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Good morning.

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Hi.

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You sleep all right?

4
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You?

5
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Not really.

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Ah... There's more Cokes,
and l could get you a coffee if you'd like.

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Want to go for some pancakes or something?

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l'm totally starving.

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Actually, l already had one of those...

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Maybe l should get going, anyway.

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l gotta take care of some stuff.

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What the hell do you want?

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An incredibly complicated
and elaborate drink

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that takes you about 10 minutes to make.

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Then l'd like to complain about
how there's no alcohol in it.

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That's our best seller.

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You want a massage
and manual release with that?

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Maybe later.

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- l wanted to ask you something.
-Yes?

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You have any plans
for the next month or so?

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You mean other than going on auditions that
will lead nowhere and babysitting drunks?

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l want to do the river swim.

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What river swim?

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The river swim, the one l've been
talking about since high school,

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the entire length of the lower Hudson,

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all the way from Troy
to the Verrazano Bridge, 150 miles.

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Why?

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Just because.

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-Just because?
- Right.

30
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You accompany me in a boat,
like we talked about.

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What do you say?

32
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Not many people have swam the whole river.

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Not many people have dug up
Babe Ruth and driven around

34
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with his skeleton in their car either,

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which was another idea
that we had one drunken night.

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l know, but l mean it.

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l want to swim the river.

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We can leave Monday
and be back by the 28th.

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Why now?

40
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Why not?

41
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Sarah's not going to like it.

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Hi.

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Hey.

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Liz... Hi. You remember Paul.

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Sure. You're a financial writer or something?

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Or something, right. And you waitressed
here a couple of summers ago.

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Never again.

48
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A sentiment shared by the management.

49
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l wasn't that bad.

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Nor were you any good.

51
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You're actually a teacher, right?

52
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Yeah.

53
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For retarded kids or something.

54
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No, regular ones.

55
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Oh. Don't know where l got that.

56
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May l have a very strong
vodka and soda, please, Jeff?

57
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One Alcoholic's Special coming up.

58
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So, what are you boys up to tonight?

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Talking about 19-year-old girls
with big tits or something?

60
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Maybe. What's it to you?

61
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Actually, it looks like
we're going on a swimming trip.

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A swimming trip?

63
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-Thank you.
-Yeah.

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Paul's gonna swim the entire length
of the Hudson River.

65
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Why would you do that?

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Why do people climb Everest?

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Most people don't.

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l didn't realize you were a big-time swimmer.

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l'm not. It's iust an idea l had long ago
and it's just kind of stayed with me,

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to swim all the way down the river
to where it meets the ocean.

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Don't you think you'd get a little pooped?

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l don't swim it all at once.

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lt's more a psychological challenge
than a physical one.

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Anyone could do it if they wanted to.

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Totally eccentric, l like it.

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Then come with us.

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-Right, right.
- Really.

78
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Or just go instead of me.

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Come on.
You're asking me to take a couple weeks off

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and drive a boat,
slowly, down the Hudson river

81
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while you're in the water all day?

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lf she wants to come, thank God.

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lt'll give me someone
to make fun of you with to pass the time.

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Well, l don't want to interfere if it's gonna...
If it's some sort of male bonding thing.

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Please. If we were any more bonded,
we'd be 69-ing each other.

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-You should come with us.
-l actually could come.

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l don't start school till after Labor Day.

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We could spend a night at my mom's house
in Rhinebeck,

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along the way, if you want. Free beds.

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See? She's from the Hudson Valley, too.
She's one of us.

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l'm not sure.

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What kind of bathing suits do you have?

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'Cause we usually wear a two-piece.

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l don't think it'd be very much fun.

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-lt might be.
-l don't know.

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You finally take some time off...

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l think it's really important to him
for some reason.

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So you and Paul get to spend
three weeks alone together

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and l get to sit here all by myself.

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Liz is coming with us, too.

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The girl from the bar? Are you kidding me?

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She wants to come.

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What?
Is Paul sleeping with her or something?

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No.

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-Are you?
-No.

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-Then why is she coming?
-Just for fun.

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Why didn't you ask me if l wanted to come?

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-Do you?
-No, it's stupid.

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Then don't come.

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Fuck you.

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Right.

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- What?
-Hmm? Nothing.

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 What?

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Nothing.

115
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Because l feel like getting out of the city, l...

116
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Neither of them.

117
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No.

118
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l'll, uh... l'll call you when we get close.

119
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Three weeks or so.

120
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Yeah, l guess it is a three-week vacation,
if you want to call it that.

121
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Yeah, we'll probably get there
around about 1:00.

122
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We can drop off the car, head down
to the waterfront and find a boat.

123
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You're really gonna buy a boat?

124
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Yeah, it's easier than trying to rent one.
We'll get a used one or something.

125
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What are you gonna do with it
when we get to the city?

126
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l don't know.
Try to sell it or something, l guess.

127
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 How much do boats cost?

128
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l'm not sure. Don't worry about it.

129
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l didn't realize l was traveling
with John D. Rockefeller here.

130
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Which way to the boatyard?

131
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-Can l help you?
-We're looking to buy a boat.

132
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Well, you sure can't have one for free!

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-What kind of boat?
-What?

134
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What kind of boat are you looking for?

135
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Oh, uh, the smallest one you got.

136
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Like a canoe?

137
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A motor boat.

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With a weak motor.

139
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-A weak motor?
-Weakest one you got.

140
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He's gonna swim down the river to the city
and we need to ride next to him.

141
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So iust, you know,
anything that can putter along beside.

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-You're swimming to New York City?
-Yeah.

143
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ls it some sort of charity-type of thing,
or a dollar-a-mile or something?

144
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Not really.

145
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Hmm.

146
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Well, l got an old whaler with
an old 70-horsepower engine.

147
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Couldn't outrun a turtle.

148
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 2,400 bucks.

149
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Sounds reasonable.

150
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Yeah, l believe that's the going rate
for old boats with weak engines.

151
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Right.

152
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You folks done much boating before?

153
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Hmm...

154
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l have.
l went to summer camp on Lake George,

155
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and we had waterskiing, we...
Sometimes they let us steer the boat.

156
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Well, this boat couldn't pull a turtle,
much less a skier.

157
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What's with the turtles?

158
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Piloting a boat is a lot different
from driving a car.

159
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But it, um, starts with a key, right?

160
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Yeah. But it's got no brakes, for starters.

161
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Neither did my last car. l think we'll be fine.

162
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How do l look?

163
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Like a total dick. What'd that getup run you?

164
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-Uh, not much. l bought it used.
-Ew.

165
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Let's head up to the very beginning
of the river.

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To the dam where the first lock is.
We'll start from there.

167
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Okay, then.

168
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Don't drink the water.

169
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-Damn it!
-What?

170
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lt's freezing!

171
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Really? Isn't that, uh, your...
Like, your thing?

172
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Doesn't your thing keep you warm?

173
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What thing?

174
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Your outfit.

175
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You know what? l think it's broken.
l'm getting out. It's too cold.

176
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Bullshit you're getting out!
Get used to it and start swimming.

177
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-lt's freezing!
-Your idea, pal.

178
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We didn't come all this way
to get jerked around,

179
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so tuck your cock in your ass
and get moving.

180
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Salvador Sanchez

181
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Arrived and vanished

182
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Only 23

183
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With so much speed

184
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Owning the highway

185
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Mexico City

186
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Bred so many

187
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But none quite like him

188
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Sweet warrior

189
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Pure magic matador

190
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Pancho Villa

191
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Would never rest

192
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Till 1925

193
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He closed his eyes

194
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Till Manila stars would rise

195
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Maybe you should stop for the day.

196
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You think so?

197
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Yes.

198
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Okay.

199
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Thanks.

200
00:17:23,242 --> 00:17:24,744
How much ground do you think we covered?

201
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Maybe three miles.

202
00:17:29,314 --> 00:17:30,749
lt's not enough.

203
00:17:30,850 --> 00:17:33,855
lt's only the first day.
Plus we got a late start, so...

204
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Gotta do better tomorrow.

205
00:17:36,088 --> 00:17:39,461
Maybe you could smoke in the water.
Save time on the smoking breaks.

206
00:17:39,558 --> 00:17:40,827
The cigarettes would get wet.

207
00:17:40,927 --> 00:17:44,733
Not if you smoke the waterproof cigarettes.
They're all the rage with the kids today.

208
00:17:44,831 --> 00:17:45,966
You guys are weird.

209
00:17:46,066 --> 00:17:48,503
What do you mean ''you guys''?
He's the one that wants to swim all day.

210
00:17:48,600 --> 00:17:49,836
l don't want to swim all day.

211
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l want to swim the Hudson.
There's a difference.

212
00:17:51,805 --> 00:17:55,144
lt's not like l'm going back and forth
in a pool all day, like Stevie Brennan.

213
00:17:56,542 --> 00:17:59,247
He was a mentally retarded boy
we went to school with.

214
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Autistic.

215
00:18:00,579 --> 00:18:03,886
Whatever.
That young man gave one hell of a blowjob.

216
00:18:04,149 --> 00:18:06,988
-Mmm...
-You guys are truly demented.

217
00:18:07,352 --> 00:18:09,222
l don't know what you mean by that.

218
00:18:09,321 --> 00:18:14,865
Now, let's head back to shore
so l can get a high colonic and a bite to eat.

219
00:18:40,887 --> 00:18:41,922
It's okay.

220
00:18:51,396 --> 00:18:54,970
lt's okay. It's okay. It's okay.

221
00:18:58,370 --> 00:19:01,142
 It's okay.

222
00:19:44,716 --> 00:19:46,252
l haven't had sex in a year.

223
00:19:48,988 --> 00:19:50,090
No?

224
00:19:51,657 --> 00:19:53,193
You should get married then.

225
00:19:53,292 --> 00:19:58,468
l have sex like, God, almost six times a year.
It's hard to keep up.

226
00:19:59,098 --> 00:20:00,233
What's that about?

227
00:20:00,699 --> 00:20:05,008
l don't know. Marriage, l guess.
Lots of little resentments.

