 00:54:06,645 Fred asked me about my day and l said you and l had lunch together.. 822 00:54:06,812 --> 00:54:09,687 then you'd gone to your in-laws' and l'd gone to the pictures. 823 00:54:09,853 --> 00:54:11,728 lf you run into him, don't let me down, will you? 824 00:54:11,895 --> 00:54:15,853 -But darling, of course not. -l'll do as much for you l promise. 825 00:54:16,020 --> 00:54:19,395 -Well let's really lunch one day. -Yes, that'd be lovely. 826 00:54:19,562 --> 00:54:24,145 -What about next Thursday? -No l can't. That's my Milford day. 827 00:54:24,312 --> 00:54:27,395 -What about Friday? -Fine better make it here. 828 00:54:27,562 --> 00:54:30,853 -All right, perfect. -You know what my cook's like? 829 00:54:31,145 --> 00:54:34,478 -lt'll have to be early. -Yes, all right. 830 00:54:34,645 --> 00:54:36,187 -Goodbye. -Goodbye. 831 00:54:50,811 --> 00:54:52,311 That week was misery. 832 00:54:54,478 --> 00:54:57,103 l was in a sort of trance. 833 00:54:59,145 --> 00:55:02,770 How odd you didn't notice you were living with a stranger in the house. 834 00:55:05,728 --> 00:55:07,561 Thursday came at last. 835 00:55:08,186 --> 00:55:10,978 l'd arranged to meet Alec outside the hospital at 1 2:30. 836 00:55:18,645 --> 00:55:20,520 -Hello. -Hello. 837 00:55:20,895 --> 00:55:24,520 l thought you wouldn't come. l've been thinking all week you wouldn't. 838 00:55:25,228 --> 00:55:27,853 l didn't mean to really, but here l am. 839 00:55:34,061 --> 00:55:36,978 l hadn't been in the Royal since Violet's wedding reception. 840 00:55:37,395 --> 00:55:39,145 lt all seemed very grand. 841 00:55:39,561 --> 00:55:44,561 He ordered a bottle of champagne and said we were only middle-aged once! 842 00:55:44,728 --> 00:55:47,728 We were very gay during lunch and talked about quite ordinary things. 843 00:55:47,936 --> 00:55:51,978 He was charming. You'd have liked him if things had been different. 844 00:55:52,936 --> 00:55:55,270 As we were going out he said he had a surprise for me... 845 00:55:55,436 --> 00:55:58,686 and that if l'd wait in the lounge he'd show me what it was. 846 00:55:59,020 --> 00:56:04,020 He ran down the steps like an excited schoolboy, not a respectable doctor. 847 00:56:06,186 --> 00:56:09,645 Suddenly out of the dining room came Mary Norton and her rich cousin. 848 00:56:10,436 --> 00:56:14,186 They must've seen Alec and me, the champagne and everything. 849 00:56:15,478 --> 00:56:18,020 Laura! lt was you after all. 850 00:56:18,186 --> 00:56:19,353 Hermione said it was... 851 00:56:19,520 --> 00:56:23,228 l'm so short-sighted. l peered but couldn't be sure. 852 00:56:23,395 --> 00:56:26,436 l never saw you at all. How awful. l expect it was the champagne. 853 00:56:26,728 --> 00:56:29,978 l'm not used to champagne for lunch or dinner... 854 00:56:30,145 --> 00:56:32,978 -but Alec insisted. -Alec? Alec who, dear? 855 00:56:33,228 --> 00:56:36,936 Alec Harvey, of course. You remember the Harveys. l've known them years. 856 00:56:37,103 --> 00:56:39,770 -No l don't think... -He'll be back. 857 00:56:39,936 --> 00:56:41,936 You'll recognise him when you peer closely. 858 00:56:42,145 --> 00:56:45,478 -He looks charming, very attentive. -He's a dear. 859 00:56:45,645 --> 00:56:48,020 One of the nicest people in the world and a wonderful doctor. 860 00:56:50,936 --> 00:56:54,478 -Alec, do you remember Mrs. Norton? -l'm afraid l don't. 861 00:56:54,645 --> 00:56:59,103 lt's no use Laura. We've never seen each other before. l'm sure. 862 00:56:59,270 --> 00:57:03,520 How absurd. l'm sure he and Madeleine were at that dinner before Christmas. 863 00:57:04,228 --> 00:57:06,770 -Alec, this is Mrs. Rolandson. -How do you do? 864 00:57:06,936 --> 00:57:08,436 -Horrid weather, isn't it? -Yes. 865 00:57:08,603 --> 00:57:11,520 Of course, one can't expect spring at this time of the year. 866 00:57:15,145 --> 00:57:19,936 We must be going. l'm taking Harmione to see the in-laws, as moral support. 