228
00:20:10,809 --> 00:20:13,347
You're single.
You ought to be having sex all the time.

229
00:20:13,445 --> 00:20:14,880
Get it while you can. You know?

230
00:20:16,448 --> 00:20:17,483
l guess.

231
00:20:17,783 --> 00:20:19,553
So what's this
haven't-had-sex-for-a-year business?

232
00:20:19,651 --> 00:20:22,323
A girl like you should be getting
some serious dick action.

233
00:20:23,889 --> 00:20:26,928
Yeah, l don't know.
l think l've had too many lovers already.

234
00:20:27,392 --> 00:20:29,262
-Too many lovers?
-Yeah.

235
00:20:29,861 --> 00:20:32,433
Not too much sex. But too many lovers.

236
00:20:34,466 --> 00:20:36,636
Paul! Hey, Paul!

237
00:20:36,735 --> 00:20:38,772
You think you've slept with
too many women in your life?

238
00:20:38,870 --> 00:20:39,905
Too many?

239
00:20:40,006 --> 00:20:41,708
Yeah. Think you had too many lovers?

240
00:20:41,807 --> 00:20:44,512
Oh, yeah. Way too many.

241
00:20:44,610 --> 00:20:46,380
Wish l could turn back the clock.

242
00:20:47,279 --> 00:20:49,449
Where do l sign up for
the too-many-lovers program?

243
00:20:49,548 --> 00:20:52,253
-You don't understand.
-Yeah, apparently.

244
00:21:47,806 --> 00:21:52,382
 l haven't slept in a sleeping bag
since camp. Inside a teepee.

245
00:21:53,779 --> 00:21:55,349
The famous camp.

246
00:21:55,814 --> 00:21:59,087
Waterskiing. Teepees.

247
00:22:00,219 --> 00:22:02,923
l wish l could go to camp now.

248
00:22:03,388 --> 00:22:04,590
lt was fun.

249
00:22:04,690 --> 00:22:07,362
lt had all sorts of old-school activities.

250
00:22:07,459 --> 00:22:10,231
Archery, water polo, capture the flag.

251
00:22:10,330 --> 00:22:14,705
Oh! l would love to play water polo.

252
00:22:14,800 --> 00:22:18,674
Paul, how much would you pay
to play a real game of water polo?

253
00:22:21,707 --> 00:22:24,044
-Ten bucks?
-Wrong! Fifty bucks.

254
00:22:24,943 --> 00:22:27,648
Wow. Water polo.

255
00:22:28,513 --> 00:22:29,848
What didn't they have at that camp?

256
00:22:29,948 --> 00:22:33,422
Adequate adult supervision. It was great.

257
00:22:35,355 --> 00:22:37,258
Any lesbian experimentation going on?

258
00:22:38,224 --> 00:22:39,459
A little.

259
00:22:46,398 --> 00:22:48,535
Why are you swimming down the river, Paul?

260
00:22:49,835 --> 00:22:51,138
lt's a charity stunt.

261
00:22:51,903 --> 00:22:54,708
Why is it so important to get there
by August 28th?

262
00:22:54,806 --> 00:22:56,242
He has Yankee tickets that night.

263
00:22:58,211 --> 00:23:00,214
You don't remember what the 28th is?

264
00:23:01,314 --> 00:23:03,685
lf you're talking about the day
you came out to me,

265
00:23:03,782 --> 00:23:07,356
l'm pretty sure that, that was
the spring of senior year...

266
00:23:08,520 --> 00:23:10,523
And we never really celebrate that.

267
00:23:10,989 --> 00:23:13,160
This stuff never stops, does it?

268
00:23:13,259 --> 00:23:16,865
Nope.
The older l get, the more immature l get.

269
00:23:16,962 --> 00:23:20,235
lt's an odd phenomenon.
It's not one l claim to understand.

270
00:23:20,632 --> 00:23:23,671
Enough about me.
What's the deal with the 28th?

271
00:23:24,903 --> 00:23:26,239
Amy's anniversary.

272
00:23:28,640 --> 00:23:31,846
August 28th is the fifth anniversary
of her death.

273
00:23:31,977 --> 00:23:34,549
To prepare for the occasion,
l thought l'd do something interesting,

274
00:23:34,646 --> 00:23:35,814
something unique,

275
00:23:35,914 --> 00:23:39,788
to distinguish myself in some small way
before l go.

276
00:23:41,354 --> 00:23:42,589
Go where?

277
00:23:49,262 --> 00:23:51,031
lt's been five years.

278
00:23:51,897 --> 00:23:53,600
Motherfucker!

279
00:23:53,865 --> 00:23:54,933
What?

280
00:23:56,335 --> 00:23:57,403
What?

281
00:24:09,181 --> 00:24:10,250
Jeff!

282
00:24:18,391 --> 00:24:20,962
What's happening?
What... What was that about?

283
00:24:22,027 --> 00:24:24,899
He's gonna kill himself
when we finish the swim.

284
00:24:27,433 --> 00:24:28,635
What's going on here? What...

285
00:24:28,733 --> 00:24:31,338
When Amy was killed, Paul was a wreck.

286
00:24:31,437 --> 00:24:33,106
He was completely destroyed.

287
00:24:33,205 --> 00:24:36,378
Um... One night, after not being able
to reach him for a couple days,

288
00:24:36,476 --> 00:24:39,180
l went over to their apartment
to see how he was.

289
00:24:39,278 --> 00:24:44,120
And when l got there, the door was open
and there was a suicide note on the desk.

290
00:24:44,317 --> 00:24:47,256
And l remember
we hung out on his roof sometimes,

291
00:24:47,353 --> 00:24:48,688
so l run up there.

292
00:24:49,489 --> 00:24:51,826
And there he was on the edge of the roof,

293
00:24:53,292 --> 00:24:55,128
-about to iump.
-Jesus.

294
00:24:55,495 --> 00:24:57,599
Yeah. But l start talking to him.

295
00:24:57,696 --> 00:24:59,131
We start talking
and l'm trying to convince him

296
00:24:59,231 --> 00:25:00,701
that he will feel better sometime.

297
00:25:00,799 --> 00:25:04,840
Amy had iust died three months earlier
and he just had to give it some time.

298
00:25:05,371 --> 00:25:08,343
And l told him to think about
the people that care about him.

299
00:25:08,441 --> 00:25:10,945
And what about our friendship?
That kind of thing.

300
00:25:11,042 --> 00:25:13,814
And l give him reason after reason
not to do it,

301
00:25:13,912 --> 00:25:16,651
not the least of which
is my car's parked below,

302
00:25:16,748 --> 00:25:18,083
l don't want him to land on it.

303
00:25:18,183 --> 00:25:19,184
Really?

304
00:25:19,285 --> 00:25:21,922
No, but l did say that at one point
and he actually laughed.

305
00:25:22,020 --> 00:25:25,727
l got a laugh out of him,
in spite of everything, and, uh,

306
00:25:27,626 --> 00:25:28,594
just kept him talking.

307
00:25:30,329 --> 00:25:32,265
Finally, after what seems like an hour,

308
00:25:33,332 --> 00:25:35,402
l say, ''l'll tell you what.

309
00:25:36,067 --> 00:25:38,972
''You absolutely have to give this more time.

310
00:25:41,773 --> 00:25:43,510
''Give it five years,

311
00:25:44,776 --> 00:25:47,381
''and if at the end of those five years
you still want to die,

312
00:25:47,480 --> 00:25:52,055
''l promise not only not to interfere,

313
00:25:52,150 --> 00:25:54,555
''l'll kick in for a pack of razor blades,

314
00:25:54,653 --> 00:25:59,362
''and l'll give a eulogy at your funeral,
telling 'em you did the right thing for you,

315
00:25:59,458 --> 00:26:02,397
''and l'll defend your decision
to anybody who has a problem with it.''

316
00:26:03,828 --> 00:26:07,669
But he didn't want to wait five years.
He didn't want to wait five minutes.

317
00:26:07,766 --> 00:26:10,872
Thing is, he would've asked for
the exact same thing

318
00:26:10,969 --> 00:26:13,774
if the situation was reversed,
to give it more time.

319
00:26:13,872 --> 00:26:17,980
And when he realized that, l knew l had him.
l knew he wasn't going to jump.

320
00:26:19,378 --> 00:26:23,586
We actually shook hands on it,
and he seemed to gradually get better.

321
00:26:24,716 --> 00:26:28,557
And after a couple years,
l put it in the back of my mind,

322
00:26:28,653 --> 00:26:31,692
and, uh, kind of forgot about it,

323
00:26:33,091 --> 00:26:35,195
until about two minutes ago.

324
00:26:36,161 --> 00:26:38,833
So, it's five years later and, uh...

325
00:26:39,831 --> 00:26:41,834
The time is actually here,

326
00:26:43,068 --> 00:26:45,005
and he still wants to die.

327
00:27:29,147 --> 00:27:30,148
Hi.

328
00:27:32,217 --> 00:27:33,252
Hi.

329
00:27:37,490 --> 00:27:38,925
Good morning.

330
00:27:43,529 --> 00:27:44,764
Where'd you get that?

331
00:27:44,863 --> 00:27:49,772
 A little store up there.
l got one for Jeff, too, and a Coke for you.

332
00:27:49,868 --> 00:27:53,976
Oh, perfect. Thank you.

333
00:27:57,677 --> 00:28:00,516
l also found out
we're camping on private property.

334
00:28:01,480 --> 00:28:03,550
Well, we're private people.

335
00:28:15,561 --> 00:28:18,232
Rise and shine, captain.
We got swimming to do.

336
00:28:18,730 --> 00:28:20,165
The missus brought you some coffee.

337
00:28:20,265 --> 00:28:21,635
Really?

338
00:28:22,967 --> 00:28:24,069
Fantastic.

339
00:28:24,537 --> 00:28:28,210
Need to do six miles today, at least.
You guys up for that?

340
00:28:28,306 --> 00:28:31,178
Considering all we have to do is
sit in the boat drinking Mai Tais

341
00:28:31,276 --> 00:28:36,620
while you do the actual swimming,
l'd say, yeah, l think we can swing it.

342
00:29:28,466 --> 00:29:31,940
l can't believe we're iust...
We're just gonna go along like this?

343
00:29:32,036 --> 00:29:33,271
What would you prefer we do?

344
00:29:33,371 --> 00:29:36,878
Stop the trip. Take him to a hospital.
Get him committed or something.

345
00:29:36,975 --> 00:29:41,584
lf we stop the trip and say,
''No, we're not going along with this,''

346
00:29:41,680 --> 00:29:42,648
what's that going to accomplish?

347
00:29:42,748 --> 00:29:45,319
He wants to kill himself, he'll find a way.
Maybe sooner rather than later.

348
00:29:45,416 --> 00:29:46,752
You guys talking about me?

349
00:29:46,851 --> 00:29:47,819
-Yeah.
-Yeah.

350
00:29:48,319 --> 00:29:49,855
Please don't.

351
00:29:49,954 --> 00:29:50,989
 Okay.

352
00:29:51,322 --> 00:29:52,825
We'll chat about the weather instead.

353
00:29:52,924 --> 00:29:55,261
Pretty nice day, huh?
Yeah. How's the water?

354
00:29:55,360 --> 00:29:56,696
Not as bad as yesterday.

355
00:29:56,796 --> 00:29:58,900
Ah! Probably getting used to it.
Probably.

356
00:29:58,997 --> 00:30:01,201
 Water's always freezing
when you first get in.

357
00:30:01,299 --> 00:30:03,236
 Ain't that the truth.

358
00:30:03,334 --> 00:30:06,006
Well, keep on trucking.

359
00:30:07,138 --> 00:30:08,641
Will do, buddy.

360
00:30:10,909 --> 00:30:13,413
l don't know
what the hell to do, okay?

361
00:30:15,046 --> 00:30:16,983
l don't know what to do.

362
00:30:19,484 --> 00:30:23,993
lf he kills himself,
maybe he'll give me his television.

363
00:30:25,223 --> 00:30:27,093
lt's got a huge screen.

364
00:32:34,152 --> 00:32:36,022
What's he swimming for?

365
00:32:36,120 --> 00:32:37,589
Just for fun.

366
00:32:37,689 --> 00:32:39,559
 Don't know how clean the water is.

367
00:32:39,657 --> 00:32:41,895
There's a freshwater lake
a few miles inland.

368
00:32:41,993 --> 00:32:45,399
 l don't think
pollution's a top priority of his.

369
00:32:58,142 --> 00:33:00,079
Let's get some hot dogs.

370
00:33:06,317 --> 00:33:07,318
Damn it!

371
00:33:10,990 --> 00:33:11,991
All right.

372
00:33:16,094 --> 00:33:17,931
Put that around there.

373
00:33:39,417 --> 00:33:41,154
We're looking for hot dogs.

374
00:33:41,252 --> 00:33:42,420
l don't have any.

375
00:33:43,187 --> 00:33:44,222
Fair enough.

376
00:33:44,655 --> 00:33:46,125
Anybody know where we can
get something to eat?

377
00:33:46,224 --> 00:33:48,829
Town's about a quarter-mile down the road.

378
00:33:48,927 --> 00:33:50,696
Perry's has hot dogs.

379
00:33:51,696 --> 00:33:53,266
-No, they don't.
-Yeah, they do.

380
00:33:53,698 --> 00:33:56,036
-They're iust not on the menu.
-Yeah, you have to ask for 'em.

381
00:33:56,134 --> 00:33:57,469
 Bullshit!

382
00:33:57,568 --> 00:33:59,772
It's true. You just have to ask for 'em.

383
00:33:59,872 --> 00:34:02,576
-Who told you that?
-Nobody told me. l just know.

384
00:34:02,673 --> 00:34:05,880
Don't worry, we'll get to the bottom of it.

385
00:34:06,310 --> 00:34:08,347
Knock some heads together, if we have to.

386
00:34:08,446 --> 00:34:11,318
Mmm-hmm.
Will you keep an eye on her for me?

387
00:34:17,522 --> 00:34:19,559
Mmm! Mmm!

388
00:34:21,860 --> 00:34:25,099
l saw this thing on TV once,
a special about the death penalty,

389
00:34:25,196 --> 00:34:29,037
and they were talking about
prisoners' last meals, and this...

390
00:34:29,133 --> 00:34:34,676
This chaplain was saying
in his 30 years at Sing Sing,

391
00:34:34,772 --> 00:34:37,210
never once did he actually see
a prisoner eat his last meal.

392
00:34:37,308 --> 00:34:40,113
They always ended up
giving it to the other prisoners.

393
00:34:40,211 --> 00:34:41,746
We'll be passing Sing Sing.

394
00:34:41,846 --> 00:34:44,251
l know. That's why l mentioned it.

395
00:34:47,351 --> 00:34:49,221
Why did you mention it?

396
00:34:49,787 --> 00:34:54,329
Well, how can you be eating so happily
if you know you're going to die soon?

397
00:34:54,425 --> 00:34:58,766
Well, A, this isn't my last meal,

398
00:35:00,698 --> 00:35:02,568
B, l'm hungry, and C, l love food.

399
00:35:03,367 --> 00:35:06,974
Okay. Good. You love food.

400
00:35:07,072 --> 00:35:09,142
That... Isn't that one reason
not to kill yourself, right there?

401
00:35:09,240 --> 00:35:10,609
l mean, not to mention
the millions of other reasons.

402
00:35:10,708 --> 00:35:14,315
l mean, you were like a little kid
when we got those donuts on the drive up.

403
00:35:14,712 --> 00:35:16,983
l'm sure they'll have donuts in heaven.

404
00:35:17,082 --> 00:35:19,186
-What?
-l'm sure they'll have donuts in heaven.

405
00:35:19,283 --> 00:35:21,988
-They have donuts in heaven.
-Right.

406
00:35:22,453 --> 00:35:26,327
l mean, if one believes in the concept
of heaven as a paradise,

407
00:35:27,291 --> 00:35:29,161
not really a stretch to believe
they have donuts there.

408
00:35:29,260 --> 00:35:30,228
-Right.
-Well, A,

409
00:35:30,328 --> 00:35:32,031
even if they do have donuts in heaven,

410
00:35:32,131 --> 00:35:34,268
and l can't believe l'm actually
discussing these issues seriously,

411
00:35:34,365 --> 00:35:36,736
what about B,
which is the fact that most people

412
00:35:36,834 --> 00:35:38,939
don't believe suicides go to heaven,
they go to hell?

413
00:35:39,037 --> 00:35:42,076
l don't believe in hell, or that suicides
would necessarily end up there.

414
00:35:42,173 --> 00:35:45,712
l'm not saying l believe that either
but l'm certainly not sure there's a heaven.

415
00:35:45,810 --> 00:35:46,979
Me neither.

416
00:35:47,079 --> 00:35:50,251
Yet you're sure there's donuts there,
if it does exist?

417
00:35:50,348 --> 00:35:51,450
Willing to find out.

418
00:35:52,783 --> 00:35:54,920
Paul, you've got to get some therapy.
You can't just...

419
00:35:55,020 --> 00:35:56,255
l tried therapy, Liz.

420
00:35:57,355 --> 00:36:00,928
All kinds. Groups, Prozac, Zoloft.

421
00:36:02,593 --> 00:36:03,828
l tried praying

422
00:36:05,429 --> 00:36:07,332
and then one day l just stopped.

423
00:36:08,066 --> 00:36:09,101
Why?

424
00:36:12,336 --> 00:36:14,473
Because Amy and the baby were still dead.

425
00:36:18,010 --> 00:36:19,679
Okay. l understand that.

426
00:36:19,777 --> 00:36:25,321
But that doesn't mean that
you can't find a way to go on, somehow.

427
00:36:25,850 --> 00:36:31,661
Lots of people have suffered
terrible tragedies and horrific losses

428
00:36:31,756 --> 00:36:35,964
and continued with their lives.
They found a way to go on.

429
00:36:36,861 --> 00:36:38,497
Not all of them.
Some of them killed themselves.

430
00:36:38,596 --> 00:36:42,036
But most do go on, Paul. They find a way.

431
00:36:43,334 --> 00:36:44,402
Maybe they were stronger than me,

432
00:36:44,502 --> 00:36:46,639
but it was their choice to go on
and not someone else's.

433
00:36:46,737 --> 00:36:50,377
l'm sorry, but, like, grief
or despair or whatever

434
00:36:50,508 --> 00:36:54,949
is iust not a good reason to kill...
To commit suicide. It's just not.

435
00:36:55,047 --> 00:36:56,582
Not a good enough reason for you, you mean.

436
00:36:56,681 --> 00:37:00,155
lt's not a good enough reason for anyone!
It's selfish to kill yourself.

437
00:37:00,251 --> 00:37:01,953
lt's a hostile act.

438
00:37:02,853 --> 00:37:06,060
l don't have any siblings,
my parents are dead,

439
00:37:07,059 --> 00:37:09,730
my wife and child are dead,
so why can't l join my family?

440
00:37:09,827 --> 00:37:11,764
What about Jeff?
What about your other friends?

441
00:37:12,697 --> 00:37:15,669
Why should l be forced
to stay alive for them?

442
00:37:16,101 --> 00:37:20,542
l wouldn't stop Jeff from killing himself,
if that's truly what he wanted to do.

443
00:37:23,341 --> 00:37:25,945
You want to kill yourself,
it's your absolute right.

444
00:37:26,178 --> 00:37:28,782
Thanks. But who would drive the boat?

445
00:37:29,214 --> 00:37:31,785
Good point. Hang in there, buddy.
Things will start looking up.

446
00:37:31,882 --> 00:37:33,518
You're an asshole.

447
00:37:33,784 --> 00:37:35,120
And you're an idiot.

448
00:37:36,454 --> 00:37:37,823
What'd l do?

449
00:38:01,079 --> 00:38:05,052
l'm pretty sure ''slack tide'' means... It's like...