867 00:57:20,103 --> 00:57:21,603 -Goodbye, Doctor Harvey. -Goodbye. 868 00:57:21,770 --> 00:57:25,353 Goodbye, my dear. l do envy you your champagne. 869 00:57:25,853 --> 00:57:27,520 -Goodbye. -Goodbye. 870 00:57:32,811 --> 00:57:34,936 -That was awful. -Never mind. 871 00:57:35,103 --> 00:57:37,353 They'd watched us all through lunch. 872 00:57:37,645 --> 00:57:40,395 Forget it. Come out and look at the surprise. 873 00:57:41,561 --> 00:57:44,186 At the foot of the steps was a litle two-seater car. 874 00:57:44,770 --> 00:57:47,436 Alec had borrowed it from Stephen Lynn for the afternoon. 875 00:57:48,145 --> 00:57:50,936 l tried hard to look pleased but it wasn't any good. 876 00:57:51,561 --> 00:57:54,811 l kept thinking of those two laughing and talking... 877 00:57:55,603 --> 00:57:58,603 Laughing and talking. l couldn't get them out of my mind. 878 00:58:00,228 --> 00:58:03,770 When we were out in the country, a few miles beyond Brayfield... 879 00:58:04,311 --> 00:58:06,811 we stopped the car outside a village and got out. 880 00:58:07,561 --> 00:58:09,478 There was a bridge and a stream. 881 00:58:09,894 --> 00:58:13,269 The sun was making an effort to come out but not succeeding. 882 00:58:14,186 --> 00:58:17,561 We leaned on the parapet and looked down into the water. 883 00:58:17,978 --> 00:58:20,228 l shivered and Alec put his asm around me. 884 00:58:20,644 --> 00:58:23,144 -Cold? -No, not really. 885 00:58:23,394 --> 00:58:24,894 Happy? 886 00:58:27,936 --> 00:58:29,561 No, not really. 887 00:58:31,103 --> 00:58:33,561 l know exactly what you're going to say. 888 00:58:34,228 --> 00:58:35,853 That it isn't worth it... 889 00:58:36,853 --> 00:58:41,478 the lying outweighs the happiness we might have together. 890 00:58:41,811 --> 00:58:43,103 lsn't that it? 891 00:58:44,269 --> 00:58:45,894 Something like that. 892 00:58:49,644 --> 00:58:52,811 l want to ask you something, just to reassure myself. 893 00:58:53,228 --> 00:58:54,478 What? 894 00:58:55,811 --> 00:58:57,644 lt is true for you isn't it? 895 00:58:58,228 --> 00:59:02,228 This overwhelming feeling. ls a true for you as it is for me? 896 00:59:03,853 --> 00:59:05,269 lt's true. 897 00:59:12,228 --> 00:59:14,728 We must have stayed on that bridge for a long time... 898 00:59:15,936 --> 00:59:19,186 because when we got back to Stephen Lynn's it was getting dark. 899 00:59:21,019 --> 00:59:23,728 l felt as if l was on the edge of a precipice. 900 00:59:24,186 --> 00:59:25,978 l think Alec felt that, too. 901 00:59:26,436 --> 00:59:29,269 We both knew how desperately we loved each other. 902 00:59:32,394 --> 00:59:35,394 Alec had to leave the keys in Stephen Lynn's flat... 903 00:59:35,603 --> 00:59:37,436 and suggested l came up with him. 904 00:59:37,728 --> 00:59:39,769 l refused rather too vehemently. 905 00:59:40,103 --> 00:59:43,811 Alec reminded me that Stephen wasn't coming back till late, but l refused. 906 00:59:54,061 --> 00:59:56,644 l'm going back. l'm going to miss my train. 907 00:59:57,728 --> 00:59:59,644 -Back where? -To Stephen's flat. 908 01:00:00,686 --> 01:00:02,019 Oh Alec. 909 01:00:16,811 --> 01:00:20,353 l must go home, l really must go. 910 01:00:42,019 --> 01:00:43,603 A cup of tea please. 911 01:00:53,019 --> 01:00:55,478 -Good afternoon. -Afternoon lady. 912 01:00:55,644 --> 01:00:58,269 -Couple of whiskies please. -Very sorry. lt's out of hours. 913 01:00:58,436 --> 01:01:01,478 Sneak us a couple under them old sandwiches. 914 01:01:01,644 --> 01:01:04,228 Them sandwiches are fresh and l'll do no such thing. 915 01:01:04,394 --> 01:01:05,894 Come on, be a sport. 916 01:01:06,103 --> 01:01:08,353 You can have as much as you want after 6 o'clock. 917 01:01:08,519 --> 01:01:11,103 My throat's like a parrot cage. Listen. 