450
00:38:06,285 --> 00:38:10,025
Slack. It's calm. It's not moving either way.

451
00:38:10,122 --> 00:38:14,330
Remember, the Hudson is an estuary
where the water flows in, then flows out.

452
00:38:14,425 --> 00:38:17,264
Right, so ideally you want
to be swimming at ebb tide, right?

453
00:38:17,361 --> 00:38:21,602
Maximum ebb best of all, where you'd be
just coasting along practically.

454
00:38:21,699 --> 00:38:25,038
l know, so why was l fighting tides
half the morning?

455
00:38:25,670 --> 00:38:28,007
l don't know how to read the chart.

456
00:38:33,744 --> 00:38:36,516
Well, we were beginning to think
you killed yourself.

457
00:38:40,051 --> 00:38:41,287
You okay?

458
00:38:41,585 --> 00:38:43,188
Went window shopping.

459
00:39:28,632 --> 00:39:31,237
l'm cold and sore and everything aches.

460
00:39:31,669 --> 00:39:34,574
What do you care?
You'll be dead soon anyway.

461
00:39:52,089 --> 00:39:55,763
Cigarettes don't help with
your circulation, you know?

462
00:39:56,060 --> 00:39:58,097
What do l care? l'll be dead soon anyway.

463
00:39:58,496 --> 00:39:59,664
Douché.

464
00:40:01,098 --> 00:40:04,238
Maybe we should take tomorrow off.
Rest a day.

465
00:40:05,102 --> 00:40:06,438
We could...

466
00:40:07,272 --> 00:40:10,811
l don't know,
take a factory tour or something.

467
00:40:10,908 --> 00:40:12,176
See where plastic's made.

468
00:40:12,277 --> 00:40:13,445
Can't fall behind.

469
00:40:13,644 --> 00:40:16,716
Then we'll motor down the river
for a few miles at the end of the day

470
00:40:16,814 --> 00:40:18,851
and nobody will know the difference.

471
00:40:18,949 --> 00:40:21,721
l'll know the difference.
l want to do this right.

472
00:40:23,454 --> 00:40:25,958
l'd like to accomplish
this one thing in my life.

473
00:40:28,692 --> 00:40:31,898
l want to actually do something
instead of just talking about doing things.

474
00:40:31,996 --> 00:40:33,766
You know what l mean?

475
00:40:43,741 --> 00:40:45,578
Let's get a milkshake.

476
00:40:48,779 --> 00:40:50,516
This guy really didn't get enough time
in the mixer.

477
00:40:50,614 --> 00:40:52,751
Neither of them, Mom. Right.

478
00:40:54,218 --> 00:40:55,253
Yes.

479
00:40:56,354 --> 00:40:57,823
Maybe tomorrow.
When are we getting there?

480
00:40:57,922 --> 00:40:59,057
When do you think we'll get there?

481
00:40:59,156 --> 00:41:02,128
-Uh, hard to say.
-We'll be there tomorrow afternoon.

482
00:41:02,226 --> 00:41:04,063
- Probably tomorrow.
-l want to do 10 miles tomorrow.

483
00:41:04,161 --> 00:41:05,263
-No.
-Okay.

484
00:41:05,363 --> 00:41:07,767
-l'm serious. l want to do 10 miles.
-l heard you the first time.

485
00:41:08,866 --> 00:41:10,936
Neither of them, Mom! Okay?

486
00:41:12,269 --> 00:41:15,041
Uh, sometime tomorrow afternoon, probably.

487
00:41:18,209 --> 00:41:19,612
Will Pasthule be there?

488
00:41:21,045 --> 00:41:23,450
l'm just asking. Suzanne?

489
00:41:24,949 --> 00:41:28,288
All right, well, we'll all have dinner. Okay.

490
00:41:29,286 --> 00:41:32,058
Okay. Okay!

491
00:41:34,825 --> 00:41:35,927
Bye.

492
00:41:38,963 --> 00:41:41,233
All set. She's looking forward to it.

493
00:41:43,901 --> 00:41:44,936
Faggots!

494
00:42:21,305 --> 00:42:22,741
Good morning.

495
00:42:24,241 --> 00:42:26,178
Hey, did you sleep okay?

496
00:42:28,547 --> 00:42:29,849
Yeah.

497
00:42:32,149 --> 00:42:35,321
We need to get going.
The current's really moving.

498
00:42:37,821 --> 00:42:40,793
Maximum ebb, people!
Let's go while we got it!

499
00:42:44,429 --> 00:42:46,466
 He's out of his mind!

500
00:42:46,565 --> 00:42:49,637
No kidding.
And we're going right along with it.

501
00:42:51,168 --> 00:42:52,871
l made him a promise.

502
00:42:53,103 --> 00:42:55,975
-You don't have to honor it.
- Says who? You?

503
00:42:56,106 --> 00:42:58,678
What good is giving your word
to a friend if you don't plan on keeping it?

504
00:43:12,923 --> 00:43:14,893
-Shit!

505
00:43:47,291 --> 00:43:48,259
You all right?

506
00:43:50,728 --> 00:43:52,230
Just swimming down the river.

507
00:43:52,329 --> 00:43:54,266
What do you mean?

508
00:43:54,798 --> 00:43:56,902
l'm swimming down to the Verrazano Bridge.

509
00:43:57,001 --> 00:43:59,706
Verrazano Bridge? It's like 90 miles.

510
00:44:00,404 --> 00:44:03,009
Not all at once. You know, day by day.

511
00:44:05,175 --> 00:44:06,277
Everything okay?

512
00:44:08,846 --> 00:44:10,616
Everything okay here?

513
00:44:14,318 --> 00:44:16,055
l'm fine. Really.

514
00:44:16,554 --> 00:44:20,695
He wants to swim the entire river.
It's one of those, uh, endurance things.

515
00:44:20,791 --> 00:44:24,698
Kind of, like, that Iditarod dog sled race
they have in Alaska.

516
00:44:26,397 --> 00:44:28,000
Except there's no other racers.

517
00:44:29,400 --> 00:44:30,368
Right.

518
00:44:31,268 --> 00:44:32,336
You got a permit for this?

519
00:44:35,439 --> 00:44:36,440
No.

520
00:44:37,041 --> 00:44:38,276
Do l need one?

521
00:44:41,812 --> 00:44:43,080
Just be careful, okay?

522
00:44:44,448 --> 00:44:45,751
Thank you.

523
00:44:59,196 --> 00:45:03,805
-Do you know what we're eating tonight?
-Nope. My aunt will be making dinner.

524
00:45:03,901 --> 00:45:07,942
-There'll be an aunt there?
-Yep. My cousin, also. The whole gang.

525
00:45:08,972 --> 00:45:11,844
You don't sound too enthused.
You sure you want to do this?

526
00:45:11,942 --> 00:45:14,814
We can always stay at a motel, if you want.

527
00:45:14,912 --> 00:45:16,080
We'll be fine.

528
00:45:19,149 --> 00:45:20,351
Fuck me!

529
00:45:21,085 --> 00:45:24,559
What are the chances your mother
will have homemade sticky buns

530
00:45:24,656 --> 00:45:27,260
-waiting for us at the house?
-Near zero.

531
00:45:27,357 --> 00:45:30,931
-What are the chances your stepfather will...
-Mother's boyfriend!

532
00:45:31,028 --> 00:45:34,835
What are the chances your mother's
boyfriend will commit homosexual rape

533
00:45:34,932 --> 00:45:36,100
upon my person?

534
00:45:39,704 --> 00:45:41,039
Your taxi's here!

535
00:45:43,675 --> 00:45:44,743
Hi, Mom!

536
00:45:45,409 --> 00:45:50,285
Now, that one was built by a prosperous
Dutch merchant in the 1800s.

537
00:45:50,447 --> 00:45:52,551
Made an absolute fortune in imports.

538
00:45:53,550 --> 00:45:58,827
Unfortunately, his grandson frittered it all
away and it had to be sold a few years back.

539
00:45:58,922 --> 00:46:01,092
-That's too bad.
-Yes, a shame.

540
00:46:01,959 --> 00:46:04,798
You used to play with his grandson, Liz.
Do you remember?

541
00:46:04,895 --> 00:46:07,800
We used to smoke pot by the river
in high school, if that's what you mean.

542
00:46:07,898 --> 00:46:09,668
Oh, don't be sassy!

543
00:46:10,467 --> 00:46:12,672
And what about you, Seth?
What does your family do?

544
00:46:14,639 --> 00:46:16,041
-Jeff.
-What?

545
00:46:16,741 --> 00:46:18,210
-Jeff.
-Jeff.

546
00:46:18,308 --> 00:46:21,280
Forgive me, Jeff.
So what does your family do?

547
00:46:22,246 --> 00:46:27,189
My mother's a college professor, retired,
and my father is a physician.

548
00:46:27,284 --> 00:46:30,924
Oh! A doctor. That must've come in handy
when you got the flu.

549
00:46:31,121 --> 00:46:35,229
Ha! Actually, he was the kind of guy
who was so wrapped up in his work

550
00:46:35,325 --> 00:46:37,362
and research and whatever else,

551
00:46:37,461 --> 00:46:40,768
you could be walking around the house
with a bloody stump and he wouldn't notice.

552
00:46:41,999 --> 00:46:46,942
My aunt had a leg amputated
and believe me, Jeff, you'd notice.

553
00:46:47,971 --> 00:46:51,077
Right. l mean, he probably would have
noticed something like that.

554
00:46:51,308 --> 00:46:52,844
And what do you do?

555
00:46:53,110 --> 00:46:55,013
Actor. Bartender.

556
00:46:59,049 --> 00:47:00,251
Et vous?

557
00:47:02,052 --> 00:47:03,254
Et vous?

558
00:47:03,788 --> 00:47:07,294
Hey! Hello? What's your background?

559
00:47:07,524 --> 00:47:10,797
My father was a lawyer.
My mother was a homemaker.

560
00:47:11,562 --> 00:47:12,698
They both died.

561
00:47:13,096 --> 00:47:15,901
Aw, lord. Plane crash?