918 01:01:12,394 --> 01:01:16,769 My license doesn't permit me to serve alcohol out of hours. That's final! 919 01:01:16,936 --> 01:01:18,686 You wouldn't want to get me into trouble, would you? 920 01:01:18,853 --> 01:01:22,478 Just give us the chance. That's all we ask. 921 01:01:25,228 --> 01:01:26,353 Beryl! 922 01:01:27,603 --> 01:01:31,353 Ask Mr. Godby to come for a moment will you? 923 01:01:31,519 --> 01:01:33,769 -Who's he when he's at home? -You'll soon see... 924 01:01:33,936 --> 01:01:36,686 -Come in here, cheeking me... -Come of it, mother, be a pal. 925 01:01:36,853 --> 01:01:38,769 You saucy upstart. 926 01:01:38,936 --> 01:01:43,186 -Who are you calling an upstart? -You. Get out of here double quick... 927 01:01:43,352 --> 01:01:45,727 disturbing the customers and making a nuisance of yourselves. 928 01:01:45,977 --> 01:01:49,061 -Where's the fire? Where's the fire? -What's going on in here? 929 01:01:49,227 --> 01:01:51,394 Mr. Godby, these gentlemen are annoying me. 930 01:01:51,561 --> 01:01:55,477 -We haven't done nothing, have we? -Just asked for a couple of drinks. 931 01:01:56,061 --> 01:01:59,644 -They insulted me, Mr. Godby. -We never did anything of the kind. 932 01:01:59,894 --> 01:02:02,019 -Just having a little joke. -Hop it. Both of you. 933 01:02:02,186 --> 01:02:05,436 -We've got a right to stay here. -You heard what l said. Hop it. 934 01:02:05,602 --> 01:02:08,227 ls this a free country or a Sunday school? 935 01:02:08,394 --> 01:02:11,811 l checked your warrant. Your train's in 1 minute, platform 2. Hop it! 936 01:02:11,977 --> 01:02:14,644 -Now, look here. -Come on Johnnie. 937 01:02:14,811 --> 01:02:18,186 -Don't argue with the poor basket. -Hop it. 938 01:02:22,852 --> 01:02:24,061 Cheerio Mother. 939 01:02:25,852 --> 01:02:28,936 And if them sandwiches are fresh, you're Shirley Temple. 940 01:02:31,686 --> 01:02:34,811 -Thank you, Albert. -What a nerve, talking like that. 941 01:02:34,977 --> 01:02:38,811 Be quiet, Beryl. Poor me out a nip of three star. l'm quite upset. 942 01:02:38,977 --> 01:02:42,852 -l'll get back to the gate. -l'll be seeing you later, Albert. 943 01:02:43,019 --> 01:02:44,269 Okay! 944 01:02:50,102 --> 01:02:56,061 The train now arriving at Platform 3 is the 5:43 for Ketchworth. 945 01:03:00,019 --> 01:03:03,144 -l really must go. -l'm going back to the flat. 946 01:03:03,644 --> 01:03:06,352 l must go home. l really must go home. 947 01:03:06,519 --> 01:03:08,477 l'm going back to the flat. 948 01:03:11,311 --> 01:03:12,811 l'm going home. 949 01:03:36,602 --> 01:03:38,227 Excuse me, l've forgotten something. 950 01:04:44,311 --> 01:04:45,644 Darling! 951 01:04:52,727 --> 01:04:54,186 lt's raining. 952 01:04:55,394 --> 01:04:57,769 lt started just as l turned out of High street. 953 01:04:57,936 --> 01:05:00,269 You had no umbrella and your coat's wet. 954 01:05:00,727 --> 01:05:03,061 You mustn't catch cold. That would never do. 955 01:05:07,352 --> 01:05:09,185 l look an absolute fright. 956 01:05:09,394 --> 01:05:11,685 -Let me put that down. -Thank you. 957 01:05:14,852 --> 01:05:17,269 l hope the fire will perk up. 958 01:05:18,435 --> 01:05:22,019 -l expect the wood was damp. -Yes, l expect it was. 959 01:05:24,894 --> 01:05:26,352 Do sit down, darling. 960 01:05:33,102 --> 01:05:35,852 l got into the train and got out again. Wasn't it idiotic? 961 01:05:36,477 --> 01:05:38,394 We're both very foolish. 962 01:05:44,352 --> 01:05:48,935 -Alec, l can't stay. Really. -Just a little while, a little while. 963 01:05:52,144 --> 01:05:53,519 Quickly. Quickly. l must go. 964 01:05:53,685 --> 01:05:56,810 Here, through the kitchen. There's a tradesman's staircase. 965 01:06:06,977 --> 01:06:09,352 -ls that you, Alec? -Yes. 966 01:06:13,560 --> 01:06:15,644 -You're back early. -Yes, l felt a cold coming on... 967 01:06:15,810 --> 01:06:17,810 so l denied myself the pleasure... 