562
00:47:15,999 --> 00:47:18,503
No, no. Cancer. Natural causes.

563
00:47:19,203 --> 00:47:20,839
They both had good lives.

564
00:47:20,938 --> 00:47:23,242
Thank goodness for small favors, huh?

565
00:47:23,741 --> 00:47:24,909
Yeah.

566
00:47:25,409 --> 00:47:26,912
That house is amazing.

567
00:47:27,578 --> 00:47:29,114
The Williams.

568
00:47:29,213 --> 00:47:32,954
More divorce and alcoholism in that family
than l care to discuss.

569
00:47:33,417 --> 00:47:34,452
Troubled family, huh?

570
00:47:34,918 --> 00:47:36,988
l don't want to discuss it. Please.

571
00:47:37,988 --> 00:47:40,693
The youngest is in jail, if you can believe it.

572
00:47:41,225 --> 00:47:44,264
And the middle one is a... A gay.

573
00:47:46,865 --> 00:47:49,402
Oh, look at that one. That is huge!

574
00:47:49,533 --> 00:47:52,873
The Vanderhooks.
Their money came from the railroads.

575
00:47:52,970 --> 00:47:54,605
They had nine children.

576
00:47:55,272 --> 00:47:56,340
Seven.

577
00:47:56,440 --> 00:48:00,481
Well, l never counted.
Mostly boys, it seemed.

578
00:48:00,577 --> 00:48:04,351
And poor Emily.
Oh, she died so tragically young.

579
00:48:05,282 --> 00:48:09,958
Not that the father seemed to mind.
No, he had a new wife by the end of the year.

580
00:48:10,320 --> 00:48:12,792
She couldn't have been a day over 21.

581
00:48:13,357 --> 00:48:15,594
She did not wear a bra.

582
00:48:18,528 --> 00:48:19,630
You think that's funny?

583
00:48:20,564 --> 00:48:24,505
Not wearing a bra is ha-ha funny?

584
00:48:24,802 --> 00:48:27,306
No, not the lack of bra, in and of itself, no.

585
00:48:27,404 --> 00:48:30,676
Well, let me tell you,
there was nothing funny about it.

586
00:48:30,775 --> 00:48:34,916
Teenage wife,
prancing around in front of 12 boys

587
00:48:35,012 --> 00:48:37,383
with no bra on all day!

588
00:48:54,364 --> 00:48:56,668
So when does school start, dear?

589
00:48:57,234 --> 00:48:59,438
The Wednesday after Labor Day.

590
00:49:00,504 --> 00:49:03,076
l heard they were making
the children in New York City

591
00:49:03,173 --> 00:49:04,876
start school in August these days,

592
00:49:04,975 --> 00:49:08,481
because they were so hopelessly
behind in their studies.

593
00:49:09,780 --> 00:49:11,450
-lt's not true.
-Hmm.

594
00:49:11,548 --> 00:49:15,155
Do you think they should start in August?
Or even July?

595
00:49:15,585 --> 00:49:18,490
Right, like she's really going to be
in favor of teaching all summer.

596
00:49:19,690 --> 00:49:22,729
Paul, we never did get to what it is you do.

597
00:49:23,327 --> 00:49:25,999
That is, when you're not
swimming the Amazon,

598
00:49:26,096 --> 00:49:28,333
or crossing the Great Ponds.

599
00:49:29,066 --> 00:49:31,838
l've been writing for a business magazine.

600
00:49:31,936 --> 00:49:36,979
Mostly personal investments,
money markets, IRAs, that kind of thing.

601
00:49:38,642 --> 00:49:39,845
That sounds like a drag.

602
00:49:39,944 --> 00:49:41,546
Suzanne...

603
00:49:41,645 --> 00:49:45,619
No. Actually, she's right. It's... It isn't fun.

604
00:49:46,149 --> 00:49:48,219
Well, maybe this little vacation

605
00:49:48,318 --> 00:49:52,459
will re-energize you and you can go back
to work with a whole new attitude.

606
00:49:53,023 --> 00:49:56,129
Not that l would want to write
a financial column.

607
00:49:56,460 --> 00:49:58,063
Or even read one.

608
00:49:59,096 --> 00:50:02,001
-l'm not going back to work.
- No?

609
00:50:02,332 --> 00:50:05,671
Oh? Well, what's next?
Riding a bicycle to the Yukon?

610
00:50:07,671 --> 00:50:09,007
Uh...

611
00:50:11,274 --> 00:50:12,776
Nothing, really.

612
00:50:13,310 --> 00:50:15,047
Nothing?
Not really.

613
00:50:16,246 --> 00:50:19,685
People don't just do nothing, Paul.

614
00:50:20,550 --> 00:50:22,720
You have to do something.

615
00:50:24,454 --> 00:50:27,493
Well, actually, if you really want to know,
l'm going to kill myself.

616
00:50:30,861 --> 00:50:32,598
He's joking. He's...

617
00:50:32,930 --> 00:50:35,367
These guys have a real
deadpan sense of humor.

618
00:50:35,532 --> 00:50:36,600
Bedpan?

619
00:50:37,001 --> 00:50:38,103
Deadpan.

620
00:50:38,201 --> 00:50:39,169
Bedpan, too.

621
00:50:39,269 --> 00:50:40,905
Oh, l'm not joking.

622
00:50:41,005 --> 00:50:44,578
But if you'd rather not discuss it, which is
more than fine with me, let's not.

623
00:50:44,674 --> 00:50:46,277
Please. Let's do.

624
00:50:47,979 --> 00:50:52,287
What is all this nonsense
about killing yourself?

625
00:50:52,616 --> 00:50:53,651
Why?

626
00:50:53,750 --> 00:50:55,186
Because l've lived my life.

627
00:50:55,552 --> 00:50:58,324
Uh-huh. You're all of 21 years old!

628
00:50:58,956 --> 00:51:00,525
Thirty-five, actually.

629
00:51:00,624 --> 00:51:05,200
Well, l don't care if you're 36.
It's still a poor reason to commit suicide.

630
00:51:06,129 --> 00:51:10,036
She's right, Paul.
Suicide is not the answer to anything.

631
00:51:10,133 --> 00:51:12,036
Particularly growing older.

632
00:51:12,169 --> 00:51:13,771
lf it was, we'd all be dead.

633
00:51:15,138 --> 00:51:20,515
Look, l'm way over 21,
and you don't see me committing suicide.

634
00:51:20,844 --> 00:51:23,449
l'm no spring chicken either,
and l'm still here.

635
00:51:24,214 --> 00:51:26,986
You know what? l'm...
l'm sorry l brought this up.

636
00:51:27,451 --> 00:51:28,586
l'm sorry.

637
00:51:28,685 --> 00:51:30,722
Good luck closing that barn door.

638
00:51:31,855 --> 00:51:34,995
lt actually was a ioke, okay?
l'm not going to kill myself.

639
00:51:35,093 --> 00:51:40,903
l'm sorry l said that. l'm sorry.
Um... l was just making conversation.

640
00:51:45,368 --> 00:51:47,205
l do not like those boys.

641
00:51:48,138 --> 00:51:49,573
Which one are you dating?

642
00:51:49,673 --> 00:51:52,045
l'm not dating either of them, Mom.

643
00:51:52,809 --> 00:51:57,418
l iust hate to see you throw yourself into
the arms of the first man who smiles at you

644
00:51:57,514 --> 00:51:59,918
just because you're getting older.

645
00:52:00,383 --> 00:52:02,120
Do yourself a favor.

646
00:52:02,352 --> 00:52:06,493
Forget about marriage and children.
It's not worth the sacrifice.

647
00:52:07,524 --> 00:52:09,628
-Thanks.
-Oh, stop with that!

648
00:52:09,893 --> 00:52:11,863
You know what l'm saying.

649
00:52:11,996 --> 00:52:15,502
You gotta look out for number one,
which is you,

650
00:52:16,333 --> 00:52:17,768
not some man.

651
00:52:18,869 --> 00:52:20,839
l'll tell you something.

652
00:52:21,404 --> 00:52:24,877
l don't give Pasthule a thing, until l got my...

653
00:52:26,077 --> 00:52:27,712
You know what.

654
00:52:28,278 --> 00:52:30,015
l really don't want to discuss this.

655
00:52:31,048 --> 00:52:34,921
Uh, yeah, l think she does some good work
with the right roles.

656
00:52:35,852 --> 00:52:37,889
l didn't say she was better than you,

657
00:52:38,855 --> 00:52:40,959
just she does what she does.

658
00:52:42,659 --> 00:52:45,698
And no, l don't think she's prettier than you.

659
00:52:46,363 --> 00:52:49,602
Well, yeah, she's younger.
l mean, that's just a fact.

660
00:52:49,699 --> 00:52:50,834
Right.

661
00:52:51,434 --> 00:52:52,602
No, she's not.

662
00:52:52,702 --> 00:52:54,739
We'll talk about this when l get home, okay?

663
00:52:54,838 --> 00:52:56,875
Yes, l gotta get off the phone.

664
00:52:57,807 --> 00:53:01,748
'Cause it's not polite to talk for an hour
on the phone at someone's house.

665
00:53:01,845 --> 00:53:03,348
Yeah, whatever, 20 minutes.

666
00:53:03,914 --> 00:53:05,484
Yes, definitely.

667
00:53:06,583 --> 00:53:08,520
Uh, no, nothing's wrong.

668
00:53:09,086 --> 00:53:12,392
l don't know what you perceive in my voice,
but everything's fine.

669
00:53:12,489 --> 00:53:14,926
l'll call you soon. Bye.

670
00:53:16,160 --> 00:53:17,762
High maintenance!

671
00:53:24,202 --> 00:53:26,139
So you're an actor, huh?

672
00:53:27,671 --> 00:53:29,775
Have l seen you in anything?

673
00:53:30,974 --> 00:53:33,646
Other than the dining room during dinner?
l doubt it.

674
00:53:34,244 --> 00:53:37,883
Unless you happened to be living
in the Phoenix-Scottsdale area

675
00:53:37,981 --> 00:53:40,619
a few years back,
where you would certainly recognize me

676
00:53:40,717 --> 00:53:43,823
from the Lem's Auto Insurance ad

677
00:53:43,920 --> 00:53:46,992
as the poor bastard
who slams his car into a hearse.

678
00:53:47,091 --> 00:53:48,359
lt ran all the time.

679
00:53:48,925 --> 00:53:50,728
l think l missed that one.

680
00:53:50,827 --> 00:53:52,564
Well, l have it on tape.

681
00:53:52,662 --> 00:53:57,872
Be happy to send it to you.
l could even autograph the, uh, tape sleeve.

682
00:53:59,369 --> 00:54:02,040
You know that self-deprecating humor
is usually used

683
00:54:02,139 --> 00:54:06,280
as a defense mechanism for those
with actual low self-esteem, right?

684
00:54:06,676 --> 00:54:08,279
That would be me.

685
00:54:08,411 --> 00:54:10,815
Which doesn't mean it isn't funny.

686
00:54:11,815 --> 00:54:12,983
Thanks.

687
00:54:14,317 --> 00:54:16,387
But what l'm really good at

688
00:54:17,887 --> 00:54:19,357
is bartending.

689
00:54:21,791 --> 00:54:24,596
Hmm, someone's gotta make the drinks, huh?

690
00:54:26,197 --> 00:54:28,066
Yeah, l guess so.

691
00:54:32,136 --> 00:54:33,438
So, uh...

692
00:54:36,339 --> 00:54:38,142
What do you study in college?

693
00:54:38,242 --> 00:54:40,011
Actually, l'm a drama major.

694
00:54:40,977 --> 00:54:42,647
Another actor.

695
00:54:42,746 --> 00:54:45,117
No, l'm just kidding. l'm pre-med.

696
00:54:45,548 --> 00:54:47,451
Really? So, you want to be a doctor?

697
00:54:47,550 --> 00:54:49,487
No. l'm fucking with you.

698
00:54:50,053 --> 00:54:55,597
l'm iust a regular liberal arts,
nothing special, no-real-skills-learned major.

699
00:54:57,127 --> 00:54:59,030
You'll make a great temp someday.

700
00:54:59,129 --> 00:55:00,432
Thank you.

701
00:55:04,768 --> 00:55:08,141
So, um, your friend in there,

702
00:55:08,239 --> 00:55:11,378
he sounded serious about
wanting to kill himself.

703
00:55:12,243 --> 00:55:13,211
He is.

704
00:55:14,944 --> 00:55:18,251
Hmm, interesting. It's his life.

705
00:55:18,882 --> 00:55:20,318
You think so?

706
00:55:21,151 --> 00:55:22,854
No, it's your life.

707
00:55:30,493 --> 00:55:32,128
Let's take a walk.

708
00:55:33,264 --> 00:55:34,499
Where to?

709
00:55:36,766 --> 00:55:38,135
l don't know.

710
00:55:48,411 --> 00:55:50,281
l'm gonna go for a walk.

711
00:55:51,648 --> 00:55:53,651
Come join me, if you like.

712
00:56:05,895 --> 00:56:05,895
And that's when l knew, right then and there,
that l could never eat another tomato!

713
00:56:06,129 --> 00:56:11,573
And that's when l knew, right then and there,
that l could never eat another tomato!

714
00:56:14,070 --> 00:56:16,842
She's not on the porch.
Tell her she'll just have to walk home.

715
00:56:16,940 --> 00:56:20,814
Oh, dear, l'm not going to tell her anything.
l'm going to bed.

716
00:56:21,044 --> 00:56:24,016
Why don't you pin a note to Pasthule's shirt?

717
00:56:24,382 --> 00:56:26,118
-Nice meeting you, Paul.
-Good night.

718
00:56:26,216 --> 00:56:28,588
Good night, Aunt Karen.
We'll tell Suzanne you left.

719
00:56:28,685 --> 00:56:31,457
No, let her figure it out the hard way.

720
00:56:36,926 --> 00:56:39,264
Let's roll him for his billfold.

721
00:56:39,363 --> 00:56:40,865
lf only he had one.

722
00:56:43,833 --> 00:56:46,204
God, l'm sorry l brought you here.

723
00:56:47,437 --> 00:56:49,307
l'm sorry l brought me here.

724
00:56:49,407 --> 00:56:52,178
-Why?
-My family is weird.

725
00:56:53,576 --> 00:56:54,744
All families are weird.

726
00:56:57,381 --> 00:56:59,016
Do you miss yours?

727
00:57:00,450 --> 00:57:01,752
Of course.

728
00:57:04,254 --> 00:57:05,857
They good to you?

729
00:57:10,026 --> 00:57:11,996
Amy was great.

730
00:57:13,229 --> 00:57:14,932
And the baby, well...

731
00:57:15,865 --> 00:57:19,137
Um, l wasn't... l wasn't talking about...

732
00:57:19,903 --> 00:57:22,341
l was talking about your parents.
Wow, l'm sorry.

733
00:57:22,440 --> 00:57:23,608
Oh, no.

734
00:57:26,643 --> 00:57:27,945
Of course.

735
00:57:29,313 --> 00:57:30,915
l miss them, too.

736
00:57:52,436 --> 00:57:53,905
l want you to taste me.

737
00:57:54,637 --> 00:57:56,974
l want you to taste me
and then l want you to fuck me.

738
00:57:57,073 --> 00:57:59,277
Wanna taste me? Do you wanna fuck me?

739
00:58:04,482 --> 00:58:05,717
Taste me.

740
00:59:58,529 --> 00:59:59,764
 Hi.

741
01:00:02,031 --> 01:00:03,466
Good morning.

742
01:00:06,869 --> 01:00:07,904
Wow.

743
01:00:08,539 --> 01:00:09,774
 Mmm.

744
01:00:21,150 --> 01:00:22,720
What time is it?

745
01:00:23,286 --> 01:00:25,758
Um, almost 11:00.

746
01:00:28,091 --> 01:00:29,259
Really?

747
01:00:30,259 --> 01:00:31,829
Yeah.

748
01:00:35,566 --> 01:00:37,302
We should get going.

749
01:00:40,803 --> 01:00:42,472
Do you think there's any Cokes in the house?

750
01:00:42,905 --> 01:00:43,940
Probably Pepsi.

751
01:00:44,040 --> 01:00:45,142
Pepsi?

752
01:00:45,241 --> 01:00:47,044
What kind of flophouse
is your mother running here?

753
01:00:54,150 --> 01:00:55,352
Bonjour.

754
01:00:58,087 --> 01:00:59,723
l'm such an idiot!

755
01:01:00,624 --> 01:01:01,659
Yup.

756
01:01:04,595 --> 01:01:05,930
How was it?

757
01:01:10,133 --> 01:01:11,769
She's kinda nutty.

758
01:01:12,670 --> 01:01:14,472
ln a good way or a bad way?

759
01:01:14,571 --> 01:01:16,173
A little of both.

760
01:01:21,010 --> 01:01:23,214
Was our absence remarked upon?

761
01:01:23,946 --> 01:01:25,649
Pasthule went nuts.

762
01:01:26,315 --> 01:01:27,685
ls that, that guy's name?

763
01:01:28,951 --> 01:01:30,386
l don't know.

764
01:01:31,655 --> 01:01:35,194
Yeah, he nodded off.
Mom went to bed, the aunt went home.

765
01:01:35,291 --> 01:01:38,563
-And what'd you guys do?
-Nothing. Just went to bed.

766
01:01:50,106 --> 01:01:54,581
You're really going back into that water
and swim all the way to New York?

767
01:01:55,778 --> 01:01:57,815
Or are you just gooing on me?

768
01:01:59,215 --> 01:02:00,183
Goofing.

769
01:02:00,850 --> 01:02:03,722
-What?
-The word you mean, it's... It's goofing.

770
01:02:03,820 --> 01:02:08,094
Oh, who cares what the word is, dear?
l'm asking him a question.

771
01:02:09,559 --> 01:02:12,298
Yes, l'm going to swim
all the way to New York.

772
01:02:12,829 --> 01:02:14,431
What do you do when you finish?

773
01:02:17,200 --> 01:02:18,903
Look for a new job, l guess.

774
01:02:19,001 --> 01:02:20,269
There you go!

775
01:02:20,770 --> 01:02:23,942
Can't hurt to see what's out there,
now, can it?

776
01:02:24,040 --> 01:02:25,008
Nope.

777
01:02:25,709 --> 01:02:27,311
Keep my options open.

778
01:02:29,045 --> 01:02:30,882
Ah, there's Renny Van Cort.

779
01:02:31,347 --> 01:02:33,652
The sorrow that man has known.

780
01:02:53,136 --> 01:02:56,208
Wish l could have grabbed
a shower this morning.

781
01:03:21,330 --> 01:03:24,569
There's my favorite

782
01:03:29,672 --> 01:03:32,277
Rollercoaster

783
01:03:36,913 --> 01:03:42,924
Next to the blue water

784
01:03:52,862 --> 01:03:55,734
There's the sun

785
01:04:00,870 --> 01:04:03,708
Going down

786
01:04:08,544 --> 01:04:14,122
Creating that fluorescent glow

787
01:04:23,392 --> 01:04:30,372
Reminding me I'll never be able

788
01:04:39,942 --> 01:04:43,248
To relive this day

789
01:04:47,216 --> 01:04:50,488
Except in memory

790
01:05:12,008 --> 01:05:15,815
There's those big

791
01:05:19,816 --> 01:05:23,389
Barking fish

792
01:05:27,858 --> 01:05:33,068
ln the concrete stream

793
01:05:41,137 --> 01:05:44,911
But where's Dad?

794
01:05:48,577 --> 01:05:54,388
And where is Mom?

795
01:06:03,359 --> 01:06:07,800
Looks like from here on out

796
01:06:08,798 --> 01:06:12,338
lt's me and you

797
01:06:18,976 --> 01:06:23,584
Looks like from here on out

798
01:06:23,679 --> 01:06:25,582
lt's iust me and you

799
01:06:29,987 --> 01:06:32,458
Can l sleep with you tonight?