968 01:06:17,977 --> 01:06:21,602 of dining with Roger Hinchly and decided to come back. 969 01:06:22,269 --> 01:06:24,685 lnflamed membranes are unsympathetic to a dialectic... 970 01:06:25,227 --> 01:06:29,560 -What will you do about food? -l can ring down to the restaurant. 971 01:06:30,102 --> 01:06:32,477 We live in a modern age and this is a service flat. 972 01:06:32,644 --> 01:06:36,769 -Yes, of course. -lt caters for all tastes. 973 01:06:42,810 --> 01:06:45,644 You've hidden depths l never suspected. 974 01:06:45,810 --> 01:06:49,144 -Look here, Stephen, l... -No explanations or apologies. 975 01:06:49,477 --> 01:06:52,852 l should apologise for returning so inopportunely. 976 01:06:53,185 --> 01:06:56,310 lt's quite obvious you were interviewing a patient privately. 977 01:06:56,769 --> 01:07:01,310 Woman are frequently rather neurotic creatures. Hospitals upset them. 978 01:07:01,727 --> 01:07:05,810 From the undignified scuffling l heard... 979 01:07:05,977 --> 01:07:08,935 l gather she beat a hasty retreat down the backstairs. 980 01:07:09,144 --> 01:07:12,685 l'm surprised at the farcical streak in your nature, Alec. 981 01:07:12,852 --> 01:07:16,685 Such carryings on are unnecessary. We've been friends for years... 982 01:07:16,935 --> 01:07:19,060 and l'm the most broad-minded of men. 983 01:07:19,394 --> 01:07:25,310 l'm really sorry. l'm sure that the situation must seem vulgar to you. 984 01:07:25,894 --> 01:07:27,769 Actually it isn't in the least. 985 01:07:28,019 --> 01:07:31,935 You're right. Explanations are unnecessary between old friends. 986 01:07:32,519 --> 01:07:34,560 l must go now. l'll collect my coat. Goodbye. 987 01:07:34,727 --> 01:07:40,352 Could you give me my latchkey? l only have 2 and l'm afraid of losing them. 988 01:07:43,144 --> 01:07:47,269 -You're very angry, aren't you? -No. Not angry. Just disappointed. 989 01:08:12,935 --> 01:08:15,227 l ran until l couldn't any longer. 990 01:08:15,560 --> 01:08:20,185 l leant against a lamp post to get my breath in a side road... 991 01:08:20,352 --> 01:08:23,602 l knew it was stupid to run but l couldn't help myself. 992 01:08:24,310 --> 01:08:29,102 l felt humiliated and defeated and so dreadfully ashamed. 993 01:08:31,519 --> 01:08:34,060 After a moment or two l pulled myself together... 994 01:08:35,269 --> 01:08:37,685 and walked towards the station. 995 01:08:38,060 --> 01:08:40,310 lt was still raining but not very much. 996 01:08:40,768 --> 01:08:43,102 l realised that l couldn't go home. 997 01:08:43,268 --> 01:08:46,810 Not until l regained control and had time to think. 998 01:08:46,977 --> 01:08:49,393 Then l thought of you waiting and dinner being spoilt. 999 01:08:49,560 --> 01:08:53,185 So l went found a tobacconist and telephoned you. 1000 01:08:54,685 --> 01:08:56,227 Do you remember? 1001 01:09:20,518 --> 01:09:24,018 Hello Fred, is that you? Yes. lt's me, Laura. 1002 01:09:25,310 --> 01:09:28,268 Yes, everything's all right, but l shan't be home to dinner. 1003 01:09:29,185 --> 01:09:30,893 l'm with Miss Lewis. 1004 01:09:31,060 --> 01:09:34,477 Miss Lewis, the librarian l've told you about at Boots. 1005 01:09:35,185 --> 01:09:38,893 l can't explain because she's outside the box now. 1006 01:09:39,602 --> 01:09:43,268 l met her a little while ago in a terrible state. 1007 01:09:43,685 --> 01:09:47,310 Her mother's ill and l've promised to stay until the doctor comes. 1008 01:09:49,018 --> 01:09:52,852 Yes, but she's always been kind to me and l feel so sorry for her. 1009 01:09:53,935 --> 01:09:56,685 No, l'll get a sandwich. Ask Ethel to leave me some soup... 1010 01:09:56,852 --> 01:09:58,727 in a saucepan in the kitchen. 1011 01:10:00,185 --> 01:10:02,102 Yes, of course, as soon as l can. 1012 01:10:03,560 --> 01:10:05,102 All right. Goodbye. 1013 01:10:06,518 --> 01:10:10,018 lt's awfully easy to lie, when you know you are trusted implicitly. 