800
01:06:32,555 --> 01:06:35,460
Tie our sleeping bags together or something?

801
01:06:36,492 --> 01:06:38,562
What are we gonna tell him?

802
01:06:44,367 --> 01:06:47,339
Don't worry about it.
l know how to handle it.

803
01:06:47,503 --> 01:06:50,910
Liz and l are shacking up tonight.
You're on your own.

804
01:06:51,008 --> 01:06:53,612
When did this develop?
l wasn't on the phone that long.

805
01:06:53,709 --> 01:06:55,045
Last night.

806
01:06:56,145 --> 01:06:58,649
Christ!
It was one big orgy back at the house, huh?

807
01:07:00,416 --> 01:07:03,088
She knows. l can hear it in her voice,
she knows.

808
01:07:03,519 --> 01:07:06,658
 l cannot believe you slept with Suzanne.
She's 20 years old.

809
01:07:06,756 --> 01:07:08,459
l didn't find that part to be a problem.

810
01:07:08,557 --> 01:07:10,527
What are you going to do?

811
01:07:11,494 --> 01:07:13,598
-l might not go home.
-What?

812
01:07:14,096 --> 01:07:15,832
l might not go home.

813
01:07:17,266 --> 01:07:19,470
l'm tired of living like this.

814
01:07:20,469 --> 01:07:21,637
Oh, man.

815
01:07:23,239 --> 01:07:24,841
l feel so drained.

816
01:07:26,175 --> 01:07:28,746
And l do not want to do this anymore.

817
01:07:28,911 --> 01:07:30,547
-But you need to.
-What?

818
01:07:30,646 --> 01:07:33,451
Make it work somehow. It's not impossible.

819
01:07:34,250 --> 01:07:36,187
You could have a future, a child.

820
01:07:36,285 --> 01:07:37,854
You iust need to hang in there
and make it work.

821
01:07:38,254 --> 01:07:39,789
You're giving me advice?

822
01:07:42,358 --> 01:07:43,426
Yeah.

823
01:07:47,263 --> 01:07:49,100
What are you gonna do?

824
01:07:53,335 --> 01:07:55,906
l don't know. Keep swimming, l guess.

825
01:08:15,891 --> 01:08:17,227
lt's a rainout!

826
01:08:17,893 --> 01:08:19,696
Let's go get some breakfast.

827
01:08:19,795 --> 01:08:23,002
Take in a movie or something.
Maybe it'll clear up later.

828
01:08:24,333 --> 01:08:25,802
No, no, no, no, no, no, no.
Look at the current.

829
01:08:25,901 --> 01:08:27,204
We can make excellent time.

830
01:08:27,503 --> 01:08:29,440
-Are you kidding?
-What? The rain?

831
01:08:30,306 --> 01:08:31,374
Who cares?

832
01:08:31,474 --> 01:08:34,580
The people who normally stay dry
on this swimming trip, genius.

833
01:08:34,677 --> 01:08:37,816
lt may not matter to you in the water,
but l'll take a dildo in my ass-pussy

834
01:08:37,913 --> 01:08:40,718
before l sit on a boat going
two miles an hour while it's raining.

835
01:08:40,816 --> 01:08:42,052
Let's go.

836
01:08:42,418 --> 01:08:43,419
No.

837
01:08:45,955 --> 01:08:47,291
We're gonna wait till it clears up.

838
01:08:47,423 --> 01:08:49,660
lf you guys don't want to, that's fine.

839
01:08:52,928 --> 01:08:56,702
But l want to reach New York by August 28th,
so l'm swimming.

840
01:08:57,299 --> 01:08:59,603
You can meet me downriver later.

841
01:09:29,265 --> 01:09:33,172
You know, it actually feels kind of warmer.

842
01:09:50,352 --> 01:09:54,326
What are you doing? Stop it! Stop it!

843
01:10:36,999 --> 01:10:37,967
Hey.

844
01:10:39,435 --> 01:10:41,705
The library in this town sucks.

845
01:10:42,239 --> 01:10:45,110
They have, like, two books and a newspaper.

846
01:10:46,209 --> 01:10:47,911
What are you doing?

847
01:10:49,011 --> 01:10:52,551
ls it true, if you cut a worm in half,
you get two worms?

848
01:10:54,251 --> 01:10:56,087
l think you get three.

849
01:10:56,452 --> 01:10:57,954
How's he doing?

850
01:11:03,826 --> 01:11:07,466
Hey, sorry about that, uh, you know, that
whole attempted murder thing this morning,

851
01:11:07,563 --> 01:11:09,533
but l'm over it.

852
01:11:31,487 --> 01:11:35,193
It's amazing here.
It's really... It's amazing here!

853
01:11:36,492 --> 01:11:39,096
 l was on Staten Island once
near this big dump,

854
01:11:39,194 --> 01:11:44,037
where l saw these huge rats fighting
with these seagulls over the rancid garbage.

855
01:11:44,733 --> 01:11:48,474
Let me tell you, this definitely beats that.

856
01:11:54,910 --> 01:11:57,582
Have you ever seen such a lovely sight?

857
01:11:58,614 --> 01:12:00,317
Not in a long time.

858
01:12:01,251 --> 01:12:05,626
There's... There's so much more beauty
in the world, too, you know? There's...

859
01:12:07,489 --> 01:12:11,463
There's visual, artistic, emotional.

860
01:12:15,097 --> 01:12:16,333
And love.

861
01:12:35,417 --> 01:12:38,021
l can't believe we don't have
any weenies to roast.

862
01:12:38,120 --> 01:12:39,323
Or marshmallows.

863
01:12:39,421 --> 01:12:41,491
We could throw Paul in the fire.

864
01:12:41,590 --> 01:12:43,994
Watch him iump out so fast
it'll make our heads spin.

865
01:12:46,929 --> 01:12:50,503
So, how are you planning on killing yourself?
You don't live in that tall building anymore.

866
01:12:52,067 --> 01:12:54,305
l'm not sure, really. Maybe a gun.

867
01:12:55,771 --> 01:12:58,943
We're not gun people.
You're not gonna shoot yourself.

868
01:13:08,851 --> 01:13:09,953
You don't understand.

869
01:13:10,786 --> 01:13:12,188
Help me understand.

870
01:13:13,323 --> 01:13:15,326
lt's not your fault, Liz,

871
01:13:15,424 --> 01:13:18,630
and it's not your responsibility
to try and save me, please.

872
01:13:20,963 --> 01:13:23,000
Look after your own lives, guys, not mine.

873
01:13:23,098 --> 01:13:24,968
Well, here's the problem, butt-plug.

874
01:13:25,067 --> 01:13:27,872
You're a part of my life,
an important part of it,

875
01:13:27,970 --> 01:13:29,840
and you've become a part of Liz's life, too,

876
01:13:29,938 --> 01:13:34,514
so, uh, we are worrying about our own lives.
Got it?

877
01:13:34,610 --> 01:13:37,281
Look, l'm not asking you to agree with me
on this or anything.

878
01:13:37,380 --> 01:13:41,086
l'm just asking you to respect my wishes.

879
01:13:42,284 --> 01:13:43,453
We all have to die sometime,

880
01:13:43,552 --> 01:13:46,925
so what's wrong with choosing
how and when we die ourselves?

881
01:13:47,022 --> 01:13:51,431
lf l were a quadriplegic with burns
over 90% of my body,

882
01:13:51,527 --> 01:13:54,098
you wouldn't try and make me
stay alive, would you?

883
01:13:54,196 --> 01:13:58,170
But you're not even close to being like that.
You're fine.

884
01:13:58,267 --> 01:14:00,004
l'm not fine at all!

885
01:14:03,972 --> 01:14:06,644
Nobody's saying emotional suffering
isn't valid, Paul.

886
01:14:06,742 --> 01:14:12,285
It... 'Cause it is,
and clearly you're not fine,

887
01:14:12,382 --> 01:14:15,521
but the difference between
a quadriplegic and you

888
01:14:15,617 --> 01:14:18,321
is that you can heal someday.

889
01:14:19,988 --> 01:14:21,558
That's your opinion.

890
01:14:21,657 --> 01:14:24,228
No, Paul, that's a fact,
whether you think it is or not.

891
01:14:24,326 --> 01:14:30,071
People can and do heal from emotional pain,
and l'm sick of you saying it's hopeless.

892
01:14:30,265 --> 01:14:31,901
You want us to let you die?

893
01:14:32,000 --> 01:14:34,538
You want us to drive this boat
down the river for you?

894
01:14:34,636 --> 01:14:36,372
Then make us a promise,

895
01:14:36,473 --> 01:14:40,881
and that is to at least consider the possibility
that you still haven't given this enough time,

896
01:14:40,976 --> 01:14:42,412
that you could be wrong about everything.

897
01:15:16,612 --> 01:15:18,181
What was he like as a kid?

898
01:15:18,947 --> 01:15:20,450
He was shorter.

899
01:15:22,618 --> 01:15:24,387
He was unusual, actually.

900
01:15:25,087 --> 01:15:29,663
Um... One part of him was
confident, fun, adventurous.

901
01:15:30,460 --> 01:15:33,198
Then there was always this other side,
for as long as l can remember.

902
01:15:33,295 --> 01:15:35,466
This vulnerability, this, uh,

903
01:15:38,700 --> 01:15:40,436
fragile part of him.

904
01:15:46,308 --> 01:15:48,145
Good old Indian Point.

905
01:15:48,443 --> 01:15:51,950
Hey, wanna get a move-along there?
Uh, we wanna get past these things.

906
01:15:52,047 --> 01:15:53,784
l'm no Mark Spitzer.

907
01:15:54,616 --> 01:15:56,886
Or Stevie Brennan for that matter.

908
01:15:56,985 --> 01:15:59,322
ls it true the water is warmer
near these plants

909
01:15:59,421 --> 01:16:01,826
'cause of the crap they discharge
into the river?

910
01:16:01,924 --> 01:16:03,927
 No. It's freezing!