1014 01:10:10,435 --> 01:10:13,643 So very easy, and so very degrading. 1015 01:10:14,643 --> 01:10:16,852 l started walking without purpose. 1016 01:10:17,018 --> 01:10:19,560 l turned out of the High street almost immediately. 1017 01:10:20,060 --> 01:10:22,268 l was terrified that l might run into Alec. 1018 01:10:22,977 --> 01:10:25,852 l was sure he'd come after me. 1019 01:10:27,018 --> 01:10:30,768 l walked for a long while. Finally, l found myself at the war memorial. 1020 01:10:30,935 --> 01:10:33,102 Right at the other side of town. 1021 01:10:33,727 --> 01:10:36,727 lt had stopped raining and l felt stiflingly hot... 1022 01:10:37,477 --> 01:10:39,727 so l sat down on one of the seats. 1023 01:10:40,643 --> 01:10:42,435 There was nobody about and l lit a cigarette. 1024 01:10:42,602 --> 01:10:45,643 l know how you disapprove of women smoking in the street. 1025 01:10:45,810 --> 01:10:50,810 l do too, but l thought it might help calm my nerves. 1026 01:10:51,393 --> 01:10:54,560 l sat there for ages. l don't know how long. 1027 01:10:55,643 --> 01:10:58,602 Then l noticed a policeman. 1028 01:10:59,685 --> 01:11:02,018 He was looking at me rather suspiciously. 1029 01:11:03,268 --> 01:11:05,018 Presently he came up to me. 1030 01:11:06,268 --> 01:11:08,935 -Feeling all right, Miss? -Yes, thank you. 1031 01:11:09,768 --> 01:11:13,768 -Waiting for someone? -No, l'm not waiting for anybody. 1032 01:11:13,935 --> 01:11:17,602 Don't go and catch cold. lt's a damp night. 1033 01:11:18,060 --> 01:11:20,227 l'm going now. l've got to catch a train. 1034 01:11:20,435 --> 01:11:22,518 You sure you feel quite all right? 1035 01:11:22,685 --> 01:11:27,060 -Quite, Thank you. Good night. -Good night, Miss. 1036 01:11:28,060 --> 01:11:32,310 l walked away trying to look casual, knowing he was watching me. 1037 01:11:32,477 --> 01:11:34,268 l felt like a criminal. 1038 01:11:34,810 --> 01:11:37,602 l walked rather quickly back towards High street. 1039 01:11:38,685 --> 01:11:42,643 l got to the station fifteen minutes before the last train to Ketchworth. 1040 01:11:42,810 --> 01:11:45,893 l realised that l'd been wandering for over 3 hours.. 1041 01:11:46,352 --> 01:11:48,643 but it didn't seem any time at all. 1042 01:11:49,268 --> 01:11:51,018 Sten, you are awful! 1043 01:11:51,768 --> 01:11:53,893 -See you in the yard. -All right. 1044 01:11:57,060 --> 01:11:59,977 -l'd like a glass of brandy, please. -We're just closing. 1045 01:12:00,227 --> 01:12:02,060 Yes, l can see, but you're not quite closed. 1046 01:12:02,227 --> 01:12:04,352 -Three Star? -That'll do. 1047 01:12:09,601 --> 01:12:12,018 Have you got a piece of paper and an envelope? 1048 01:12:12,185 --> 01:12:16,018 -You'll get that at the bookstall. -The bookstall's closed. 1049 01:12:16,351 --> 01:12:19,060 Please, it's important. l'd be much obliged. 1050 01:12:19,226 --> 01:12:21,310 All right. Just a minute. 1051 01:12:38,101 --> 01:12:40,768 -Thank you very much. -We close in a few minutes. 1052 01:12:40,935 --> 01:12:42,185 Yes, l know. 1053 01:13:15,351 --> 01:13:16,851 l've been looking for you everywhere. 1054 01:13:17,018 --> 01:13:19,768 -Please go away. -l've watched every train. 1055 01:13:19,935 --> 01:13:22,810 -l can't leave you like this. -You must. lt's better, really. 1056 01:13:23,393 --> 01:13:26,601 You're being dreadfully cruel. lt was an accident he came back. 1057 01:13:27,185 --> 01:13:29,893 He doesn't know you. l suppose he laughed and you... 1058 01:13:30,435 --> 01:13:32,018 spoke of me as men of the world. 1059 01:13:32,185 --> 01:13:34,935 We didn't speak of you but of some nameless creature. 1060 01:13:35,101 --> 01:13:38,143 Why didn't you tell him? That we were cheap and low and... 1061 01:13:38,310 --> 01:13:41,226 Stop it. Pull yourself together. lt's nothing of the sort. 1062 01:13:42,185 --> 01:13:43,935 We know we love each other. 1063 01:13:44,101 --> 01:13:47,435 -That's all that matters. -lt isn't all that matters... 1064 01:13:47,601 --> 01:13:50,643 self respect matters and decency. l can't go on any longer. 1065 01:13:53,518 --> 01:13:56,643 Could you really say goodbye and never see me again? 1066 01:13:58,768 --> 01:14:00,518 Yes, if you'd help me. 1067 01:14:10,976 --> 01:14:15,185 l love you Laura. l shall love you always until the end of my life. 1068 01:14:17,768 --> 01:14:19,976 l can't look at you now because l know something. 1069 01:14:21,351 --> 01:14:23,476 This is the beginning of the end. 1070 01:14:23,643 --> 01:14:26,726 Not the end of my loving you, but the end of our being together. 1071 01:14:27,768 --> 01:14:30,185 But please, not quite yet. 1072 01:14:32,351 --> 01:14:34,226 Very well, not quite yet. 1073 01:14:35,185 --> 01:14:39,018 l know how you feel about this evening, about the sordidness of it. 1074 01:14:40,018 --> 01:14:44,101 l know about the strain of our different lives, our lives apart. 1075 01:14:45,143 --> 01:14:48,143 The feeling of guilt is too strong. 1076 01:14:49,518 --> 01:14:52,185 Too great a price to pay for the happiness we'd have together. 1077 01:14:54,560 --> 01:14:57,726 l know all this because it's the same for me, too. 1078 01:15:00,810 --> 01:15:02,726 You can look at me now. l'm all right. 1079 01:15:08,893 --> 01:15:12,351 Let's be very careful. Let's prepare ourselves. 1080 01:15:13,560 --> 01:15:17,143 A sudden break now, however admirable, would be too cruel. 1081 01:15:17,518 --> 01:15:20,560 We can't do such violence to our hearts and minds. 1082 01:15:21,518 --> 01:15:22,893 Very well. 1083 01:15:25,976 --> 01:15:28,935 -l'm going away. -l see. 1084 01:15:29,101 --> 01:15:31,518 -But not quite yet. -Please, not quite yet. 1085 01:15:34,643 --> 01:15:37,268 -That's the 1 0:1 0. lt's closing time. -ls it? 1086 01:15:37,435 --> 01:15:39,684 -l shall have to lock up. -All right. 1087 01:15:52,184 --> 01:15:55,309 -Promise me something. -What is it? 1088 01:15:55,726 --> 01:15:57,976 That however unhappy you are... 1089 01:15:58,434 --> 01:16:02,101 however much you think, you'll meet me again next Thursday. 1090 01:16:02,434 --> 01:16:05,309 -Where? -Outside the hospital. 1 2:30. 1091 01:16:06,268 --> 01:16:09,268 -All right, l promise. -l've got to talk to you, to explain. 1092 01:16:09,434 --> 01:16:11,268 -About going away? -Yes. 1093 01:16:11,476 --> 01:16:14,518 Where will you go? You can't give up your practice. 1094 01:16:15,684 --> 01:16:18,434 l've had a job offer. l wasn't going to tell you. 1095 01:16:18,726 --> 01:16:22,268 l wasn't going to take it, but it's the only way out. 1096 01:16:22,768 --> 01:16:26,101 -Where? -A long way away. Johannesburg. 1097 01:16:27,768 --> 01:16:29,101 Alec... 1098 01:16:29,434 --> 01:16:32,976 My brother's there. They're opening a new hospital. They want me. 1099 01:16:34,851 --> 01:16:38,226 lt's a fine opportunity. l'll take Madeleine and the boys. 1100 01:16:39,184 --> 01:16:42,268 lt's been torturing me, having to decide one way or another. 1101 01:16:42,809 --> 01:16:45,309 l haven't told anybody, not even Madeleine. 1102 01:16:46,351 --> 01:16:48,559 l couldn't bear the thought of leaving you... 1103 01:16:49,809 --> 01:16:52,476 but now l see, it's got to happen soon anyway. 1104 01:16:54,309 --> 01:16:55,934 lt's almost happening already. 1105 01:17:05,393 --> 01:17:06,851 When will you go? 1106 01:17:08,393 --> 01:17:11,976 Almost immediately. ln about two weeks time. 1107 01:17:13,434 --> 01:17:15,101 Quite near isn't it. 1108 01:17:15,726 --> 01:17:17,934 Do you want me to stay? Do you want me to turn down the offer? 1109 01:17:18,101 --> 01:17:19,893 Don't be foolish, Alec. 1110 01:17:20,601 --> 01:17:24,934 -l'll do whatever you say. -That's unkind of you. 1111 01:17:25,101 --> 01:17:30,143 The train for Ketchworth is now arriving at Platform 3. 