911
01:16:06,028 --> 01:16:07,931
Should be in Hastings soon.

912
01:16:08,030 --> 01:16:12,405
We can crash at my parents',
'cause they're in Nantucket for the summer.

913
01:16:13,468 --> 01:16:15,371
At their other house that they can afford,

914
01:16:15,470 --> 01:16:18,543
'cause they worked hard
and made the right choices in life,

915
01:16:18,640 --> 01:16:23,482
while l didn't, and therefore live
in a small, no-AC apartment.

916
01:16:24,446 --> 01:16:27,719
But whatever.

917
01:16:52,975 --> 01:16:55,512
''One should always carry
a set of keys to their parents' house.''

918
01:16:55,612 --> 01:16:57,114
lt's just my life philosophy.

919
01:16:57,212 --> 01:16:59,115
Think your mother
still keeps Nestlé's Quik around?

920
01:16:59,214 --> 01:17:00,550
 l know she does.

921
01:17:00,649 --> 01:17:02,853
-Nilla wafers, too.
-Jackpot!

922
01:17:02,951 --> 01:17:04,954
- Nice house.
-Yes.

923
01:17:05,253 --> 01:17:07,256
Welcome to my former home.

924
01:17:07,723 --> 01:17:09,760
Wish l had appreciated it more at the time.

925
01:18:12,689 --> 01:18:15,060
Don't leave us.

926
01:18:15,857 --> 01:18:17,994
Don't leave us, Paul.

927
01:18:19,662 --> 01:18:21,164
Don't leave me.

928
01:18:22,130 --> 01:18:24,634
You're so lovely.

929
01:18:38,647 --> 01:18:41,519
That ought to clear things out for a while.

930
01:18:44,219 --> 01:18:46,089
lt's nice up here, huh?

931
01:18:48,590 --> 01:18:51,730
Remember how we used to build
forts in the woods?

932
01:18:52,260 --> 01:18:54,530
We spent weeks on those things.

933
01:18:54,629 --> 01:18:57,601
l loved building those forts.

934
01:18:57,899 --> 01:18:59,769
They were so elaborate.

935
01:19:04,873 --> 01:19:06,442
You know, you could stay here
for a while, if you want.

936
01:19:06,541 --> 01:19:09,480
My parents won't be back till October.
You could just hang around up here.

937
01:19:09,578 --> 01:19:14,855
Take walks in the woods,
eat Nilla wafers, just hang out and relax.

938
01:19:31,233 --> 01:19:33,838
We should get back to the river.

939
01:20:17,679 --> 01:20:20,684
 If l find you messing
with my dad's gay porn stash,

940
01:20:20,783 --> 01:20:22,953
there's gonna be hell to pay.

941
01:20:23,285 --> 01:20:24,320
Liz.

942
01:20:26,922 --> 01:20:28,157
You okay?

943
01:20:31,193 --> 01:20:33,030
He wants to get going.

944
01:20:35,798 --> 01:20:37,300
Mmm. l know.

945
01:21:21,276 --> 01:21:24,048
Amy. Olivia.

946
01:22:10,492 --> 01:22:13,197
 l'm sorry, l'm sorry.

947
01:22:47,862 --> 01:22:49,265
Time

948
01:22:52,935 --> 01:22:57,510
All the long, red lines

949
01:23:00,075 --> 01:23:03,047
That take control

950
01:23:06,147 --> 01:23:11,457
Of all the smokelike streams

951
01:23:12,721 --> 01:23:16,061
That flow into your dreams

952
01:23:19,427 --> 01:23:23,902
The big, blue, open sea

953
01:23:27,035 --> 01:23:30,174
That can't be crossed

954
01:23:33,808 --> 01:23:37,682
That can't be climbed

955
01:23:40,515 --> 01:23:42,652
Just torn between

956
01:23:46,921 --> 01:23:52,098
Oh, the two white lines

957
01:23:52,794 --> 01:23:56,601
Distant gods and faded signs

958
01:24:00,068 --> 01:24:05,545
Of all those blinking lights

959
01:24:06,008 --> 01:24:09,814
You had to pick the one tonight

960
01:25:02,864 --> 01:25:04,801
Holes

961
01:25:07,969 --> 01:25:12,545
Dug by little moles

962
01:25:14,776 --> 01:25:17,715
Angry, jealous spies

963
01:25:21,083 --> 01:25:25,825
Got telephones for eyes

964
01:25:28,156 --> 01:25:31,195
Come to you as friends

965
01:25:34,796 --> 01:25:39,472
All those endless ends

966
01:25:42,170 --> 01:25:44,474
That can't be tied

967
01:25:48,309 --> 01:25:52,684
Oh, they make me laugh

968
01:25:54,949 --> 01:25:57,587
And always make me cry

969
01:26:02,090 --> 01:26:06,933
Till they drop like flies

970
01:26:08,363 --> 01:26:11,569
And sink like polished stones

971
01:26:15,203 --> 01:26:20,212
Of all the stones l throw

972
01:26:21,776 --> 01:26:25,316
How does that old song go?

973
01:26:35,623 --> 01:26:38,495
How does that old song go?

974
01:26:43,665 --> 01:26:45,435
Congratulations, man.

975
01:26:47,435 --> 01:26:49,272
-Good work.
-Thank you.

976
01:26:51,005 --> 01:26:52,308
Thank you.

977
01:26:53,341 --> 01:26:55,578
Some rough waters at the end there.

978
01:26:58,646 --> 01:26:59,714
Yeah.

979
01:27:01,583 --> 01:27:03,586
Well, you made it through.

980
01:27:06,454 --> 01:27:09,726
Let's get back in the boat,
motor over to Chinatown,

981
01:27:09,824 --> 01:27:12,496
get some celebration dinner. All right?

982
01:27:13,928 --> 01:27:15,798
Come on, man. My treat.

983
01:27:16,331 --> 01:27:18,702
l'm not getting back in the boat.

984
01:27:18,800 --> 01:27:19,868
What?

985
01:27:21,369 --> 01:27:23,740
l'm not getting back in the boat.

986
01:27:24,639 --> 01:27:26,476
What are you gonna do?

987
01:27:41,823 --> 01:27:43,326
Aw, Jesus, man.

988
01:27:43,958 --> 01:27:45,928
Thank you for everything.

989
01:27:47,295 --> 01:27:48,463
Really.

990
01:27:56,170 --> 01:27:57,238
Paul.

991
01:27:57,338 --> 01:27:59,040
Don't get back in that water.

992
01:28:03,911 --> 01:28:05,547
Do not get back in that water!

993
01:28:09,817 --> 01:28:11,252
Paul, please.

994
01:28:11,786 --> 01:28:15,326
Just get back into the boat. We'll iust...
We'll go home.

995
01:28:17,859 --> 01:28:19,161
l'm sorry.

996
01:28:41,783 --> 01:28:44,220
Where are you going?
Where the hell are you going?

997
01:28:48,923 --> 01:28:49,991
Paul.

998
01:28:50,892 --> 01:28:53,430
lt's okay, Jeff. It really is.

999
01:28:54,062 --> 01:28:58,003
You've done all you can.
You've been a good friend, a great one.

1000
01:28:58,399 --> 01:29:00,836
Please, keep the deal we made.

1001
01:30:01,162 --> 01:30:02,932
l'm gonna go get him.

1002
01:30:09,670 --> 01:30:12,174
lf he wants to turn around, he will.

1003
01:33:14,755 --> 01:33:17,827
Salvador Sanchez

1004
01:33:20,795 --> 01:33:23,566
Arrived and vanished

1005
01:33:25,601 --> 01:33:28,005
Only 23

1006
01:33:28,102 --> 01:33:29,905
With so much speed

1007
01:33:30,404 --> 01:33:33,711
Owning the highway

1008
01:33:45,519 --> 01:33:47,991
Mexico City

1009
01:33:51,459 --> 01:33:53,864
Bred so many

1010
01:33:55,463 --> 01:33:58,068
But none quite like him

1011
01:33:58,165 --> 01:33:59,600
Sweet warrior

1012
01:34:00,534 --> 01:34:03,206
Pure magic matador

1013
01:34:15,116 --> 01:34:17,520
Pancho Villa

1014
01:34:20,588 --> 01:34:23,527
Would never rest

1015
01:34:25,493 --> 01:34:28,131
Till 1925

1016
01:34:28,229 --> 01:34:30,032
He closed his eyes

1017
01:34:30,431 --> 01:34:33,637
Till Manila stars would rise

1018
01:34:45,579 --> 01:34:48,451
Ghosts of the Philippines

1019
01:34:51,352 --> 01:34:54,424
Choirs and angels singing

1020
01:34:55,423 --> 01:35:00,399
Ukulele strings play for his legend

1021
01:35:00,861 --> 01:35:02,798
Iloilo King

1022
01:35:15,643 --> 01:35:17,546
Why have they gone?

1023
01:35:17,645 --> 01:35:20,450
felled by leather

1024
01:35:21,582 --> 01:35:26,058
All alone, bound together

1025
01:35:39,500 --> 01:35:46,180
Benny ''Kid'' Paret came a good way

1026
01:35:49,210 --> 01:35:53,953
To climb up gray skies to lift his hands

1027
01:35:54,148 --> 01:35:56,987
Stopped by the better man

1028
01:36:08,829 --> 01:36:12,235
Eyes of Las Villas

1029
01:36:14,702 --> 01:36:17,775
Cry for sons

1030
01:36:19,473 --> 01:36:24,049
Lost on distant shores, unforeseen horrors

1031
01:36:24,145 --> 01:36:26,783
Struck and delivered him

1032
01:36:39,527 --> 01:36:41,564
Why have they gone?

1033
01:36:41,662 --> 01:36:44,434
felled by leather

1034
01:36:45,432 --> 01:36:49,740
All alone, bound together

1035
01:36:51,539 --> 01:36:53,309
Where have they gone?

1036
01:36:53,407 --> 01:36:55,711
felled by leather

1037
01:36:57,311 --> 01:37:01,786
All alone, bound together