1112 01:17:46,809 --> 01:17:48,768 You're not angry with me, are you? 1113 01:17:49,101 --> 01:17:53,434 No, l'm not angry. l don't think l'm anything. l just feel tired. 1114 01:17:53,768 --> 01:17:56,934 -Forgive me. -Forgive you for what? 1115 01:17:57,601 --> 01:17:59,184 For everything. 1116 01:17:59,351 --> 01:18:01,059 For meeting you... 1117 01:18:01,726 --> 01:18:03,809 for taking the grit out of your eye... 1118 01:18:04,559 --> 01:18:05,934 for loving you... 1119 01:18:06,101 --> 01:18:08,059 for bringing you so much misery. 1120 01:18:10,643 --> 01:18:12,684 l'll forgive you, if you'll forgive me. 1121 01:18:21,518 --> 01:18:22,851 Thursday! 1122 01:18:25,309 --> 01:18:27,101 All that was a week ago. 1123 01:18:27,434 --> 01:18:30,893 lt's hardly credible it should be so short a time. 1124 01:18:32,059 --> 01:18:34,143 Today was our last day together. 1125 01:18:34,309 --> 01:18:36,934 Our very last together in all our lives. 1126 01:18:37,643 --> 01:18:40,643 l met him outside the hospital at 1 2:30. 1127 01:18:41,226 --> 01:18:43,059 1 2:30 this morning. 1128 01:18:44,559 --> 01:18:46,268 That was only this morning. 1129 01:18:46,851 --> 01:18:49,934 We drove into the country again, but this time he hired a car. 1130 01:18:50,309 --> 01:18:52,809 l lit cigarettes for him as we went along. 1131 01:18:53,101 --> 01:18:57,684 We didn't talk much. l felt numbed and hardly alive at all. 1132 01:18:58,393 --> 01:18:59,893 We had lunch in a village pub. 1133 01:19:02,518 --> 01:19:05,351 Afterwards we went to the same bridge over the stream... 1134 01:19:06,143 --> 01:19:08,184 the bridge that we had been to before. 1135 01:19:10,517 --> 01:19:13,351 Those last few hours went by so quickly. 1136 01:19:24,601 --> 01:19:27,434 As we walked through the station l remember thinking... 1137 01:19:28,476 --> 01:19:30,601 ''This is the last time with Alec. 1138 01:19:31,851 --> 01:19:34,267 l'll see it all again but without Alec. '' 1139 01:19:35,559 --> 01:19:37,434 l tried not to think it... 1140 01:19:38,184 --> 01:19:40,851 not to let it spoil our last moments together. 1141 01:20:06,851 --> 01:20:10,434 -Are you all right, darling? -Yes, l'm all right. 1142 01:20:12,017 --> 01:20:14,392 l wish l could think of something to say. 1143 01:20:15,684 --> 01:20:17,392 lt doesn't matter, not saying anything. 1144 01:20:17,559 --> 01:20:21,351 -l'll miss my train and wait for yours. -l'd rather come to your platform. 1145 01:20:21,517 --> 01:20:22,892 Very well. 1146 01:20:26,101 --> 01:20:28,434 Do you think we'll ever see each other again? 1147 01:20:29,601 --> 01:20:32,351 l don't know. Not for years anyway. 1148 01:20:33,767 --> 01:20:35,809 The children will be grown up. 1149 01:20:36,934 --> 01:20:39,101 l wonder if they'll ever meet and know each other. 1150 01:20:39,267 --> 01:20:41,517 Couldn't l write to you? 1151 01:20:41,934 --> 01:20:45,934 -No, Alec, please. We promised. -All right, dear. 1152 01:20:46,559 --> 01:20:52,267 l do love you so much. l love you with all my heart and soul. 1153 01:20:54,976 --> 01:20:56,892 l want to die. 1154 01:20:58,309 --> 01:21:00,142 lf only l could die. 1155 01:21:00,309 --> 01:21:04,017 lf you died you'd forget me. l want to be remembered. 1156 01:21:05,392 --> 01:21:07,226 Yes l know. l do too. 1157 01:21:11,642 --> 01:21:15,892 -We've still got a few minutes. -Laura! What a lovely surprise. 1158 01:21:16,142 --> 01:21:20,434 l've been shopping till l'm dropping. My throat's parched. 1159 01:21:20,601 --> 01:21:24,892 l'd have had tea in Spindle's but didn't want to miss the train. Dear! 1160 01:21:25,059 --> 01:21:27,101 -This is Doctor Harvey. -How do you do. 1161 01:21:27,267 --> 01:21:32,184 Get me my cup of tea would you? l can't drag my bones to the counter. 1162 01:21:32,351 --> 01:21:33,517 No please... 1163 01:21:33,684 --> 01:21:37,184 lt was cruel of fate to be against us right up to the last minute. 1164 01:21:37,392 --> 01:21:41,726 Dolly Messiter. Poor, well-meaning irritating Dolly Messiter. 1165 01:21:42,017 --> 01:21:45,184 Crashing into those last precious minutes we had together. 1166 01:21:46,142 --> 01:21:50,809 She chattered and fussed, but l didn't hear. l felt dazed. 1167 01:21:50,976 --> 01:21:53,142 -Oh dear. No sugar. -lt's in the spoon. 1168 01:21:53,309 --> 01:21:57,142 Alec behaved so beautifully... with such pertect politeness. 1169 01:21:57,309 --> 01:21:59,559 Noone could've guessed what he was really feeling. 1170 01:22:00,559 --> 01:22:01,892 And then... 1171 01:22:03,809 --> 01:22:05,684 -There's your train. -Yes, l know. 1172 01:22:05,976 --> 01:22:08,517 -Aren't you coming with us? -No, l go in the opposite direction. 1173 01:22:08,684 --> 01:22:10,434 -My practice is in Churley. -l see. 1174 01:22:10,601 --> 01:22:13,976 -l'm a general practitioner. -Dr. Harvey's going to Africa. 1175 01:22:14,142 --> 01:22:15,601 How thrilling. 1176 01:22:15,892 --> 01:22:23,684 The train on Platform 4 is the 5.40 for Churley, and Langdon. 1177 01:22:23,851 --> 01:22:25,059 -l must go. -Yes. 1178 01:22:25,226 --> 01:22:26,934 -Goodbye. -Goodbye. 1179 01:22:31,809 --> 01:22:34,642 l felt the touch of his hand for a moment... 1180 01:22:35,601 --> 01:22:37,350 and then he walked away... 1181 01:22:39,059 --> 01:22:41,267 away out of my life forever. 1182 01:22:42,350 --> 01:22:44,100 He's got to get to the other platform. 1183 01:22:44,267 --> 01:22:47,517 Talking of missing trains reminds me of the bridge at Broadham junction. 1184 01:22:47,684 --> 01:22:50,309 Dolly went on talking, but l wasn't listening. 1185 01:22:52,100 --> 01:22:54,684 l was listening for the sound of his train. 1186 01:22:56,892 --> 01:22:58,142 Then it did. 1187 01:23:00,350 --> 01:23:02,309 l said to myself: ''He didn't go. 1188 01:23:03,059 --> 01:23:05,600 His courage failed and he couldn't go. 1189 01:23:06,600 --> 01:23:10,309 He'll come back into the room pretending he's forgotten something. '' 1190 01:23:10,809 --> 01:23:12,642 l prayed for that. 1191 01:23:12,975 --> 01:23:15,434 Just so l could see him for an instant. 1192 01:23:19,059 --> 01:23:21,309 But the minutes went by. 1193 01:23:22,975 --> 01:23:26,350 ls that the train? ls that the Ketchwork train? 1194 01:23:26,517 --> 01:23:28,559 -No, it's the express. -The boat train. 1195 01:23:28,725 --> 01:23:30,559 That doesn't stop, does it? 1196 01:23:31,059 --> 01:23:33,725 -l want some chocolate, please. -Milk or plain? 1197 01:24:03,225 --> 01:24:06,225 l meant to do it, Fred. l really meant to do it. 1198 01:24:07,350 --> 01:24:09,434 l stood there trembling, right on the edge. 1199 01:24:11,767 --> 01:24:13,225 But l couldn't. 1200 01:24:14,225 --> 01:24:15,642 l wasn't brave enough. 1201 01:24:17,434 --> 01:24:21,725 l'd like to say it was you and the children prevented me, but it wasn't. 1202 01:24:23,600 --> 01:24:25,559 l had no thoughts at all. 1203 01:24:26,975 --> 01:24:30,184 Only an overwhelming desire not to feel anything ever again... 1204 01:24:31,892 --> 01:24:33,850 not to be unhappy anymore. 1205 01:24:34,350 --> 01:24:35,892 l turned... 1206 01:24:37,934 --> 01:24:40,100 and went back in the Refreshment Room. 1207 01:24:47,517 --> 01:24:49,642 That's when l nearly fainted. 1208 01:25:29,267 --> 01:25:30,434 Laura. 1209 01:25:33,392 --> 01:25:34,559 Yes, dear. 1210 01:25:35,142 --> 01:25:36,934 Whatever your dream was... 1211 01:25:37,184 --> 01:25:39,559 it wasn't a very happy one, was it? 1212 01:25:42,309 --> 01:25:43,600 No. 1213 01:25:44,225 --> 01:25:46,559 ls there anything l can do to help? 1214 01:25:49,475 --> 01:25:51,475 Yes, Fred. You always help. 1215 01:25:51,934 --> 01:25:53,975 You've been a long way away. 1216 01:25:57,975 --> 01:26:00,059 Thank you for coming back to me.